Gabriel's Inferno: Gabriel's Rapture Part 17

In order to solve this very juicy mystery, Christa contacted an old flame from Florence who wrote for La n.a.z.ione, hoping that he would provide her with information about Professor Emerson's personal life. While she waited for a response, she focused on an information source closer to home. In the Vestibule, all sins would be revealed.

Professor Emerson's marked absence from Lobby began the evening she tried to seduce him. So, she reasoned, his relations.h.i.+p with his fiancee must have begun around that time. Previously, he hadn't cared who he hooked up with or when. Or perhaps he and his fiancee had been involved only causally until that fateful night. It was possible that the Professor was far from monogamous in his relations.h.i.+p and that he'd had a fiancee all along, although such an attachment would have likely made the rounds of the rumor mill.

(Toronto is, after all, a small town.) Christa's way forward was clear. It was likely that the Professor and his fiancee had visited Lobby sometime over the course of the winter semester, since it appeared to be his watering hole of choice. All she needed to do was to find someone who worked at the club and pump him for information.

Late on a Sat.u.r.day night, Christa stalked the staff at Lobby, trying to discover the weakest link. She sat at the bar, absolutely ignoring the tall, blond American woman who was there for the same purpose, having just flown in from Harrisburg. Christa's full, red lips curled back in disgust when the woman pulled out her iPhone and spoke very loudly in Italian to a maitre d' called Antonio.

As the night wore on, Christa soon realized her options were few. Ethan had a serious girlfriend, which meant that he wouldn't be ripe for the picking. More than one of the bartenders were gay, and all the servers were women. Which left Lucas.

Lucas was a computer geek (not that there's anything wrong with that) who a.s.sisted Ethan with security at the club, in a technical capacity. Lucas had access to the video recordings from the security cameras, and it was he who rather enthusiastically agreed to let Christa into the club after hours so they could sift through CD upon CD of footage, starting with September 2009.

And that was how Christa found herself sitting on the vanity in the women's washroom with Lucas pounding into her on a Sunday morning when she should have been in church.

Gabriel and Julia arrived back in Toronto late in the evening on January first. They went to Julia's apartment so she could drop off some things and retrieve some clean clothes. Or so Gabriel thought. With the taxi waiting at the curb for them to return, he stood in the middle of her cold and shabby apartment expecting her to pack an overnight bag. She didn't.

"This is my home, Gabriel. I've been gone for three weeks. I need to do laundry, and I need to work on my thesis tomorrow. Cla.s.ses start on Monday."

His expression grew very dark very quickly.

"Yes, I'm aware of when cla.s.ses begin." His tone was clipped. "But it's freezing in here. You don't have any food, and I don't want to sleep without you. Come home with me, and you can return tomorrow."

"I don't want to go home with you."

"I told you I'd have the master bedroom redone, and it has been. The bed, the furniture, it's all new." He grimaced. "They even painted the walls."

"I'm still not ready." She turned her back on him and began unpacking her suitcase. He took one look at her activities and strode through the apartment door, closing it somewhat loudly behind him.

Julia sighed.

He was trying, she knew. But his revelations had scorched holes in her already fragile self-confidence, a self-confidence that had only begun to be rebuilt during their time in Italy. She knew herself well enough to know that her fear of losing him was grounded in her parents' divorce and in Simon's betrayal. Although she knew all these things, it was very difficult to will herself to disregard them and to believe that Gabriel's love would never wane.

She'd just walked to her door to bolt it when he walked in, suitcase in hand. "What are you doing?"

"Keeping you warm," he said stiffly.

Gabriel placed his suitcase down and disappeared into the bathroom, closing the door behind him. He emerged a few minutes later with his s.h.i.+rt untucked and unb.u.t.toned, muttering something about having successfully turned on her d.a.m.ned electric heater.

"Why did you come back?"

"I am not accustomed to sleeping without you. In fact, I'm about ready to sell the d.a.m.n condo and all my furniture and buy something else." He shook his head and proceeded to undress unashamedly without further conversation.

While Julia used the bathroom, Gabriel examined some of the items she'd displayed on her card table-the book containing the Botticelli reproductions he'd given her for her birthday, a pillar candle, a book of matches, and the photo alb.u.m of pictures he'd taken of her.

