Time Travelers Never Die Part 21

Erin was the only woman who'd ever really hurt him. They were never formally engaged, but he'd a.s.sumed an altar lay in their future. Then one night, with no warning, at least none that he'd picked up, she'd simply told him it was over. That she wouldn't be able to see him anymore. She'd offered no explanation, no mention of someone else having come into her life. Just the announcement: "I've enjoyed it, Dave. But it's time for both of us to move on."

Both of us.

He hadn't questioned her. Too much pride for that. "Okay," he'd said. "You're sure?"

She said she was. And Dave had shrugged and walked away.

Looking back now, he suspected he could have held on to her. But he'd never actively pursued her. Never let her know, never told told her, how he'd felt. He'd thought she could see what he felt. That it was enough. His feelings were out there, visible to the world. her, how he'd felt. He'd thought she could see what he felt. That it was enough. His feelings were out there, visible to the world.

So she'd said good-bye, and he had simply acquiesced. He'd never called her again. Do that, he'd thought, and she won't realize what she'd lost. No, it was better to wait for her to signal that she wanted him back. Dumb. But he'd waited for a call. Or a chance meeting that wasn't really a chance meeting. Or a Christmas card.

Something.

But, of course, it never happened. And he never saw her again. A year later he'd heard she was getting married.

The conversation on the TV drifted in and out. Scandal in high places. Charges of corruption. A deranged preacher claiming a recent volcanic eruption in Alaska had been a divine reaction to something or other. The lunacy never stopped.

The pain in his ribs drifted in and out, as well. And his legs had stiffened during the long drive. Funny how little of the attack on the bridge he actually remembered. He still didn't recall precisely what had happened to him him. But the doctors had told him that was not unusual. Gradually, they said, it would come back.

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THE sofa was too small for him. So he limped upstairs, climbed into bed, shut off the lights, and allowed the darkness to swallow him. The cabin, with its locked doors, and its mountaintop isolation, provided a barricade against the outside world that, at the moment, he needed. sofa was too small for him. So he limped upstairs, climbed into bed, shut off the lights, and allowed the darkness to swallow him. The cabin, with its locked doors, and its mountaintop isolation, provided a barricade against the outside world that, at the moment, he needed.

He'd always thought of the present in Henry Th.o.r.eau's terms, as a narrow dividing line between two infinities, the past and the future. But that had changed. If he could go back and visit visit Galileo, living on the cusp of the Renaissance, then it meant that nothing ever Galileo, living on the cusp of the Renaissance, then it meant that nothing ever ended ended. In another place, at this moment, they were still fighting the English Civil War. But no, that was the wrong terminology. Not at this moment moment. Rather, in some hidden compartment along the timeline, the violence was always there, the killing still going on. Selma was never really over. There was another compartment where Russians were trying to hold on against Napoleon. And still another in which the Inquisition was burning Gior dano Bruno.

Sure, you could argue there was a positive side. Socrates could still be found in the dimensions, discussing faith, beauty, and the good life with his friends. There was still a place where Dave was happily in bed with Erin. But what were the pleasures of ordinary people when measured against the Holocaust? Or the butcheries of a Stalin? Or the African genocides still being carried out in an age that pretended to be enlightened?

Sleep came late, though it came came. It stole up the stairs and wrapped him in its dark folds, and he slipped finally into oblivion.

SUNDAY was unseasonably warm. Branches swayed in a mild breeze, and a pair of blue jays had landed on the veranda railing. Far below, a few sailboats were out on the lake. was unseasonably warm. Branches swayed in a mild breeze, and a pair of blue jays had landed on the veranda railing. Far below, a few sailboats were out on the lake.

He made bacon and eggs, added orange juice and coffee, and realized how much he missed the morning paper. There'd be no mail either, of course. The post office, remarkably, did did deliveries up here, but there was a hold on for the cabin. deliveries up here, but there was a hold on for the cabin.

