Lirael_ Daughter Of The Clayr Part 17

"Bells!" exclaimed Tep, dropping them in fright and leaping back, almost as if he'd drawn out a nest of writhing serpents. He didn't notice the Charter marks that thronged upon both bandolier and handles.

"A necromancer," whispered Kuke, and Sam heard the sudden fear in his voice and felt the hold on him slackening, the poniard drifting away from his throat, the hand that held it beset by sudden s.h.i.+vering.

In that instant, Sameth pictured two Charter marks in his mind, drawing them from the endless flow like a skilled fisherman selecting his catch from a glittering shoal. He let the marks infuse into his held breath-then he blew them out, at the same time throwing himself to the ground.

One mark flew true, striking Tep with sudden blindness. But Kuke must have been some small Charter Mage himself, for he countered the spell with a general warding, the air sparking and flas.h.i.+ng as the two Charter marks met.

Then, before Sam could even get up, Kuke's poniard stabbed out, sinking deep into his leg, just above the knee.

Sam screamed, the noise adding to Tep's shouts of blind despair as he groped around the room and Kuke's even louder shouts of "Necromancer!" and "A rescue!" That would bring every constable for miles and any guards who might be on the road. Even concerned citizens might come, but it would be brave ones since the word "necromancer" had been heard.

After the first split-second shock of pain, when his whole mind seemed to crack open, Sam instinctively did what he'd been taught to save his life in the event of an a.s.sa.s.sination attempt. Drawing several Charter marks in his mind, he let them grow in his throat and roared out a Death-spell to strike everyone unprotected in the room.

The marks left him like an incandescent spark, leaping to the two constables with terrible force. In a second, it was quiet, as Kuke and Tep tumbled to the floor like broken-stringed puppets.

Sam pushed himself to his feet, the realization of what he'd done rising through the pain. He'd killed two of his father's men ... his own men. They'd simply been doing their job. The job that he was afraid to do. Protecting people from necromancers and Free Magic and whatever else ...

He didn't stop to think any further. The pain was coming back, and he knew he had to get away. In a panic, he picked up his bags, thrust the cursed bells back in, buckled the sword around his waist, and left.

He didn't know how he managed the stairs, but a moment later he was in the common room, with people staring at him as they backed against the walls. He stared back, wide-eyed and wild, and limped through, leaving b.l.o.o.d.y footprints on the floor.

Then he was in the stables, saddling Sprout, the horse blowing wide-nostriled, eyes white with fear at the scent of human blood. Mechanically, he soothed her, hands moving without conscious thought.

A year later, or in no time at all, or somewhere in between, Sam was in the saddle, kicking Sprout into a trot and then a canter, all the while feeling his blood was.h.i.+ng down his leg like warm water, filling up his boot till it overflowed the rolled-back top. Some part of his mind screamed at him to stop and tend to the wound, but the greater part shouted it down, wanting only to flee, flee the scene of his crime.

Instinctively, he headed west, putting the rising sun at his back. He zigzagged for a while, to lay a false trail, then took a straight track through the fields, towards a dark expanse of forest, not too far ahead. He had only to reach it and he could hide, hide and tend his hurt.

Finally, Sam reached the comforting shadow of the trees. He went in as far as he could and fell off his horse. Pain climbed up his leg, spiking all the way. The green world of the forest spun and lurched sickeningly, refusing to hold still. The morning light had gone from yellow to grey, like an overcooked egg. He couldn't focus on the healing spell. The Charter marks eluded him, slipping from his mind. They simply wouldn't line up as they should.

It was all too hard. Easier to let go. To fall asleep, to drift into Death.

Except that he knew Death, knew its chill. He was already falling into the cold current of the river. If he could have been sure of being taken under by that current, rushed through the cascade of the First Gate and then onwards, he might have given in. But he knew the necromancer who'd burnt him was waiting for him in Death, waiting for an Abhorsen-in-Waiting too incompetent to manage the manner of his own pa.s.sing. The necromancer would catch him, take his spirit, and bind it to his will, use him against his family, his Kingdom....

Fear grew in Sam, sharper than the pain. He reached for the Charter marks of healing once more-and found them. Golden warmth grew in his weakly gesturing hands and flowed into his leg, through the black and sodden trouser. He felt its heat rus.h.i.+ng through, all the way to the bone, felt the skin and blood vessels knit together, the magic bringing everything back to the way it was supposed to be.

But he'd lost too much blood too quickly for the spell to render him completely whole. He tried to get up but couldn't. His head fell back, the leaf litter making him a pillow. He tried to force his eyes wide open but couldn't. The forest spun again, faster and faster, and then everything went black.

