One Night: Promised Part 6

'You didn't say that about the rude f.u.c.ker in the posh AMG.' She knows she shouldn't be mentioning him, but she has a point and every right to make it. 'I'm just saying, that's all.'

I shake my head in complete exasperation and push past her, heading into the kitchen to grab my jacket and satchel. All of these emotions the annoyance, the irritation, the heavy heart and the uncertainty, are all a result of one thing . . .

A man.

'I'll see you in the morning,' I call, letting Sylvie lock up on her own.

My peaceful stroll toward the bus stop is short-lived when I hear Gregory calling me. Most uncharitably I sigh, pivoting slowly and not even bothering to plaster an insincere smile on my tired face.

He's in his gardening clothes, looking all grubby with blades of gra.s.s in his messed-up hair. As soon as he reaches me, his arm drapes over my shoulder and he pulls me into his side. 'Going home?'

'Yeah. What are you doing?'

'I've come to give you a lift.' He sounds genuine, but I know different.

'Come to take me home or come to squeeze me for information?' I retort drily, earning myself a flick of his hip into my waist.

'How are you feeling?'

I think carefully about what word to use in an attempt to prevent further interrogation. He knows enough and has filled Nan in, too. I won't be enlightening him on the twenty-four-hour proposition, either, which I'm now in two minds over. I said no and I feel like c.r.a.p, so perhaps I should just dive right in and feel like c.r.a.p, anyway. But at least I'll have an experience to remember while I'm feeling like c.r.a.p something to relive.

'Good,' I answer eventually, letting Gregory lead the way to his van.

'If he's said he's emotionally unavailable, Livy, it can't be a good sign. You've made the right decision not to see him again.'

'I know,' I agree. 'So why can't I stop thinking about him?'

'Because we always fall for the wrong men.' He leans in and kisses my forehead. 'The ones who will mess us around and stamp all over our heart. I've been there, done that, and I'm glad you've held back before falling too far. I'm proud of you. You deserve better.'

I smile, remembering many times when I've held Gregory's hand after he's fallen victim to a man's charm, except Miller isn't charming not in the least bit. It's difficult to nail exactly what it is about him, except for his spectacular looks, but that feeling . . . oh G.o.d that feeling. And what Gregory has just said is perfectly accurate. There's a lack of a mother in my life because of her poor decisions when it came to men. That alone should have me running in the other direction from him, but instead I'm being drawn in. His lips are still soft on mine, my flesh is still warm from his touch and I've lain in bed every night replaying that kiss. Nothing will ever measure up to those feelings.

I let us in the house and head with Gregory to the back kitchen. I can hear Nan and George chatting and the sounds of a wooden spoon colliding with the side of a huge metal pot a stewpot. It's stew and dumplings tonight. I screw my face up and contemplate escaping to the local chippy. I can't stand my grandmother's stew, but it's George's favourite and George is here for supper, so it looks like I'm having stew.

'Gregory!' Nan dives on my gay friend and smothers his face with her marshmallow lips. 'You must stay for supper.' She points to a chair before moving on to me, a.s.saulting me with her squidgy lips too, and then placing me on a chair next to George. 'I do love it when we're all here,' she declares happily. 'Stew?'

Everyone raises their hands, including me even though I don't want stew.

'Sit down, Gregory,' Nan orders.

Gregory wisely sits, looking at me and George with pursed lips when he sees us both smirking at his wary move. 'You say no to her,' he whispers.

'Pardon?' Nan swings round, and we all straighten our faces and backs, like good little children.

'Nothing,' we chant in unison, earning each one of us a few seconds of narrowed eyes from my dear grandmother.

'Hmm.' She places the stewpot on the table. 'Tuck in.'

George virtually dives into the pot, while I just pick at some bread, breaking off tiny bits and chewing quietly while everyone chats happily.

Miller flashes into my mind, making me blink my eyes shut. I smell him, making me hold my breath. I feel his heated touch, making me s.h.i.+ft in my chair. I'm having a mental row with myself as I try to bat away images of him, memories of him and the sound of his smooth voice.

I'm failing on every level. Falling for this man could be a disaster. Everything suggests it will be, and that should be good enough, but it's not. I feel weak and vulnerable, and I hate it. Nor do I like the thought of not seeing him again.

'Livy, you've hardly touched your supper.' Nan snaps me from my daydream, tapping her spoon on the side of my bowl.

'I'm not hungry.' I push the bowl away and stand. 'Excuse me. I'm going to bed.' I feel three sets of concerned eyes on me as I leave the kitchen, but I'm past caring. Yes, Livy I-don't-ever-need-a-man Taylor has fallen, and she's fallen stupidly hard. And worst of all, she's fallen for someone she can't, and probably shouldn't, have.

I drag my heavy body up the stairs and flop into bed, not bothering to undress and not bothering to remove my make-up. It's not even dark, but burying myself under my thick quilt soon remedies that. I want silence and darkness so I can torture myself some more.

