Let The Right One In Part 12

Why don't I run.

He could already feel the stinging pain on his legs when the whip hit its mark. If he could only make it out to the park road where there would maybe be grown-ups around, they wouldn't dare to beat him up. Why don't I run. Why don't I run.

Because he didn't have a chance. They would have him on the ground before he had taken five steps. Let me go.

Jonny turned his head, pretended like he hadn't heard.

"What did you say, Piggy?" Let me go.

Jonny turned toward Micke.

"He thinks we should let him go."

Micke shook his head.

"But we've made such nice-looking . . ." He waved his whip in the air.

"What do you think, Tomas?"

Tomas looked at Oskar as if he were a rat, still alive, writhing in his trap.

"I think Piggy needs a whipping."

There were three of them. They had whips. It was a maximally unfair situation. He could throw the rock in Tomas' face. Or hit him with it if he came close. There would be a talk with the princ.i.p.al and so on. But they would understand. There had been three of them, armed.

I was.. . desperate. was.. . desperate.

He wasn't desperate at all. In fact he felt a streak of calm through the fear, now that he had made up his mind. They could whip him as long as it gave him the opportunity to smash the rock in Tomas' disgusting face. Jonny and Micke stepped up. Jonny whipped Oskar across one thigh so he doubled over in pain. Micke went up behind him and locked his arms by his side.

No.

Now he couldn't throw it. Jonny whipped his legs, spun around once like Robin Hood in that movie, hit again.

Oskar's legs burned from the lashes. He writhed in Micke's hold but couldn't get free. Tears welled up in his eyes. He screamed. Jonny gave Oskar one last hard lash that grazed Micke's legs so that he yelled "watch it, will you" but without releasing his hold. A tear ran down Oskar's cheek. It wasn't fair. He had picked up all the rocks, he had bent over backwards, so why did they have to hurt him?

The rock that he had been holding onto so hard fell out of his hand and he started to cry for real.

Jonny said with a pitying voice, "Piggy's crying."

Jonny seemed satisfied. His work was done. He gestured to Micke to let him go. Oskar's whole body was shaking, wracked with sobs, and from the pain in his legs. His eyes were filled with tears when he lifted his face to them and heard Tomas' voice.

"What about me?"

Micke grabbed Oskar's arms again and through the fog of tears over his eyes he saw Tomas walk closer. He snivelled, "Please don't."

Tomas raised his whip and struck. One single blow. Oskar's face exploded and he jerked to the side so violently that Micke either lost or let go of his grip and said, "What the h.e.l.l, Tomas. That was ..."

Jonny sounded angry.

"Now you you can talk to his mom." can talk to his mom."

Oskar didn't hear what Tomas answered, if he said anything.

Their voices disappeared into the distance; they left him with his face in the sand. His left cheek burned. The sand was cold, soothed the heat in his legs. He wanted to put his cheek in the sand as well, but realized it wasn't a good idea.

He lay there so long he started to get cold. Then he sat up and carefully felt his cheek. Blood came off onto his fingers.

He walked over to the outside toilets and looked in the mirror. The cheek was swollen and covered in half-congealed blood. Tomas must have struck him as hard as he could. Oskar washed his cheek and looked in the mirror again. The wound had stopped bleeding and it wasn't deep. But it ran right across almost his entire cheek.

Mom. What do I tell her?

The truth. He needed comforting. In an hour mom would be home and then he would tell her what they had done to him and she would be completely distraught and hug him and hug him and he would sink into her arms, into her tears, and they would cry together.

Then she would call Tomas' mom.

Then she would call Tomas' mom and they would argue and then Mom would cry about how mean Tomas' mom was and then ...

Woodshop.

He had had an accident in woodshop. No, then maybe she would call the teacher.

Oskar studied his wound in the mirror. How did you get something like this? He had fallen off the play structure. It didn't really work but Mom would want want to believe it. She would still feel sorry for him and comfort him, but without all that other stuff. The play structure. to believe it. She would still feel sorry for him and comfort him, but without all that other stuff. The play structure.

His pants felt cold. Oskar unb.u.t.toned them and checked. His underpants were soaked. He took out the p.i.s.sball and rinsed it out. He was about to put it back but stopped and looked in the mirror.

Oskar. That's... Oskar.

He took the rinsed p.i.s.sball and put it on his nose. Like a clown nose. The yellow ball and the red wound on his cheek. Oskar. He opened his eyes wide and tried to look crazy. Yes. Creepy. He talked to the clown in the mirror.

"It's over now, it's enough. Understand? This is it." The clown didn't answer.

"I'm not standing for this. Not even one more time, understand?" Oskar's voice echoed in the empty bathroom.

"What should I do? What should I do, do you think?" He twisted his face into a grimace until it hurt, distorted his voice by making it as raspy and low as he could. The clown spoke.

"... kill them ... kill them ... kill them."

Oskar s.h.i.+vered. This was a little creepy for real. It really sounded like someone else's voice, and the face in the mirror wasn't his own. He took the p.i.s.sball from his nose, put it back in his pants.

The tree.

Not because he really believed in this and all... but he would go stab the tree. Maybe, just maybe. If he really concentrated, then ...