Chapter Twenty-Nine.

The Observatory of the Clayr The Disreputable Dog woke with great reluctance, spending a number of minutes in stiff-legged stretching, yawning, and eye rolling. Finally, she shook herself and headed for the door. Lirael stood where she was, her arms crossed sternly across her chest. woke with great reluctance, spending a number of minutes in stiff-legged stretching, yawning, and eye rolling. Finally, she shook herself and headed for the door. Lirael stood where she was, her arms crossed sternly across her chest.

"Dog! I need to talk to you!"

The Dog acted surprised, putting her ears back with a sudden jerk. "Shouldn't we be hurrying home? It's after midnight, you know. Third hour of the morning, in fact."

"No!" exclaimed Lirael, all thoughts of talks forgotten. "It can't be! We'd better hurry!"

"Still, if you want to have a talk," said the Dog, sitting back on her haunches and c.o.c.king her head in a prime listening att.i.tude, "there's no time like the present, I always say."

Lirael didn't answer. She rushed to the door, pulling on the Dog's collar as she pa.s.sed, yanking her upright.

"Ow!" yelped the Dog. "I was only joking! I'll hurry!"

"Come on, come on!" snapped Lirael, pus.h.i.+ng her hands against the door and then trying to pull at it, which was difficult because it didn't have a handle or a k.n.o.b. "Oh, how does this open?"

"Ask it," replied the Dog, calmly. "There's no point pus.h.i.+ng."

Lirael let out a huff of frustration, took a deep breath, and then forced herself to say, "Please open, door."

The door seemed to think about it for a moment, then slowly swung inwards, giving Lirael enough time to back away. The roar of the river rose through the doorway, and a cool breeze came with it, lifting Lirael's sadly singed hair. The wind also brought something else, something that attracted the Dog's attention, though Lirael couldn't tell what it was.

"Hmmm," said the Dog, turning one ear towards the door and the Charter-lit bridge beyond it. "People. Clayr. Possibly even an aunt."

"Aunt Kirrith!" exclaimed Lirael, jumping nervously. She looked around wildly, seeking another way out. But there was nowhere to go except back across the slippery, river-washed bridge. And now she could see bright Charter lights out in the Rift, lights made fuzzy by the mist and spray from the river.

"What'll we do?" she asked, but her question echoed in the room, taking up the s.p.a.ce where there should have been an answer. Quickly, Lirael looked back, but there was no sign of the Disreputable Dog. She had simply disappeared.

"Dog?" whispered Lirael, eyes scanning the room as tears started to blur her vision. "Dog? Don't leave me now."

The Dog had left before when people might have seen her, and every time she did, Lirael harbored the secret fear that her one and only friend would never come back. She felt that familiar fear uncoil in her stomach, adding to the fear she felt from what she'd learned. Fear of the secret knowledge she felt seething and broiling in the book she held under her arm. It was knowledge that she didn't want to have, for it was not of the Clayr.

A single tear ran down her cheek, but she quickly wiped it away. Aunt Kirrith wouldn't have the satisfaction of seeing her cry, she decided, tilting her head back to keep further tears at bay. Aunt Kirrith always seemed to expect the worst of Lirael, seemed to think that she would commit terrible crimes and never amount to anything. Lirael felt that it was all because she wasn't a proper Clayr, though some part of her mind had to acknowledge that this was the way Aunt Kirrith treated anybody who departed from her stupid standards.

Lirael kept her head proudly tilted back until she took her first step on the bridge, when she had to look down, down into the roiling mist and the fast-rus.h.i.+ng water. Without the Dog's solid, sucker-footed body at her side, she found the bridge much, much scarier. Lirael took one step, faltered, then started to sway. For a moment, she felt she would fall, and in a panic she crouched down on all fours. The Book of Remembrance and Forgetting The Book of Remembrance and Forgetting s.h.i.+fted as she moved, and it almost fell out of her s.h.i.+rt as well. But Lirael shoved it back in and started to crawl across the narrow bridge. s.h.i.+fted as she moved, and it almost fell out of her s.h.i.+rt as well. But Lirael shoved it back in and started to crawl across the narrow bridge.

Even crawling took all her concentration, so she didn't look up until she was almost across. She was now also acutely aware that her hair was burnt and her clothes totally soaked by the spray that kept was.h.i.+ng over the bridge. And she was barefoot.

