Fear Not Part 52

'It's the police,' Rolf sobbed from the doorway. 'Marcus! The police are here.'

But Marcus was no longer there. He had gone into his study and sat down on his calfskin-covered desk chair behind the desk made of polished silver birch. The door was closed but not locked. When he heard Rolf call out again, he opened the top drawer, where he had placed the pistol from the gun cupboard in readiness.

He removed the safety catch and placed the barrel to his temple.

'Tell them the whole story,' he said, even though no one could hear him. 'And take good care of our son.'

The last thing Marcus Koll Junior heard was Rolf's scream and just a fraction of the short, sharp report.

A short man accompanied by a fat African-American came towards Richard Forrester as he approached pa.s.sport control at John F. Kennedy International Airport. The queue looked endless, and for a brief moment it occurred to him that they were perhaps going to offer him special privileges as a first-cla.s.s pa.s.senger, allowing him to go ahead of all the other travellers. He smiled encouragingly as the smaller of the two men looked at him and asked: 'Richard Forrester?'

'Yes?'

The man took out an ID card, which was very easy to recognize. He began to speak. Richard's voice disappeared. There was a rus.h.i.+ng sound in his ears, and he felt so hot. Too hot. He tugged at his tie, he couldn't get his breath.

'... the right to remain silent. Anything you say can and will be used against you in ...'

Richard Forrester closed his eyes and listened to the drone of the Miranda warning that seemed to be coming from somewhere far, far away. Something had gone wrong, and for the life of him he couldn't work out what it was. There wasn't a trace of him anywhere. No prints. No photos. He had only been in England, on a business trip relating to his small but well-run travel company.

'Do you understand?'

He opened his eyes. It was the fat man who had asked. His voice was rough and deep, and he glared at Richard as he repeated: 'Do you understand?'

'No,' said Richard Forrester, holding out his hands as the smaller man requested. 'I don't understand a thing.'

'Adam,' Johanne said quietly, moving close to his sleeping body. 'Wasn't there anything we could have done to prevent that suicide?'

'No,' he mumbled, turning over. 'Like what?'

'I don't know.'

The time was 2.35 in the morning on Sunday 18 January 2009. Adam licked his lips and half sat up to have a drink of water.

'I can't sleep,' Johanne whispered.

'I've noticed,' he smiled. 'But it has been rather an eventful day, after all.'

'I'm so glad you caught the last flight home.'

'Me too.'

She kissed him on the cheek and wriggled into the crook of his arm. The worn old leather-bound diary was still lying on Adam's bedside table. He had shown it to her, but hadn't let her read any of it. No one else knew of its existence. The highly personal contents had affected him deeply. Religious musings, philosophical observations. Accounts of everyday life. The story of how a h.o.m.os.e.xual man had created a child with a lesbian woman, about the happiness and the pain of it, the shame. All in small, ornate handwriting that seemed almost feminine. As soon as Adam had landed at Gardermoen he had decided to write a report on the key elements relating to the murder of Eva Karin Lysgaard, and to make it look as if Erik had told him everything. No one else would ever see the diary.

'I'm sure he's not going to convert after this,' Adam said quietly.

As early as their second meeting, Lukas had mentioned Erik's fascination with Catholicism. The young man had actually smiled when he talked about his parents' trip to Boston the previous autumn. Eva Karin was a delegate attending a world ec.u.menical congress, and Erik had visited the city's Catholic churches. What neither Eva Karin nor Lukas knew was that he had gone to confession. He had a theological background, and could pa.s.s for a Catholic if he so wished. His conversation with the priest in the confessional was reproduced in detail in the brown leather-bound diary. It had been Erik's very first confidential discussion about the great lie of his life that was so difficult to bear.

'Do you think it's the priest? Is he something to do with The 25'ers?'

Johanne was whispering, even though she had let the children stay over with her parents. They had looked after them while she was with Silje Srensen, and both children had flatly refused to come home when she eventually turned up to collect them, puffing and panting.