Maybe.

Oskar picked up his bag and hurried home, filling his head with lovely images.

Tomas is sitting at his computer when he feels the first stab. Doesn't un- derstand where it is coming from. Staggers out into the kitchen with the derstand where it is coming from. Staggers out into the kitchen with the blood gus.h.i.+ng from his stomach. "Mom, Mom, someone is stabbing me." blood gus.h.i.+ng from his stomach. "Mom, Mom, someone is stabbing me." Tomas' mom would just stand there. Tomas' mom who always took his side no matter what he had done. She would just stand there. Terror stricken. While the stabs continued to puncture Tomas' body. Tomas' mom would just stand there. Tomas' mom who always took his side no matter what he had done. She would just stand there. Terror stricken. While the stabs continued to puncture Tomas' body.

He falls to the kitchen floor in a pool of blood, "Mom ... Mom while the invisible knife cuts open his stomach so his intestines spill out onto the invisible knife cuts open his stomach so his intestines spill out onto the linoleum. linoleum.

Not that it really worked that way.

But still.

The apartment reeked of cat p.i.s.s.

Giselle lay on his lap, purring. Bibi and Beatrice were wrestling on the floor. Manfred sat in the window like usual, his nose pushed up against the windowpane, and Gustaf was trying to get Manfred's attention by buffeting his side with his head.

Mans and Tufs and Cleopatra were relaxing in the armchair, Tufs pawing at a few loose threads. Karl-Oskar tried to jump up onto the windowsill but missed and fell backwards onto the floor. He was blind in one eye.

Lurvis was out in the hall keeping an eye on the mail slot, ready to jump if any advertising was pushed in. Vendela was resting on the hat shelf keeping an eye on Lurvis. Her deformed right front paw hung down between the wooden slats and flinched from time to time.

A couple more cats were out in the kitchen, eating or lazing around on tables and chairs. Five were sleeping on the bed in the bedroom. A few more had their favorite hideaways in closets or cupboards they had learned how to get into on their own.

After Gosta had stopped letting them out-relenting to pressure from his neighbors-no more fresh genetic material had come in. Most of the kittens born were either dead or so deformed they died a few days after birth. About half of the twenty-eight cats that lived in Gosta's apartment had some kind of congenital defect. They were blind or deaf or were missing teeth or had motor damage.

He loved them all.

Gosta scratched Giselle behind the ear.

"Yes ... my little darling . . . what are we going to do? You don't know?

No, neither do I. But we have to do something, something, don't we? You can't get away with something like this. It was don't we? You can't get away with something like this. It was Jocke. Jocke. I knew him. And now he's dead. But no one else knows. Because they didn't see what I saw. Did you see it too?" I knew him. And now he's dead. But no one else knows. Because they didn't see what I saw. Did you see it too?"

Gosta lowered his head, whispered, "It was a child. child. I saw it coming down the path. It waited for Jocke. In the underpa.s.s. He went in ... and never came out. Then in the morning he was gone. But he's dead. I I saw it coming down the path. It waited for Jocke. In the underpa.s.s. He went in ... and never came out. Then in the morning he was gone. But he's dead. I know know he is. he is.

"What's that?

"No, I can't go to the police. They're going to ask questions. There will be a lot of people and then they will ask ... why I didn't say anything. s.h.i.+ne one of those lights in my face.

"It was three days ago. Or four. I don't know. What day is it today?

They're going to ask. I can't do it.

"But we have to do something.

"I just don't know what."

Giselle looked up at him. Started to lick his hand.

When Oskar came home from the forest, the knife was smeared with splinters of rotten wood. He washed it under the kitchen tap, drying it off with a dishcloth that he then rinsed clean and held against his cheek. His mom would soon be home. He had to go out again, needed a little more time-tears were still clumped in his throat, his legs ached. He took the key from the kitchen cupboard, wrote a note: Back soon, Oskar. Back soon, Oskar. Then he put the knife back and walked down to the bas.e.m.e.nt. Unlocked the heavy door, slipped in. Then he put the knife back and walked down to the bas.e.m.e.nt. Unlocked the heavy door, slipped in.

The underground smell. He liked it. A rea.s.suring blend of wood, old things, and locked-in-ness. A little light filtered in through a window at ground level and in the dim light the bas.e.m.e.nt promised secrets, hidden treasure.

To his left there was an oblong section divided into four storage compartments. The walls and doors were made of wood, the doors secured with various-sized locks. One of the doors had a reinforced lock; a person who had been robbed.

On the wooden wall at the very end of the area someone had written KISS with a marker. The "S"s were formed like elongated, backward "Z"s.

But the most interesting area was to be found at the end opposite all this. The room for recycling and oversized trash. Oskar had once found a still-intact globe that now stood in his room, as well as several issues of the series The Hulk, The Hulk, and some other stuff. and some other stuff.

