Alpha: Omega Part 23

Instead of rolling me off him, he took my weight on his body and wrapped his arms around me, kept me from escaping.

Almost as if he understood the panic shooting through me.

A single tear escaped my eye, because I knew what had just happened had utterly and completely ruined me.

I'm so f.u.c.ked.

14.

DRAW IT OUT.

I woke alone, slowly and disoriented. Sore. Deliciously sore, in all the best ways.

I heard heavy breathing, even and steady from somewhere in the room. Twisting and stretching, I rolled to the edge of the bed toward the sound and saw Harris, stark naked on the floor, doing pushups.

Which might just be the hottest thing I've ever seen. His bare a.s.s was taut and flexed, hard as granite, and the broad plane of his back was a ridged field of pulsing muscles as he lowered himself to the floor with exquisite slowness. His biceps bulged, gleaming with sweat, and he pushed himself up again just as slowly. He breathed out each time he lowered his body, and breathed in when he pushed up. Again and again, never rus.h.i.+ng, never wavering. A hundred times, he did this. I know, because I watched each one, counting with him, fascinated and hypnotized by the sight.

Jesus.

And then he rolled to his back, touched his fingertips to the back of his head, and did the kind of crunches where he jerked his knee toward his face while lunging his torso forward, touching his right elbow to his left knee and vice versa. I know he saw me, but he didn't pause, just crunched, crunched, crunched. Another hundred.

Hooooo, Lordy.

Then he stood, his feet slightly more than shoulder-width apart, and squatted, extending his arms as he did so, then stood up. Like the pushups and the crunches, he made each motion slow and deliberate and with total control.

I might have had to stifle a chuckle at that. I mean, how could I not? He was buck naked, so his junk was flopping all over the place, and it was kind of funny.

But then he finished his hundredth squat and his eyes cut to mine, he turned and stood in front of me, and I stopped laughing. Post workout, naked, sweaty, muscles swollen...Nick Harris was a f.u.c.king beast and I wanted him.

I stared at him, meeting his eyes, and then let my gaze slowly rake down his magnificent body to his c.o.c.k. It was waking up. Stiffening, hanging down but starting to curl to the side as arousal sent blood coursing through it.

f.u.c.k, I wanted him.

I needed him. I'd never needed anyone before, and it had me quaking with fear. I hated being afraid. It made me angry.

So I did the only thing I could think of: I slid off the bed and sank to my knees in front of him, staring up at him. He stood still, arms at his sides, breathing heavily. Maybe if I sucked his c.o.c.k, I'd avoid the intensity, the vulnerability, the need.

I began slowly, intending to make a production of this. Make it good. Make it last. Make it the hottest G.o.dd.a.m.n b.l.o.w.j.o.b he'd ever gotten, or ever will get. I carved my palms up his legs, starting at his calves and grazing them up the backs of his legs to his a.s.s, cupping it, kneading it, digging my fingers into the impressively iron-hard muscle. I turned my eyes down to his c.o.c.k, which was at half-mast, now. I held onto his b.u.t.t and nuzzled his belly above his burgeoning erection, feeling it b.u.mping up against my chin. Slid my lips around to kiss beside the root, and then touched my mouth to his tautening sack. He smelled of sweat, but it was clean, fresh sweat, and I didn't mind it. It was a manly smell, masculine, arousing. I took his sack in mouth and felt his d.i.c.k hardening against my cheek. A glance showed me his hands clenching into fists and releasing, and I flicked my eyes up to his. Snared by the fire in his green eyes, I couldn't look away, wondering what he was thinking. He had his poker face on, only his eyes giving away the fact that he was feeling anything at all. I knew he felt it, though. What, I wasn't sure, but something, and powerfully.

I let the length of his p.e.n.i.s slide against my cheek as I drew my face away from his body, and then finally the tip of his nearly-erect shaft was bobbing at my lips, hardening and straightening. I gave it a lick, a quick flick of my tongue against the head, and Harris sucked in his breath sharply.

I kept my gaze on his, opened my mouth, and took him between my lips, gazing up at him all the while, cupping his a.s.s with both hands. He let out a breath, and his brows furrowed. I backed away, let him bob free of my mouth, and ran my tongue up and down his length, licking him over and over again, broad fat swipes of my tongue against his salty, soft flesh.

I wrapped my lips around the head now, and suckled, starting slowly and gently and increasing intensity until I heard him groan and felt his hips flutter, and then I spat him out. He sagged slightly, exhaling a rough breath.

"Jesus, Layla." He reached down and tried to lift me, but I grabbed his hands and shoved them into the tangled ma.s.s of my hair.

He buried his fingers in my hair and held on, but didn't make any move to urge me to go down on him again. He seemed content to let me do this my way, for now.

Fine by me.