As he leafed through the alb.u.m, he found himself aroused. She'd promised to pose for him again. She wanted him to photograph her. A month earlier he never would have believed that such a thing could come to pa.s.s. She'd been so timid, so nervous.

He recalled the look she had in her eyes when he took her to his bed after their horrible argument in his seminar. Thinking of Julianne's eyes, large and terrified, and the way her body trembled under his hands, diminished his arousal. He didn't deserve her. He knew that. But her own perceived unworthiness prevented her from seeing the truth.

He flipped through the pictures before focusing on one-Julianne in profile with his hand on her shoulder, his other hand holding up her hair, while he pressed his lips to her shapely neck.

She was unaware of the fact that he had a copy of that picture hiding in his closet. He'd never displayed it, for he was worried about her reaction. When he returned to his newly redecorated bedroom, hanging that photograph would be his first task.

The thought alone was more than enough to fuel his desire, so he took the candle and struck a match to light it, placing it on the card table before turning out the lights. A romantic glow fell over the photographs and the bed just as Julia entered the darkened s.p.a.ce.

He sat on the edge of her narrow bed, completely naked, while she stood clutching a pair of worn flannel pajamas. They had rubber duckies on them.

"What are you doing?" He glanced at her sleepwear with barely disguised distaste.

"I'm getting ready for bed."

Gabriel stared. "Come here."

She walked over to him slowly.

He took the fabric from her, tossing it aside. "You don't need pajamas. You don't need to wear anything."

Julia carefully proceeded to disrobe in front of him, placing her clothes on one of the folding chairs.

He paused her movement toward the bed and placed his hands on top of her head, almost as if he were blessing her. Then he began to touch her, pa.s.sing his fingers through her long hair to her face, where he caressed her eyebrows and cheekbones. His eyes remained stubbornly fixed on hers, the heat of their intensity searing into Julia's consciousness.

In her whole life, no one had ever looked at her like that. Like a blue tractor beam that froze her and pulled her in. Like she was the only woman in the room, in the world, the only woman ever. Like she was Eve.

Something of the old Professor Emerson was visible now, especially in his expression, which was s.e.xual and raw. She closed her eyes briefly, and his hands moved from her neck to her face, pausing for a moment.

"Open your eyes."

She opened them and gasped at the hunger reflected back to her. He was like a lion, eager to feed but still stalking his prey. He didn't want to scare her off. But she was helpless in her own desire for him.

"Have you missed me touching you like this?" he asked, his voice a scorching whisper.

Julia's affirmation escaped her mouth as a strangled groan. Gabriel's chest swelled with pride.

It was a long journey from her face to her knees, and he seemed to enjoy it, pausing slowly at different parts, his touch light but heated. She felt warm beneath his gentle fingers, despite the coldness of the room. As soon as she thought of the cold, she flinched.

Gabriel stopped his explorations immediately, and moved aside to allow her to crawl into bed, closest to the wall. He pressed his chest to her back, pulling the purple duvet over their naked bodies.

"I've missed making love with you. It was as if one of my limbs was missing."

"I missed you too."

He smiled his relief. "I'm very glad to hear that. It was tortuous to go a week without being able to touch you like this."

"It was tortuous to go a week without being able to feel you touching me."

The stirrings of desire in her voice set fire to Gabriel's blood. He tightened his hold on her, squeezing gently. "Cuddling is a very important component to making love."

"I would never have pegged you as a cuddler, Professor Emerson."

He drew some skin from her neck into his mouth, sucking it lightly. "I have become a great many things since you made me your lover." He placed his face in her hair, inhaling her vanilla scent deeply. "Sometimes I wonder if you realize how much you've changed me. It's no less than miraculous."

"I'm no miracle worker. But I love you."

"And I love you." He was quiet for a moment or two, which surprised her. She had expected him to begin making love immediately.

"You never told me what happened at Kinfolks restaurant the day before Christmas." Gabriel tried to sound relaxed, for he didn't want her to think he was scolding her.

In the hope of ending the conversation quickly so they could move on to other activities, Julia described her altercation with Natalie. She left out the part where Natalie had mocked her s.e.xual encounters with him in front of everyone. Gabriel rolled her onto her back so he could see her face.