But today there was almost nothing. It must have been emptied recently. A few newspapers, some folders with the labels "English" and "Swedish." But Oskar had enough folders. He had scavenged a whole bunch from the container outside the printing shop a few year ago. He walked through the bas.e.m.e.nt room and out to the next stairwell in the building, Tommy's stairwell. Continued on to that bas.e.m.e.nt door, unlocked it, and walked in. This bas.e.m.e.nt had a different smell: a trace of paint, or thinning solution. This bas.e.m.e.nt also contained the safety shelter for the whole complex. He had only been in once, three years ago, when some of the older guys had had a boxing club there. He had been allowed to go with Tommy and watch, one afternoon. The guys had gone after each other with boxing gloves on their hands and Oskar had been a little scared. The groaning and sweating, the tense, concentrated bodies, the sound of the blows m.u.f.fled by the thick concrete walls. Then someone had gotten hurt, or something like that, and the wheels that you turned in order to pull away the fastening mechanism on the door had been blocked with chains and lock. The end of the boxing.

Oskar turned on the light and walked over to the shelter room. If the Russians were coming it would have to be unlocked.

If they hadn't lost the key.

Oskar stood in front of the ma.s.sive iron door and a thought appeared. That someone ... someone was locked in here. That that's what the chains and lock were for. To restrain a monster.

He listened. There were distant sounds from the street, from people's movements in the apartments above. He really liked the bas.e.m.e.nt. It was like being in another world, while knowing that the other world was still there outside, above you, if you needed it. But down here it was quiet, and no one came and said anything, did anything to you. Nothing you had to do.

Across from the safety room was the clubhouse. Forbidden territory. Of course, they didn't have a lock, but that didn't mean just anyone was allowed in. He took a deep breath and opened the door.

There wasn't much in this storage unit. Just a badly sagging couch, and an equally sagging armchair. A rug on the floor. A chest of drawers with peeling paint. A clandestine lighting arrangement had been rigged up consisting of a cord feeding from the light in the corridor connected to a single naked bulb suspended from the ceiling. It was turned off. He had been down here a few times before and knew that all he had to do to turn it on was twist the bulb. But he didn't dare. Enough light filtered in through the gaps between the planks to see. His heart beat faster. If they found him here they would . . .

What? I don't know. That's what's so horrible. Not beat me up, but. . . He kneeled on the rug and lifted a sofa cus.h.i.+on. A few tubes of glue and a roll of plastic bags, a container of lighter fluid. In the other corner of the sofa, under the seat cus.h.i.+on, there were p.o.r.no magazines. A few well-thumbed issues of He kneeled on the rug and lifted a sofa cus.h.i.+on. A few tubes of glue and a roll of plastic bags, a container of lighter fluid. In the other corner of the sofa, under the seat cus.h.i.+on, there were p.o.r.no magazines. A few well-thumbed issues of Lektyr Lektyr and and Fib Aktuellt. Fib Aktuellt.

He took one of the Lektyr Lektyr and s.h.i.+fted closer to the door where there was more light. Still kneeling he laid the magazine out on the floor in front of him, flipped the pages. His mouth was dry. The woman in the picture lay in a deck chair wearing only a pair of high-heeled shoes. She was pus.h.i.+ng her b.r.e.a.s.t.s together and pouting. Her legs were spread and in the middle of the bushy hair between her thighs there was a strip of pink flesh with a groove down the middle. and s.h.i.+fted closer to the door where there was more light. Still kneeling he laid the magazine out on the floor in front of him, flipped the pages. His mouth was dry. The woman in the picture lay in a deck chair wearing only a pair of high-heeled shoes. She was pus.h.i.+ng her b.r.e.a.s.t.s together and pouting. Her legs were spread and in the middle of the bushy hair between her thighs there was a strip of pink flesh with a groove down the middle.

How do you get in there?

He knew the words from talk he had heard, graffiti he had read. c.u.n.t. Hole. l.a.b.i.a. But it wasn't a hole. Only that groove. They had had s.e.x education at school and he knew there was supposed to be a... tunnel leading in from the v.u.l.v.a. But in what direction? Straight up or in or . . . you couldn't tell.

He kept turning the pages. The readers' own stories. At the swimming pool. A stall in the girls' changing rooms. Her nipples stiffened under her bathing suit. My d.i.c.k was thumping like a hammer in my swimming trunks. She gripped the clothes pegs, turned her little a.s.s toward me, and moaned, "Take me, take me now."

Did this kind of thing go on all the time, behind closed doors, in places where you couldn't see?

He had started a new story, about a family reunion that took an unexpected turn, when he heard the bas.e.m.e.nt door being opened. He shut the magazine, put it back under the sofa cus.h.i.+on and didn't know what to do with himself. His throat contracted; he didn't dare to breathe. Footsteps in the corridor.

Please G.o.d let it not be them. Let it not be them.

He squeezed his knee caps with his hands, clenched his teeth so hard he hurt his jaw. The door opened. Tommy was standing there, blinking.

"What the h.e.l.l?"

Oskar wanted to say something, but his jaws were locked shut. He simply stayed where he was, kneeling on the rug of light that rolled out from the door, breathing through his nose.

"What the h.e.l.l are you doing here? And what have you been up to?" Almost without moving his jaws Oskar managed to press out a ". . . nothing."

Tommy took a step into the storage area, towering over him.

"With your cheek, I mean? How did you get that?"

"I... it's nothing."