Friday drags painfully. I avoided Nan, choosing to skip breakfast and face the worried call that I knew I'd get on my way to work. She wasn't happy but she can't shove cornflakes down my throat from a mile away. Del, Paul and Sylvie have all tried and failed to coax a genuine smile from me, and Luke dropped in for a coffee again, just to see if I've changed my mind on my relations.h.i.+p status. He's persistent, I'll give him that, and he is cute and quite funny, too, but I'm still not interested.

I've been thinking of something all day long, and I keep going to ask, but then I bottle it, knowing what reaction I'll get. And I can hardly blame her. But Sylvie has his number, and I want it. We're closing up the bistro and I'm running out of time. 'Sylvie?' I say slowly, twirling my cloth innocently. It's a silly attempt to look sweet, given what I'm about to ask.

'Livy,' she mimics my careful tone, full of suspicion.

'Do you still have Miller's number?'

'No!' She shakes her head furiously, rus.h.i.+ng into the kitchen. 'I threw it away.'

I make chase, not willing to give up. 'But you dialled him from your phone,' I remind her, smacking into her back when she halts.

'I deleted it,' she spits unconvincingly. She's going to make me beg or pin her down and steal her phone.

'Please, Sylvie. I'm going out of my mind.' My hands meet in front of my pleading face, forming praying hands.

'No.' She breaks my hands apart and pushes them to my sides. 'I heard your voice when you'd left his apartment, and I also saw your face the next day. Livy, a sweet thing like you doesn't need to be getting involved with a man like that.'

'I can't stop thinking about him.' My teeth are clenched, like I'm mad for admitting it. I am mad. I'm mad for appearing so desperate, and I'm even madder for actually being desperate.

Sylvie sidesteps me and pushes her way back into the bistro, her black bob swis.h.i.+ng from side to side. 'No no no, Livy. Things happen for a reason, and if you were meant to be with . . .

I collide with her back again when she trails off and stops dead in her tracks. 'Stop stopping!' I yell, feeling the building frustration getting the better of me. 'What's the . . . It's me who trails off now, as I look past Sylvie and see Miller standing by the bistro entrance, looking smooth in a grey three-piece suit, his hair a mess of dark waves, his blue eyes crystal clear and sinking into me.

He steps forward, completely ignoring my work friend, and keeps his eyes on me. 'Have you finished work?'

'No!' Sylvie blurts, stepping back, pus.h.i.+ng me with her. 'No, she hasn't.'

'Sylvie!' I muscle my way past her with some determined effort until it's me pus.h.i.+ng her back into the kitchen. 'I know what I'm doing,' I say on a hushed whisper. That's not true at all. I have no idea what I'm doing.

She grabs my arm and leans in. 'How can someone go from being so sensible to so d.a.m.ned insane in such a short s.p.a.ce of time?' she asks, glancing over my shoulder. 'You're going to get yourself in trouble, Livy.'

'Just leave me.'

I can see she's torn, but she eventually relents, though not before tossing a warning look in Miller's direction. 'You're mad,' she huffs, turning on her biker boots and stomping off, leaving us alone.

Taking a deep breath, I turn and face the man who's invaded every second of thinking s.p.a.ce since Monday. 'Would you like a coffee?' I ask, indicating the giant machine behind me.

'No,' he answers quietly, walking forward until he's standing mere feet away from me. 'Take a walk with me.'

A walk? 'Why?'

He flicks his eyes to the kitchen entrance, clearly uncomfortable. 'Get your bag and jacket.'

I do as he tells me, without much thought. I ignore Sylvie's stunned face as I enter the kitchen and grab my bag and jacket. 'I'm off now,' I say, hastily leaving her ranting at Del and Paul. I hear her call me stupid and I hear Del call me a grown-up. They are both right.

Throwing my satchel across my body, I approach him and my eyes close when he clasps his palm around the base of my neck to guide me out of the bistro. I'm directed across the road into the small square where he sits me on a bench and takes a seat next to me, turning his body to face mine. 'Have you thought about me?' he asks.

'Constantly,' I admit. I'm not beating around the bush. I have, and I want him to know it.

'So will you spend the night with me?'

'Still just twenty-four hours?' I clarify, and he nods. My heart falls, not that it'll stop me from agreeing. I can't possibly feel any worse than I already do.

His hand rests on my knee, squeezing gently. 'Twenty-four hours, no strings, no commitment and no feelings, except pleasure.' Releasing my knee, he s.h.i.+fts his hand to my chin and pulls my face close to his. 'And it will be pleasurable, Livy. I promise.'

I don't doubt him for a second. 'Why do you want this?' I ask. I know women are notoriously deeper than men, but he's asking me to disregard something that I simply can't. This isn't just l.u.s.t I'm feeling at least I don't think it is. I'm confused. I don't even know what I'm feeling.

For the first time since I've met him, he smiles. It's a proper smile a beautiful smile . . . and I fall a little bit more. 'Because I simply have to kiss you again.' Leaning in, he gently rests his lips on mine. 'It's new to me. I need to taste you some more.'

New? It's new to him? What, like different from his usual polished, diamond-adorned women?

'And because what we can create together shouldn't be pa.s.sed up, Livy.'

'The best f.u.c.k of my life?' I ask against his lips, feeling him smile again.