When she finally did look up, she let out a stifled scream and made a reflexive hop like a frightened rabbit. Only the quick hands of the two closest Clayr saved her from a potentially fatal fall into the swift, cold waters of the Ratterlin.

They were also the people who had given her the shock, the last two people Lirael would expect to see looking for her: Sanar and Ryelle. As always, they looked calm, beautiful, and sophisticated. They were in the uniform of the Nine Day Watch, their long blond hair elegantly contained in jeweled nets and their long white dresses sprinkled with tiny golden stars. They also held wands of steel and ivory, proclaiming that they were the joint Voice of the Watch. Neither of them looked a day older than when Lirael had first met them properly, out on the Terrace on her fourteenth birthday. They were still everything Lirael thought the Clayr should be.

Everything she wasn't.

There were a whole lot of the Clayr behind them, as well. More of the highest, including Vancelle, the Chief Librarian, and what looked like more of the Nine Day Watch. Quickly counting, Lirael realized that it probably was all all of the current Nine Day Watch. Forty-seven of them, lined up behind Sanar and Ryelle, white shapes in the darkness of the Rift. of the current Nine Day Watch. Forty-seven of them, lined up behind Sanar and Ryelle, white shapes in the darkness of the Rift.

But the total absence of Aunt Kirrith was the worst sign. That meant that whatever she'd done was punishable by something far worse than extra kitchen duties. Lirael couldn't even imagine what sort of punishment required the presence of the entire Watch. She'd never even heard of them leaving the Observatory, not all together.

"Stand up, Lirael," said one of the twins. Lirael realized that she was crouching, still supported by the two Clayr. Gingerly, she stood up, trying to avoid meeting their gaze, not to mention all the other blue and green eyes that she was sure were noting just how brown and muddy her own eyes were.

Words rose up in her mind, but her throat closed when they tried to pa.s.s. She coughed, and stuttered, then finally managed to whisper, "I ... I didn't mean to come here. It just ... happened. And I know I missed dinner ... and the midnight rounds. I'll make it up somehow...."

She stopped as Sanar and Ryelle glanced at each other and laughed. But it was kind, surprised laughter, not the scorn she feared.

"We seem to have established a tradition of meeting you in strange places on your birthday," said Ryelle-or perhaps it was Sanar-looking down at the book poking out of Lirael's s.h.i.+rt and the silver panpipes glinting from her waistcoat pocket. "You need not worry about the rounds or a missed dinner. You seem to have claimed a birthright of sorts tonight, one that has waited long for your coming. Everything else is of little consequence."

"What do you mean by a birthright?" asked Lirael. The Sight was the Clayr's birthright, not a trio of strange magical devices.

"You know that alone amongst the Clayr you have never been Seen in the visions," the other twin began. "Never a glimpse, at least till now. But an hour ago, we-that is, the Nine Day Watch-Saw that you would be here, and in another place also. None of us even suspected that this bridge existed, nor the room beyond. But it is clear that while the Clayr of today have not Seen you in their visions, the Clayr of long ago Saw enough to prepare this place and the things you hold. To prepare you, in fact."

"Prepare me for what?" asked Lirael, panicked by the sudden attention. "I don't want anything! All I want is to be ... to be normal. To have the Sight."

Sanar-for it was Sanar who had spoken last-looked down at the young woman, seeing the pain in her. Since their first meeting five years before, she and her sister had kept a cautious eye on Lirael, and they knew more about her life than their young cousin suspected.

She chose her words carefully.

"Lirael, the Sight may yet come to you in time, and be the stronger for the waiting. But for now you have been given other gifts, gifts that I am sure will be sorely needed by the Kingdom. And as all of us of the Blood are given gifts, we are also laden with the responsibility to use them wisely and well. You have the potential for great power, Lirael, but I fear that you will also face great tests."

She paused, staring into the billowing cloud of mist behind Lirael, and her eyes seemed to cloud, too, as her voice grew deeper and became less friendly, more impersonal and strange.

"You will meet many trials on a path that lies unseen, but you will never forget that you are a Daughter of the Clayr. You may not See, but you will Remember. And in the Remembering, you will see the hidden past that holds the secrets of the future."

Lirael s.h.i.+vered at the words, for Sanar had spoken with the truth of prophecy, and her eyes were sparkling with a strange, icy light.

"What do you mean by great tests?" Lirael asked, when the last faint echo of Sanar's words were lost, drowned in the roar of the river.

Sanar shook her head and smiled, the moment of the vision lost. Unable to speak, she looked at her sister, who continued.