I was totally avoiding things, because I knew if we f.u.c.ked again, there would be talking, and s.h.i.+t would get real, and I wasn't ready for that. Sucking his d.i.c.k nicely circ.u.mvented the whole business, pleasantly for him. And as for me? Well, let's just say his c.o.c.k was not only impressive to look at, but enjoyable for my mouth as well. Maybe I'm in the minority here, but I actually kind of liked giving b.l.o.w.j.o.bs. I liked the power, yes, the feeling of knowing I was able to elicit strong reactions. Control a man via giving pleasure. But I also just liked it, liked feeling c.o.c.k in my hand, liked to stroke the skin, and the musky taste, the feel of him in my mouth, the way he'd tense and explode. It was also a good test of the man, because the good ones would return the favor, maybe not right then, but at some point. And I also really enjoyed receiving c.u.n.n.i.l.i.n.g.u.s. If he didn't return the favor, there usually wouldn't be seconds for him. Call me a b.i.t.c.h, but it was a pretty handy rule of thumb. Not solely because of the oral itself, though, but more because if he wasn't willing to return the favor, he likely wouldn't be focused on making sure I got mine during s.e.x in general. Which didn't work for me. I expected to get mine. That's the whole point, right?

But this, with Harris, this was several things at once. It was a delaying tactic, an avoidance tactic. It was also because I just genuinely wanted to go down on him, wanted to exert some kind of control over him, put him under my spell as payback for the way he had utterly dominated me during s.e.x.

So, I went down on him.

I brought my hands around front, sank back on my heels, and curled my fingers around his shaft. He exhaled sharply, and his fingers tightened in my hair. I hadn't even done anything yet, but he was already grinding his jaws and gripping my curls for dear life.

Oh buddy. Just you wait.

I started stroking him; one hand loosely curled around his thickness and pumped up and down, my skin barely making contact with his. My other hand wasn't idle, though; I had his b.a.l.l.s in my palm and was ma.s.saging them as gently as I could. I stroked him slowly, gentle caresses of his length, up and down, up and down. When my hand reached the top of his shaft, I cupped my palm over his head and gripped it, twisted, then slid my fingers around the plump pink mushroom head and stroked short pumps around the tip, faster and faster until his hips fluttered and his breath left him in a gust.

And then I stopped.

He made a low sound of warning in his chest, a sound of disapproval. Good. That meant he was starting to really feel things, now.

I scooted backward, pushed him a step away, and then gripped his c.o.c.k in both hands and began a slow two-handed pumping, pulling him away from his body and leaning forward to take him into my mouth. Just the very tip, at first, the way you might put your lips on the very tip of a tall scoop of ice cream. Double-fist strokes, over and over. He was grunting, a low, almost inaudible sound, but a good sign. I started bobbing, replacing some of the strokes of my hands with my mouth, going lower and lower, my lips pa.s.sing the groove of circ.u.mcision but no further, bobbing up and down, sucking as the springy flesh entered my mouth. He started thrusting, and his grip on my hair tightened. He really had a thing for my hair, it seemed; he now had both hands gripping the ma.s.s of it tightly near the scalp. He wasn't applying any pressure, though, just holding. His hips flexed, pus.h.i.+ng his c.o.c.k farther into my mouth. I took it, accepted more of his thickness between my lips, let my tongue slide against his flesh, stroked with one hand only now, bobbing down into his thrusts, cupping his b.a.l.l.s and kneading them gently.

His breath was ragged, rasping grunts, and I knew he was close.

So I slowed down. Stroked his length as slowly as I could, lowered my mouth around him, opening my throat and leaning forward to let him in further, taking him deep. He liked that. I did it again, stretching his c.o.c.k away from his body until it was nearly horizontal, holding it by the base with both hands. I glanced up at him through my eyelashes and deep-throated him.

"f.u.c.k." The first word he'd uttered so far.

I hummed a questioning sound-mmmhmmm?

His jaw flexed and he pulled at me, very gently, but a slight pressure as I moved toward him, his c.o.c.k pa.s.sing between my lips, over my tongue, the tip nudging my throat. Harris was breathing hard again, his abs tensed.

He was holding back.

That wasn't gonna work. He was planning to let me take him to the very edge, I realized, and then he'd retake control and try to finish inside my p.u.s.s.y. Try to make it intimate. Face to face, probably. Some way that he could make sure I was there with him, some way he could rea.s.sert my vulnerability.

h.e.l.l no.

So I sped up, started bobbing back and forth, taking him deep into my throat each time, until I had a good rhythm going. I felt him shudder, heard him grunt and sigh, muttering curses under his breath as he neared the edge.

Closer, now.

He throbbed in my mouth, and I tasted pre-come on my tongue. Full strokes, from the tip of his erection against my lips to his belly against my nose, long wet strokes of my mouth around his shaft. I moved my hands to his a.s.s and gripped him, pulled against him, encouraging him to move. He let himself thrust, then, and I kept pulling, harder and harder, getting him to thrust, to f.u.c.k my mouth.

And then he tried to slow down, tried to stop, jerking on my hair, but I ignored him and bobbed harder.

"s.h.i.+t, Layla. You need to stop."

"Mmm-mmm."

"f.u.c.k, I'm close." He liked the vibrations, so I hummed as I deep-throated him, and it wasn't just for him. I felt him throbbing and thrusting and knew he was close, and I was humming in appreciation for his body, for the taste of his c.o.c.k in my mouth.