'And a whole lot more.' He pulls away, leaving me feeling bereft. It might be a feeling that I should get used to. 'Where do you live?'

'I live with my elderly grandmother.' I don't know why I say elderly, maybe to justify my living arrangement. 'Camden.'

A look of surprise flits across his perfect brow. 'Tell your grandmother you'll be back tomorrow night. What's the address?'

'What will I say?' I ask, suddenly panicked. I've never stayed out for a whole night, and no plausible reason to do so now is coming to me.

'I'm sure you'll think of something.' He stands, putting his hand out to me, and I take it, letting him pull me to my feet.

'No, you don't understand.' This will be impossible to pull off. 'I don't stay out at night. She'll never believe me if I try to fob her off with anything other than the truth, and I can't tell her about you.' I'll kill her off with shock. Or maybe I won't. Maybe she'll dance around the kitchen, clapping her hands and thanking the Lord. Knowing Nan, it'll be the latter.

'You never go out?' he frowns.

'No.' I fake nonchalance to within an inch of my life.

'And you've never stayed out overnight? Not even at a girlfriend's?'

I've never been embarra.s.sed by my lifestyle . . . until now. I suddenly feel young, naive and inexperienced, which is ridiculous. I need to locate my long-lost sa.s.s. While he's promised me mind-blowing s.e.x, what does he get out of it, because I'm certainly no s.e.x kitten who'll rock his bed. A man like this must have women forming a queue at his front door, all kitted out in satin or lace, all in stilettos and all ready to send him wild with desire.

I shake my head, looking down to the ground. 'Remind me why you want to do this again.'

'If you're speaking to me, isn't it polite to look at me?' He tips my chin up. 'You don't seem like a self-doubter.'

'I'm not usually.'

'What's changed?'

'You.'

That one word makes him s.h.i.+ft uncomfortably, and I immediately regret saying it. 'Me?'

My head drops again. 'I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable.'

'I'm not uncomfortable,' he argues quietly, 'but now I'm wondering whether this is a good idea.'

My head snaps up, panicked that he might withdraw his offer. 'No, I want to do this.' I don't know what I'm saying but it doesn't stop me from babbling on some more. 'I want twenty-four hours with you.' I step into his chest and look up to his eyes the ones I'm going to lose myself in very soon, if I haven't already. 'I need this.'

'Why do you need it, Livy?'

'I need it to show myself that I've been doing things wrong for too long.' I brave a kiss and reach up on my tiptoes to push my lips to his, hoping I'll remind him of what it felt like last time, hoping he experienced the surge of energy, too. Before I can even think to engage my tongue, I'm wrapped in his arms and being pulled up to his chest, our mouths fused, our bodies bonded, my heart falling further. His lips on mine and his hard body coating me feels . . . right.

'Are you sure?' He removes me from his embrace, holding me at arm's length and hunkering down to ensure he's got my eyes and my attention. 'I've made clear how it'll be, Livy. If you can deal with that, then for the next twenty-four hours, it's just us my body and your body doing incredible things.'

I nod my head convincingly, even though I'm not at all sure. I can see doubt lingering on his stunning face, which pushes me to force a smile, worried that he might pull out on our deal. I might not know what I'm doing, but I certainly don't know what I'll do if he walks away from me now.

'Okay,' he says, sliding his hand around my nape and pulling me into him. 'I'll take you home.' He starts to guide me from the square, his palm secured firmly on my neck as he pushes me onward. I glance up to him, just to check he's there to check that I'm not dreaming.

He's there, and he's gazing down at me, a.s.sessing me, probably a.n.a.lysing my mental state. Should I ask him his conclusion because I haven't the foggiest? All I know is that he's mine for the next twenty-four hours, and I am his. I just hope that I don't find myself in further desolation once my time is up. I'm ignoring the voice in my head, currently screaming at me to stop this right now. I know how this'll turn out, and it's likely to be messy.

But I just can't refuse him. Or myself.

Chapter 6.

'I'll wait here for you.' He pulls up outside my house and takes his phone from his pocket, waving it at me. 'I have a few calls to make.'

He's going to wait? And he's going to wait outside my house? No, no he can't. b.l.o.o.d.y h.e.l.l, Nan's probably sniffed him out already. I look up to the bay window at the front of our house, watching for twitching curtains. 'I can get a cab to your place,' I try, making a mental list of things I need to do once I get inside shower, shave . . . everywhere, moisturise, spritz, make-up . . . tell the fattest lie I ever will.

'No.' He dismisses my offer without even looking at me. 'I'll wait. Go get your things.'

I wince, letting myself out of his car and walking slowly, cautiously, up the path to my house, like Nan might hear me if I go any faster. I insert my key slowly. I turn it slowly. I push the door open slowly. I lift my foot slowly, ready to step inside, clenching my teeth when the door creaks.

d.a.m.n.

Nan's standing three feet away, her arms folded, her foot tapping the patterned carpet. 'Who's that man?' she asks, her grey eyebrows raising. 'And why are you behaving like a cat burglar, hmmm?'

'He's my boss.' I blurt the words fast, and so begins the fattest lie I'll ever tell. 'I'm working tonight. He's brought me home to change.'