'Who knows? The priest or someone connected with him. Catholics have a certain ... tradition when it comes to taking the law into their own hands, you could say. At any rate, it's clear Erik never spoke to anyone else about this, and I think it's out of the question that Eva Karin would have had another confidante apart from Martine. I've met Martine. Eva Karin didn't need anyone else, believe me. A really lovely woman. Very wise. Warm.'

He smiled in the darkness.

'Anyway, the Americans will clear things up now. It turns out the FBI had quite a lot of information already. They just needed this ... key. We've given them so much information they think they'll probably be able to blow the entire organization apart. Back here the investigation is firing on all cylinders. We'll be mapping the movements of all American citizens over the past few months. We can combine and compare information from all six murders now we know they're linked. We'll be-'

'The picture,' Johanne interrupted him. 'The artist's sketch, that was what led to the breakthrough. For the Americans and for us. Silje told me it took the FBI only nine hours to establish the ident.i.ty of one of the perpetrators. The driving licence register combined with information about travel between Europe and the States over the past few months was enough to identify the man. That drawing solved the entire case.'

'True. It's quite frightening to think how surveillance actually works. This will be grist to the mill for those who want to see more of that kind of thing.'

Adam kissed the top of her head.

'The picture was important,' he went on. 'You're right there. But it was mostly down to you, sweetheart.'

They both fell silent.

'Adam ... ?'

'Yes.'

'If they do destroy The 25'ers, sooner or later a new organization will emerge that stands for the same thing. Thinks the same way. Does the same kind of thing.'

'Yes. I'm sure you're right.'

'Here in Norway, too?'

'In some ways that's in our hands, I suppose.'

The silence went on for so long that Adam's breathing fell into a slower, deeper rhythm.

'Adam ... ?'

'I think we should get some sleep now, sweetheart.'

'Have you never believed in G.o.d?'

She could hear that he was smiling.

'No.'

'Why not? Not even when Elisabeth and Trine died and-'

He carefully moved his arm and gently pushed her away.

'I really would like to go to sleep now. And you should do the same.'

The bed bounced as he turned on to his side with his back to her. She shuffled after him, feeling his body like a big, warm wall against her own nakedness. It took him less than a minute to get back to sleep.

'Adam,' she whispered, as quietly as she could. 'Sometimes I believe in G.o.d. A little bit, anyway.'

He laughed, but in his sleep.

EPILOGUE / PROLOGUE.

May 1962.

The Encounter.

Eva Karin has just turned sixteen, and she has a dress made of pale blue polyester.

Her mother made it, just as she has made every single dress Eva Karin has ever owned. This is the best one of all, and the first with an adult cut a Jackie Kennedy dress she didn't even get around to wis.h.i.+ng for. She didn't get around to wis.h.i.+ng for anything at all. She didn't give her birthday a thought.

There has been no room for anything apart from this one huge thing, this terrible thing that has to go away.

When she opened her present she had to pretend she was happy. As if it were possible for her to be happy. Her mother was so overjoyed with the beautiful material and her fine st.i.tching that she didn't notice how Eva Karin was feeling.

No one can see how Eva Karin is feeling. Except G.o.d, if He exists.

She put on the dress when she got up this morning. Her mother was annoyed; she was supposed to save it until 17 May, Norway's National Day. Eva Karin said she didn't want to be late for school, and hadn't got time to change. Her mother gave in. She was also a little proud, Eva Karin could see that. Dark-eyed, black-haired Eva Karin with the ice-blue dress that made her look American.

She had hidden the ballerina pumps in her bag. She changed out of her sensible walking shoes as soon as she was out of sight.

Eva Karin has dressed up to die.

She doesn't want anyone she knows to find her body. She is heading up to Lvstakken, all the way up; her younger siblings are too little to go up there, and her mother and father never set foot there either.

The air is sharp and clear. It's chilly, and she pulls the golf jacket more tightly around her. She has to look where she's going. There are roots and stones on the track, and she doesn't want her ballerina pumps to get dirty.