"When we Saw you here this evening, we also Saw you somewhere else, somewhere we have labored for many years to See, without success," said Ryelle. "On the Red Lake, in a boat of woven reeds. The sun was high and bright, so we know it will be in summer. You looked much as you do now, so we know it is in the summer coming that you will be there."

"There will be a young man with you," continued Sanar. "A sick or wounded man, one we were asked to seek for the King. We do not know exactly where he is now, or how or when he will come to the Red Lake. He is surrounded by powers that cloak our vision, and his future is dark. But we do know that he lies at the center of some great and terrible danger. A danger not just to him but to all of us, to the Kingdom. And he will be there with you, in the reed boat, at the height of summer."

"I don't understand," whispered Lirael. "What's that to do with me? I mean, the Red Lake, this man, and everything? I'm just a Second a.s.sistant Librarian! What have I got to do with it?"

"We don't know," answered Sanar. "The visions are fragmented, and a dark cloud spreads like spilt ink across the pages of possible futures. All we know is that this man is important, for both good and ill, and we have Seen you with him. We think that you must leave the Glacier. You must go south and find the reed boat on the Red Lake, and find him."

Lirael looked at Sanar's lips, still moving, but she could hear no sound save the cry of the river. The sound of the water rus.h.i.+ng to be free of the mountain, flowing away, away to some distant and unknown land.

I'm being thrown out, she thought. I don't have the Sight, I've grown too old, and they're throwing me out- "We have also had another vision of the man," Sanar was saying as Lirael's hearing came back. "Come, we will show you, so you will know him at the proper time, and know something of the danger he is in. But not here-we must go up to the Observatory."

"The Observatory!" exclaimed Lirael. "But I'm not ... I haven't Awoken-"

"I know," said Ryelle, taking her hand to lead her. "It is difficult for you to gaze upon your heart's desire when you may not possess it. If the danger were any less, or someone else could shoulder the burden, we would not press you so. If the vision were not of this place that resists us, we could probably show you elsewhere, too. But now we need the power of the Observatory, and the full strength of the Watch."

They walked back along the Rift, with Sanar and Ryelle on either side of an unprotesting Lirael. Lirael briefly felt what the Dog had called her sense of the Dead, a sort of pressure from all the dead Clayr buried throughout the Rift, but she paid it no heed. It was like someone far away calling someone else's name. All she could think of was that they were making her leave. She would be alone again, because the Disreputable Dog might not come. The Dog might not even be able to exist outside the Clayr's Glacier, like a sending that couldn't leave its bounds.

Halfway back along the Rift towards the door where she'd come in, Lirael was surprised to see that a long bridge of ice had spanned the depths. The Clayr were walking back across it and then into a deep cave-mouth on the other side of the Rift. Ryelle saw her look and explained, "There are many ways to and from the Observatory, when we have need. This bridge will melt when we have all crossed."

Lirael nodded dumbly. She'd always wondered where the Observatory actually was, and had tried to find it on more than one occasion. She'd had many daydreams of finding her way there, and finding her Sight within. But all those daydreams were destroyed now.

Across the bridge, the cave-mouth led into a rudely dug tunnel that sloped up quite steeply. It was hard going, and Lirael was hot and out of breath when the tunnel finally flattened out. Ryelle and Sanar stopped then, and Lirael wiped the sweat from her eyes before she looked around. They had left stone behind. Now there was nothing but ice all around, blue ice that reflected the Charter lights the Clayr carried. They had come to the heart of the Glacier.

A gate was carved in the ice, flanked by two guards in full mail, holding s.h.i.+elds that bore the golden star of the Clayr. Their faces were stern under their open helms. One carried an axe that gleamed with Charter marks, the other a sword that shone brighter than the lights, casting a thousand tiny reflections in the ice. Lirael stared at the guards, for they were clearly Clayr, but no one she knew, which she had thought impossible. There were less than three thousand Clayr in the Glacier, and she had lived here all her life.

"I See you, Voice of the Nine Day Watch," said the woman with the axe, speaking in a strange, formal tone. "You may pa.s.s. But the other with you has not Awoken. By the ancient laws, she must not be allowed to See the secret ways."

"Don't be silly, Erimael," said Sanar. "What ancient laws? It's Lirael, Arielle's daughter."

"Erimael?" whispered Lirael, peering at the severe face, sharply defined by the edges of her helm. Erimael had joined the Rangers six years ago and hadn't been seen since. Lirael had thought Erimael must have been killed in an accident and that she'd missed her Farewell, as she had missed so many other events that required her to don the blue tunic.