But then he did something totally unexpected.

He jerked free, roughly, and stumbled backward. "I said stop."

I fell back against the bed. "Why?" I was genuinely confused. Most guys never questioned it when they were that close to finis.h.i.+ng.

"I'm not ready to come in your mouth."

"Where do you want to come, then?" I asked, coyly.

He was tensed all over, fists flexing as he held himself back, growling though his teeth as he willed himself away from the edge of coming.

"Inside you."

I smiled up at him, a devious, mischievous grin. I reached out and grabbed his c.o.c.k, and before he could protest or stop me, I had him in my mouth again, gave him one good deep-throat, then glanced up at him. "This is inside me, Nick."

I wanted it.

I wanted him to give in to me.

This was about winning, about getting my way.

It was also about retaining some distance, some objectivity, some semblance of my former self, maintaining the Layla who didn't feel intense emotional turmoil during soul-shattering s.e.x, the Layla who was shut down and casual. The Layla who didn't fall asleep in a man's arms, content and sated and utterly vulnerable.

Like I'd just done, for the first time ever, last night.

I needed to feel like I was in control, like I was doing what I wanted.

"Jesus, Layla." He grunted this as I resumed my rhythm, going deep, swallowing as he entered my throat to ma.s.sage his shaft with my throat muscles and my tongue.

I cupped his b.a.l.l.s and pressed hard against his taint, gripped his a.s.s with clawed fingers, moaning as I took him, going down hard and fast now, unrelenting and frenzied.

"f.u.c.k," he growled.

"Mmmmm."

"I'm coming, oh f.u.c.k, I'm about to come."

"Mmm-hmmmm."

He buried his fingers in my hair and pulled me closer, thrusting into my mouth. I held myself still and let him f.u.c.k my throat, swallowing with each thrust, feeling him reach the edge, knowing he wasn't going to stop, now.

"s.h.i.+t...Layla, oh G.o.d..."

I felt him spurt, felt it start in his b.a.l.l.s cupped in my palm, felt it as a tense of his taint and a throb of his thrusting c.o.c.k. The first load splashed right down my throat, and I swallowed it, and then backed away to suction my lips around the head, letting go of his rock-hard a.s.s to glide my fingers around his shaft at the base. I stroked him and bobbed around the tip, sucking hard. He cursed again and thrust forward, and now his body locked, thrust forward as the o.r.g.a.s.m ripped through him. I milked it for all it was worth, tasting come on my tongue, feeling it spurt. I swallowed it all and kept sucking, kept pumping as he came again, and again, ma.s.saging his taint the whole time.

Finally, he was done. I let him pop free of my mouth but stroked his softening length a few more times until another drop of come seeped out, which I licked away.

"Jesus, Layla."

"You say that a lot," I pointed out, standing up to relieve my protesting knees.

"You have a way of forcing it out of me."

I just smiled and swayed my hips as I went into the bathroom and shut the door. As soon as I was alone, I collapsed onto the toilet and let myself hyperventilate.

What the h.e.l.l had I done?

I'd had s.e.x with Harris.

f.u.c.king Harris had been a great idea; that wasn't the problem. He'd rocked my world just as hard as I knew he would. The trouble was, he'd rocked it a little too hard.

He'd rocked it so hard something had been shaken loose in my heart.

I wanted more, not just more s.e.x and, more hard f.u.c.king. Duh, yeah, I wanted that, too. But problematically, I needed more of him. More of Nick, the man who kissed my temple, the man who gently clutched my throat as he held himself still within me, just feeling me. More of the man who thought I was perfect.

I didn't want to want more of that. More of that was dangerous. More of that meant everything changing. Everything already had changed, and if I gave in to wanting Nick, wanting to be with him all the time like some addiction, it'd all change again, and I'd lose myself.

I shook myself. "Get a grip, Layla," I told myself out loud.

I peed, and then turned on the shower. When the water was as hot as it was going to get, I got in and soaked my hair, letting the water sluice down my body. I let myself lose focus, let myself not think, not feel, not worry. I just let the hot water beat down on my back and scalp and tried to let the water wash away my troubles.

I didn't hear the door open. Didn't notice the shower curtain slide aside. I didn't notice anything until I felt hands on my hips and lips on my inner thigh.

I jumped a mile, shrieking. "Holy s.h.i.+t, Harris!" I pushed his head away. "What the f.u.c.k are you doing?"

He was kneeling in the tub in front of me, staring up at me. "You didn't think you could get away that easily, did you?"

"Yeah, kind of."

He just grinned. "Good try."

"I'm taking a shower."

"No, you're not." He grabbed my ankle, lifted my leg, and draped the back of my knee over his shoulder.

"I'm not?"

He shook his head. "Nope."

"Then what am I-oh." His tongue was sliding up the inside of my thigh, slowly, inching closer to my core. "Ho-oh...oh-holy s.h.i.+t."

"You're going to want to hold onto something, babe." He pressed his lips to my p.u.s.s.y and sucked my c.l.i.t into his mouth, and then backed away. "This might take a while."