Big Al, the ranking morning cable news show, had nothing but a celebrity divorce story, predictions about a sales surge during the holiday season, and stories about the secretary of state who had been caught by a live mike saying that the world would never have peace as long as it had religion. His office had just issued a "clarification," probably making things worse, by specifying which religion he was talking about. And a battle had erupted over battery-powered garments that permitted telephone s.e.x.

He shut off the TV and picked up one of the books he'd brought along. It was Michael Corbett's Winter of Discontent Winter of Discontent, which had urged the introduction of lie detectors to presidential debates and IQ tests for candidates. There was no attempt to set a minimum standard, but Corbett's plan would require that results be placed on the record. Candidates, of course, could decline, but only at their peril. However, no one really knew what the effect might be. Recent studies had shown that a majority of voters would be put off by a candidate with a high IQ.

Winter of Discontent was essentially a manual on how to make government more responsive. And more rational. He liked some of the suggestions, but they all required an electorate that paid attention. Maybe the problem, he thought, was the way history was taught. The cla.s.ses he'd attended in high school and college had consisted mostly of committing factual information to memory. Dates of battles, names of politicians and generals, and descriptions of events that changed society, like the Reformation and the Napoleonic Wars. was essentially a manual on how to make government more responsive. And more rational. He liked some of the suggestions, but they all required an electorate that paid attention. Maybe the problem, he thought, was the way history was taught. The cla.s.ses he'd attended in high school and college had consisted mostly of committing factual information to memory. Dates of battles, names of politicians and generals, and descriptions of events that changed society, like the Reformation and the Napoleonic Wars.

Why not give students a hypothetical time-travel device? 'You can go back and talk to one person in an effort to change an outcome. Say, to head off the Civil War. Who do you talk to? And what short-range outcome are you looking for?'

He read for a while, but it took an effort with one eye swollen half-shut. Eventually, he gave up and drifted off to sleep.

IN the middle of the week, Shel called again. the middle of the week, Shel called again. "How are you doing?" "How are you doing?"

"Okay."

"Good. In a few more days, you'll be fine."

"How's my replacement?"

"He seems to be enjoying himself. I think he might want the job permanently."

"I doubt it."

"Helen and I are going to dinner with him tonight."

Dave laughed. "Who's with him? Anybody I know?"

"Katie."

"The guy has good taste."

"I always thought so. By the way, I've been reading the Selma book Dad had. The one by John Lewis."

"And what have you concluded?"

"I'm beginning to realize how sheltered I've been."

HE started feeling sorry for himself, cooped up in the cabin. It was almost Christmas, and he didn't even have a light to hang on the door. So, as the aches in his ribs and legs diminished, and the swelling around his eye receded, he decided it was time to get out. On Sat.u.r.day the twenty-second, he drove down to Clifton, the closest town of any size, bought a cell phone to replace the one he'd lost, and treated himself to a turkey dinner at a family-owned restaurant. Then he selected a ringtone. He'd had a few chords from Chopin's Prelude in E Minor on the old one. That used to get people staring. Maybe it was time for something a bit less majestic. He decided, eventually, on a simple bell chime. started feeling sorry for himself, cooped up in the cabin. It was almost Christmas, and he didn't even have a light to hang on the door. So, as the aches in his ribs and legs diminished, and the swelling around his eye receded, he decided it was time to get out. On Sat.u.r.day the twenty-second, he drove down to Clifton, the closest town of any size, bought a cell phone to replace the one he'd lost, and treated himself to a turkey dinner at a family-owned restaurant. Then he selected a ringtone. He'd had a few chords from Chopin's Prelude in E Minor on the old one. That used to get people staring. Maybe it was time for something a bit less majestic. He decided, eventually, on a simple bell chime.

When he'd finished, he went to a movie, the latest installment of the Batman films. Then he wandered into Mac's Bar, which had loud music and a lot of women.