"The laws are clear," said Erimael, still in the same stern voice, though Lirael saw her gulp nervously. "I am the Axe-Guard. She must be blindfolded if you wish her to pa.s.s."

Sanar snorted and turned to the other woman. "And what says the Sword-Guard? Don't tell me you agree?"

"Yes, unfortunately," said the other woman, who Lirael realized was much older. "The letter of the law is strict. Guests must be blindfolded. Anyone who is not an Awoken Clayr is a guest."

Sanar sighed and turned to Lirael. But Lirael had already hung her head, to hide her humiliation. Slowly, she undid her head scarf, folded it into a narrow band, and bound it around her head, covering her eyes. Behind the soft darkness of the cloth, she wept silently, the blindfold soaking up her tears.

Sanar and Ryelle took her hands again, and Lirael felt the sympathy in their touch. But it did not matter. This was even worse than when she was fourteen, standing alone in her blue tunic, suffering the public shame of not being a Clayr. Now she was irrevocably marked as an outsider. Not a Clayr at all, of any kind. Only a guest.

She asked only two questions as Ryelle and Sanar led her through what felt like a complicated, maze-like pa.s.sage.

"When will I have to go?"

"Today," replied Ryelle, as she stopped Lirael and prepared her for another sharp turn by gently pus.h.i.+ng her elbow till she was facing the right way. "That is to say, as soon as possible. A boat is being prepared for you. It will be spelled to take you down the Ratterlin to Qyrre. From there you should be able to get some constables or even some of the Guard to escort you to Edge, on the Red Lake itself. It should be a fast and uneventful journey, though we wish we could See some of it beforehand."

"Am I to go alone?"

Lirael couldn't see, but she sensed Sanar and Ryelle exchanging glances, silently working out who would speak. At last Sanar said, "That is how you have been Seen, so I'm afraid that is how you will have to go. I wish it were otherwise. We would fly you down by Paperwing, but all the Paperwings have been Seen elsewhere, so the river it must be."

Alone. Without even her one friend, the Disreputable Dog. It didn't really matter what happened to her now.

"There are some steps down here," said Ryelle, stopping Lirael again. "About thirty, I think. Then we will be in the Observatory, and you can take the blindfold off."

Lirael mechanically went with the twins down the steps. It was unsettling, not being able to see where her feet were going, and some of the steps seemed lower than the others. To make it worse, there was a weird rustling noise all around, and occasionally the hint of whispers or smothered conversations.

Finally, they arrived on level ground and took a half dozen steps forward. Sanar helped untie her blindfold.

Light was the first thing Lirael noticed, and s.p.a.ce, and then the ma.s.sed ranks of the Clayr, silently standing in their white, rustling robes. She stood in the center of a huge chamber carved entirely out of ice, a vast cave easily as large as the Great Hall she knew and hated so much. Charter Magic lights shone everywhere, reflecting from the many facets of the ice, so that there was not a hint of darkness anywhere.

Lirael instinctively looked down when she saw all the other Clayr, so she couldn't meet anyone's eyes. But as she cautiously peered out from behind her protective fall of singed hair, she saw that they were not looking at her. They were all looking up. She followed their gaze and saw that the angled ceiling was perfectly smooth and flat, one single enormous sheet of clear ice, almost like an enormous, opaque window.

"Yes," said Sanar, noting Lirael's stare. "That is where we focus our Sight, so all the fragments of the vision can become one, and everyone can See."

"I think we may begin," announced Ryelle, looking around at the ma.s.sed, silent ranks of the Clayr. Nearly every Awoken Clayr was there, to join a Watch of Fifteen Sixty-Eight. They stood in a series of ever-wider circles around the small central area where Lirael, Sanar, and Ryelle stood, like some strange concentric orchard of white trees that bore silver and moonstone fruit.

"Let us begin!" cried Sanar and Ryelle, and they lifted their wands and clashed them together like swords. Lirael jumped as all the gathered Clayr shouted back, a great bellow that she felt through her bones.

"Let us begin!"

As one, the Clayr in the closest circle joined hands, snapping together as in a military drill. Then the next circle joined hands, and the next, a wave of movement rippling from the center to the farthest circle in the Observatory, till all was still again.

"Let us See!" cried Sanar and Ryelle, clas.h.i.+ng their wands again. This time, Lirael was prepared for the shout that came back, but not for the magic that followed. Charter marks seemed to well up out of the icy floor, flowing up through the Clayr of the first circle, till there were so many, they brimmed over and flowed into the next circle, and then the one after that. Charter marks that flowed like thick golden fog up the Clayr's bodies and along their arms.