Her father doesn't believe in G.o.d.

Eva Karin wants to believe in G.o.d.

She has prayed so hard.

She has read His book, which she has to hide in her underwear drawer so that her father won't find it. Religion is the opium of the people, he frequently growls, and Eva Karin and her siblings are the only children she knows who have not been baptized and confirmed. She has read and searched in the forbidden Bible, but all she finds is condemnation.

G.o.d and her father are in agreement on just one thing: people like her have no right to live.

People like her must be spoken about using a particular language. A particular language consisting of looks, gestures and words which actually mean something else, but when they are used about people like her, they acquire a dark meaning that she cannot live with.

She always thought it was only men who were like that.

They exist, she knows they exist, because they are the ones who become the object of those ambiguous words, those looks, those obscene gestures the boys make behind Mr Berstad's back, making the girls sn.i.g.g.e.r. All except Eva Karin, who blushes.

She stops for a moment. The sun is s.h.i.+ning down through the fresh new leaves. The ground looks as if it is covered with s.h.i.+mmering liquid gold. Dense carpets of wood anemones surround the trees, protecting the roots. The birds are singing, and high above the treetops, white fluffy clouds drift by.

She has been going out with Erik for six months now.

Erik is nice. He never touches her. Doesn't want to kiss and cuddle, doesn't grope her the way her friends tell her the other boys do. Erik reads books and works hard in school. They drink tea together, and Erik sometimes shows her a few of the poems he has written, which are not particularly good. Eva Karin enjoys Erik's company. She feels safe. She feels calm when she is with Erik. Not like when she sees Martine.

Suddenly she sets off again.

She mustn't think about Martine. She mustn't see Martine in her mind's eye, when they stay the night with each other and their mothers don't even knock on the door when they come in to say goodnight.

Eva Karin has prayed and prayed. That she might escape Martine. That she might find the strength to stop wanting her. Eva Karin has spent entire nights on her knees by her bed, with her hands clasped together and her eyes closed. No one has answered her, not even on those occasions when she placed shards of of gla.s.s beneath her knees. Martine is with Eva Karin whether she is there or not; she never goes away. Eva Karin prays until she faints with exhaustion, but no one ever answers her prayers. Perhaps her father is right after all, just as he is right when he says that people like her are an abomination.

Her father and mother must never know, thinks Eva Karin as she stumbles on up the track. Her father, who has sung to her, played with her, who made a wooden doll's pram for her in his workshop when she was five years old; her father who cheered and swung her up on to his shoulders and carried her along in the procession every year on 1 May until she got too heavy, and was allowed to carry the left-hand ta.s.sel on the trade union flag instead; her father must never find out that his daughter is one of those.

One of those.

Eva Karin is one of those.

Eva Karin wants to die, and she has one of her father's razor blades in her bag.

A boy is coming towards her through the trees. Not along the track, like her. He appears from the side, she turns away, no one must see her tears, and certainly not now, not when she is about to die. Eva Karin increases her speed.

Suddenly, he is standing in front of her.

He is smiling.

He is more of a man than a boy, she sees now, and his hair is unkempt. It can't have been cut for ages, and she recoils.

'Do not be afraid,' he says, holding out his arms with the palms facing her. 'I only want to talk to you.'

When he extends one hand towards her, she takes it.

She doesn't know why, but she takes the stranger's hand and goes with him into the forest. They walk among the trees, wading through the wood anemones to a little glade warmed by the sun. He sits down with his back resting against a tree trunk, and gently pats the ground beside him.

The man is wearing American blue jeans and a white collarless s.h.i.+rt. His feet are bare apart from a pair of sandals like the ones her father has; they never come out of the wardrobe until the summer holidays. The stranger speaks with a Bergen accent, but he is not like anyone she has ever met.

Eva Karin sits down. The sun pours its warmth over her, and the light is intense. She screws up her eyes as she looks at the sky.

'You are not to do this,' says the man with the ice-blue eyes.