He danced away the night and drank too much. Not a good idea when he had to negotiate a mountain road going home. He spent much of his time in Mac's with a young woman whose name was Marie Dupre, and he wondered whether he could persuade her to drive him back to the cabin.

She smiled politely when he issued the invitation. "I think you made a mistake, Dave," she said. "I don't do that."

"That's not what I meant."

"Good."

"Sorry."

It was just as well. He didn't need any complications. But the alcohol, and maybe Marie, had made him nostalgic. While talking with her, he'd been thinking about Erin.

Still, he wasn't sure how he was going to get home. Dave wasn't much of a drinker to start with. And he couldn't very well sit in Mac's Bar and slug down c.o.kes. He wondered whether the town had a taxi.

But if he did that, he'd have to get back down the mountain in the morning to retrieve the car. Larry's Cut-Rate Full Service Motel, HBO included, was three blocks away. He started the engine and twisted his head around to back out. But the world began spinning.

That was enough. He left the car where it was, got out, and locked it. He staggered the three blocks and checked himself into the motel.

IN the morning, he had breakfast in town, picked up an the morning, he had breakfast in town, picked up an Inquirer Inquirer, and drove back to the cabin. It was just after ten when he arrived. He spent the rest of the morning with the paper. The Eagles were playing the Giants, and that would give him something to do during the afternoon.

It would have been nice to have Katie with him. Or Erin.

The first time he'd brought Erin to the cabin had been a Sat.u.r.day evening in March three years before. He remembered everything about that evening. How they'd stood on the veranda looking out at the stars, how they'd stayed out there and danced to Jerome Kern's music, how they'd broken open a bottle of champagne to celebrate a promotion Erin had just gotten. (She designed AI systems.) Until that night, there'd been an unspoken agreement between them, limiting what was proper. Part of the understanding grew out of the fact that she did not travel to the mountain cabin. Whenever he'd suggested it, she had found a reason not to go. Somebody wasn't feeling well. It was a long ride.

Something.

But on this occasion, she she had suggested it. They'd been having dinner at Michaelson's and, completely out of left field, she'd asked whether the cabin was still in the family. That had been the exact phrasing. had suggested it. They'd been having dinner at Michaelson's and, completely out of left field, she'd asked whether the cabin was still in the family. That had been the exact phrasing.

And he'd said, "Sure. Would you like to see it?"

"Yes," she'd said. "It's a beautiful night. Perfect for a view of the lake."

So he'd known from that moment.

Her name now was Erin Olshefska. He ran a search across Pennsylvania for her phone number. Found two women with that name, but neither was the right age.

He ached to see her again.

And he had the converter.

He got it out of the side table and looked at it. Checked the universal calendar on the computer. It had been late in the month, either the twenty-second or the twenty-ninth. They'd arrived at the cabin an hour or so before midnight.

He shouldn't do this. But resistance, as they'd said in one of the old SF cla.s.sics, was futile. He set the time and date for the earlier night, grabbed his sweater, and against a ton of better judgment, made his jump.

THE cabin was dark again. He remembered a strange detail from that night: As they'd come up the mountain road, he'd seen a light on in the living room. His first thought had been that his parents had come up, unexpectedly, and would be waiting inside when he walked in with Erin. cabin was dark again. He remembered a strange detail from that night: As they'd come up the mountain road, he'd seen a light on in the living room. His first thought had been that his parents had come up, unexpectedly, and would be waiting inside when he walked in with Erin. Hi, Mom and Dad. Hi, Mom and Dad.

Erin had noticed it, too. And she'd asked about the possibilities. "No," he'd a.s.sured her. "They don't come here until summer, or on a holiday weekend. And they always let me know when they're coming." That had been telling her more than he should have. She'd laughed, but it had left him feeling like an idiot.

They'd pulled into the driveway while he'd formulated what to do if his parents were were there. there. Just stopped by for a drink. And to take in the view. Just stopped by for a drink. And to take in the view.

He didn't remember which light had been on, only that it had been in the living room. But it probably didn't matter. He leaned over and switched on one of the table lamps.