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"It was too late for you to do anything."

"I love you, d.a.m.n it! Why didn't you tell me?"

"Paulina was waiting for us when we returned to the house."

He scowled. "Right. So you threatened your former roommate with a newspaper article?"

"Yes."

"Do you think she believed you?"

"She wants out of Selinsgrove. She wants to be Simon's official girlfriend and hang on his arm at political events in Was.h.i.+ngton. She isn't going to do anything to jeopardize that."

"Doesn't she have all that now?"

"Natalie is Simon's dirty little secret. Which is why it took me so long to figure out he was f.u.c.king her."

Gabriel winced. Julia didn't use profanity often, and when she did, it was jarring.

"Look at me." He pressed his forearms into the mattress on either side of her shoulders.

She looked up into concerned blue eyes.

"I'm sorry he hurt you. I'm also sorry I didn't do more damage to his face when I had the chance. But I can't say I'm sorry he went after your roommate. Otherwise you wouldn't be here with me."

He kissed her, his hand tracing the curve of her neck until she sighed contentedly into his mouth.

"You are my sticky little leaf. My beautiful, sad, sticky little leaf, and I want to see you happy and whole. I'm sorry for every tear I've made you shed. I hope that someday you'll be able to forgive me."

She hid her face in the crook of his shoulder as she clutched him closer. Her hands explored his body until they were one. The silent air of her tiny studio was broken only by heavy breathing and m.u.f.fled pants and her own voice moaning to a fevered pitch.

It was a subtle language-this shared language of lovers: the reciprocation of sigh and groan, antic.i.p.ation growing and feeding until groans became cries and cries became sighs once more. Gabriel's body covered hers completely, a delicious weight of man and sweat and naked skin upon naked skin.

This was the joy that the world sought-sacred and pagan all at once. A union between two dissimilars into a seamless one. A picture of love and deep satisfaction. An ecstatic glimpse of the beatific vision.

Before Gabriel withdrew from her, he pressed one more kiss to her cheek. "Will you?"

"Will I what?"

"Forgive me for deceiving you about Paulina. For taking advantage of her."

"I can't forgive you on her behalf. Only she can do that." Julia chewed at her bottom lip. "Now, more than ever, you need to see that she gets help so she can move on with her life. You owe her that."

He wanted to say something, but somehow the strength of her goodness silenced him.

Chapter 14.

As the semester unfolded, Julia was under tremendous pressure to complete her thesis, and Katherine Picton was pus.h.i.+ng her to submit chapters more quickly. Quicker chapters would make it easier to speak more specifically about Julia's abilities to Greg Matthews, the Chair of the Department of Romance Languages at Harvard, should he follow up on her reference letter.

Julia couldn't concentrate when Gabriel was around. Her voice grew soft when she told him why. Something about blue eyes and s.e.xual pyrotechnics and a chemistry that vibrated in the air between them, all of which kept her from focusing on the tasks at hand. Gabriel was extremely flattered.

So the happy couple worked out a compromise. There would be telephone calls and texts and the occasional Gmail, but apart from a lunch or dinner during the week, Julia would stay at her apartment. On Friday afternoons she would arrive at Gabriel's in order to spend the weekend with him.

One Wednesday evening in mid-January, Julia called Gabriel after her homework was done.

"I had a rough day," she said, sounding tired.

"What happened?"

"Professor Picton is making me sc.r.a.p about three-quarters of one of my chapters because she thinks I'm offering a Romanticized version of Dante."

"Ouch."

"She hates the Romantics, so you can imagine how annoyed she was. She went on and on about it. She makes me feel stupid."

"You aren't stupid." Gabriel chuckled into the phone. "Professor Picton makes me feel stupid sometimes."

"I find that hard to believe."

"You should have seen me the first time I was summoned to her house. I was more nervous than I was on the day I defended my dissertation. I almost forgot to wear pants."

Julia laughed. "I can only imagine that a pantless Professor Emerson would be very well received."

"Thankfully, I didn't have to find out."

"Professor Picton told me that 'my strong work ethic makes up for my occasional lapses in reasoning.'"

"That's high praise coming from her. She thinks most people fail to reason at all. The way she describes the world today, most people are monkeys who happen to wear clothes. On occasion."