The cabin was cold. But he'd have to leave that for the happy couple. He draped his sweater over the back of the sofa and sat down in an armchair that afforded a view of the road. You could see headlights coming for the better part of a mile, so he'd have plenty of warning. Then there was nothing left to do. Except feel his heart begin to race as it had years before whenever Erin had settled into his arms.

When they hadn't arrived by eleven thirty, he decided he had the wrong Sat.u.r.day and was about to try the later date. At that moment, the headlights showed up. They were swinging round one of the turns, still several minutes from the house. As he watched, they disappeared. He b.u.t.toned his jacket, looked around to make sure he hadn't left anything that shouldn't be there, and slipped outside.

He locked the door behind him, and was horrified when the security lights came on. He crossed the driveway quickly and hurried into a stand of trees.

There was a delay factor built in, and they did not go off.

He was sure they hadn't been on when he'd come with Erin. "Come on," he told them. "Shut down."

He could see the doorway, the veranda, half a dozen windows, the outside stairs that went up to the second level, and the carport. The living-r oom lamp was barely noticeable against the lights.

He still couldn't see the car, of course, but he could hear the engine as it struggled up the steep incline preceding the last turn.

And, finally, they went off.

He got well back, moving with caution so the motion detectors didn't pick him up and switch the system on again.

The headlights reappeared, and the car started up the final sixty yards or so.

He felt uncomfortable. A little bit like a voyeur. Or a stalker. But if there'd ever been a special occasion, this had been it.

The car turned into the driveway. And yes, it was his white Regal, only a few weeks old then. The interior was dark. But he could make out the driver and the pa.s.senger. Then the lights were on again. And there she was.

Erin.

The driver killed the engine, and the two people in the car sat for a moment. Talking about the light that was on in the house. Rea.s.suring themselves that everything was okay because there was no other car in the driveway. Then they opened their doors. And he wasn't sure which jolted him more, seeing himself climb out of the driver's side or watching Erin, trim and elegant and endlessly lovely, get out on the other.

She walked around the car and crossed in front of the headlamps. Then they climbed the stairs, and David watched himself insert the key. He pushed open the door, and switched on the interior lights. She paused momentarily, looking out over the valley, over Starlight Lake. She turned, while he waited beside her, said something to him, and went inside. He followed her and closed the door.

More lights came on. He heard his own voice, though he could not make out what he said. Erin wandered past one of the windows. The outside lights went off. He wondered what would happen if he showed himself, walked up the stairs, and said h.e.l.lo. "Hi. My name's Dave, too." "Hi. My name's Dave, too."

"Why, Dave, you never told me you had a twin."

It had delicious possibilities.

They were out of sight now. But he remembered the details. He was showing her around. First the dining room. Then the kitchen. Then downstairs.

That night had been his chance. Tell her, you idiot. She's come this far. Commit to her and tell her you want her forever and always. Tell her, you idiot. She's come this far. Commit to her and tell her you want her forever and always.

More lights came on around the cabin.

There'll never be a better time.

In a few minutes, they'd be drinking whatever had been handy that night, and Jerome Kern would make his appearance.

He stood in the trees and his heart ached. He knew who was inside with her, but it didn't matter. He hated the guy.

WHEN next he called Shel, he didn't mention what he'd done. "I'll be going back tomorrow," he said. next he called Shel, he didn't mention what he'd done. "I'll be going back tomorrow," he said.

"Okay. Happy New Year, by the way."

"Thanks. You, too."

"See you tomorrow, Dave. I'm inclined to say it'll be good to have you back but the truth is, it doesn't seem as if you've been gone."

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THERE was one more thing he was wondering about. Well, actually there were several things. But for the moment, what was the range of the converter? How far back could he go? was one more thing he was wondering about. Well, actually there were several things. But for the moment, what was the range of the converter? How far back could he go?

He pressed a white stud that moved the numbers. Decades and centuries rippled past. Millennia.