Let The Right One In Part 47

"There?"

"Yes, at..."

In her head Yvonne went through the names of Tommy's friends that she knew. Didn't want to tell Staffan that Tommy was gone for the night without knowing where. Staffan took this thing about a parent's responsibility very seriously.

"... at Robban's."

"Robban. Is that his best friend?"

"Yes, I guess so."

"What is he called, more than Robban?"

"... Ahlgren. Why? Is that someone you have ..."

"No, I was just thinking."

Staffan took his spoon, hit it lightly against the teacup. A delicate ringing sound. He nodded.

"Great. You know ... I think we're going to have to call this Robban and ask Tommy to come home for a while. So I can talk to him a little."

"I don't have the number."

"No, but... Ahlgren. You know where he lives, don't you? All you have to do is look it up in the telephone directory."

Staffan got up out of the couch and Yvonne bit her lower lip, felt how she was constructing a labyrinth that it was getting harder and harder to get out of. He got the local part of the telephone book and stopped in the middle of the living room, flipping through it and mumbling: "Ahlgren, Ahlgren ... Hm. Which street does he live on?"

"I. . . Bjornsonsgatan."

"Bjornsonsgatan . . . no. No Ahlgren there. But there is one here on Ibsengatan. Could it be him?"

When Yvonne didn't answer, Staffan put his finger in the phone book and said: "Think I'll give him a try at any rate. It's Robban, right?"

"Staffan..."

"Yes?"

"I promised him not to tell."

"Now I don't understand anything."

"Tommy. I said I wouldn't tell you .. . where he is."

"So he is not not at Robban's?" at Robban's?"

"No."

"Where is he then?"

"I... I promised."

Staffan put the telephone book on the coffee table, went and sat down next to Yvonne on the couch. She took a sip of tea, held the teacup in front of her face as if to hide behind it while Staffan waited for her. When she put the cup down on the saucer she saw that her hands were shaking. Staffan put his hand on her knee.

"Yvonne. You have to understand that-"

"I promised."

"I only want to talk talk to him. Forgive me for saying this, Yvonne, but I think it is exactly this kind of inability to deal with a situation as it arises that is the reason ... well, that they happen in the first place. In my experience, the faster young people have someone respond to their actions, the greater the chance that... take a heroin addict, for example. If someone takes action when he is only doing, say, has.h.i.+sh ..." to him. Forgive me for saying this, Yvonne, but I think it is exactly this kind of inability to deal with a situation as it arises that is the reason ... well, that they happen in the first place. In my experience, the faster young people have someone respond to their actions, the greater the chance that... take a heroin addict, for example. If someone takes action when he is only doing, say, has.h.i.+sh ..."

"Tommy doesn't do things like that."

"Are you completely completely sure of that?" sure of that?"

Silence fell. Yvonne knew that for each second that went by, her "yes" in response to Staffan's question decreased in value. Tick-tock. Now she had already answered "no" without saying the word. And Tommy did act strange sometimes. When he came home. Something about his eyes. What if he...

Staffan leaned back in the couch, knew the battle was won. Now he was only waiting for her conditions.

Yvonne's eyes were searching for something on the table.

"What is it?"

"My cigarettes, have you-"

"In the kitchen. Yvonne-"

"Yes. Yes. You can't go to him now."

"No. You can decide. If you think-"

"Tomorrow morning. Before he goes to school. Promise me. That you won't go to him now."

"Promise. So. What kind of mysterious place is he holed up in anyway?" Yvonne told him.

Then she went out into the kitchen and smoked a cigarette, blew the smoke out through the open window. Smoked one more, cared less about where the smoke went. When Staffan came out into the kitchen, demonstratively waved away the smoke with his hand, and asked where the cellar key was, she said she had forgotten for the moment but it would probably probably come back to her tomorrow morning. come back to her tomorrow morning.

If he was nice.

When Eli had gone, Oskar sat down at the kitchen table again looking through the displayed newspaper articles. The headache was starting to lessen now that the impressions were taking on more of a pattern. Eli had explained that the old man had become ... infected. And worse. The infection was the only thing in him that was alive. His brain was dead, and the infection was controlling and directing him. Toward Eli. Eli had told him, begged begged him not to do anything. Eli would leave this place tomorrow as soon as it got dark, and Oskar had of course asked why not leave tonight already? him not to do anything. Eli would leave this place tomorrow as soon as it got dark, and Oskar had of course asked why not leave tonight already?

Because... I can't.

Why not? I can help you.

Oskar, I can't. I'm too weak.

How can that be? You've just. ..

I just am.

And Oskar had realized that he was the reason that Eli was weak. All the blood that had run out in the hall. If the old guy got ahold of Eli it would be all Oskar's fault.

The clothes!

Oskar got up so violently the chair tipped over backward and fell to the floor.

The bag with Eli's bloodied clothes was still sitting in front of the couch, the s.h.i.+rt half hanging out. He pressed it deeper into the bag and the sleeve was like a d.a.m.n sponge when he pressed it down, tied the bag, and ... He stopped, looked at the hand that had pressed the s.h.i.+rt down. The cut he had made in his palm had a crust that had broken up a little, revealing the wound underneath.

.. . the blood. .. he didn't want to mix it. the blood. .. he didn't want to mix it. .. .. am I.. . infected now? am I.. . infected now?

His legs carried him mechanically to the front door with the bag in his hand, listening for sounds outside. He didn't hear anyone and he ran up the stairs to the garbage chute, opened it. He pushed the bag in through the opening, held it fast for a moment, dangling in the dark. A cold breeze whooshed through the chute, chilling his hand where he held it outstretched, squeezed around the plastic knot of the bag. The bag shone white against the black, slightly craggy walls of the duct. If he let go, the bag would not be sucked up. It would fall down. Gravity would pull it down. Into the big garbage sack.

In a few days the garbage truck would come and collect the sack. It came early in the morning. The orange, blinking lights would flash onto Oskar's ceiling at about the same time as he generally woke up and he would lie there in his bed and listen to the rumbling, masticating crunch as the garbage was crushed. Maybe he would get up and watch the men in their overalls who tossed the big bags with habitual ease, pressed the b.u.t.ton. The jaws of the garbage truck closing and the men who then hopped into the truck and drove the short distance to the next building. And it always gave him such a feeling of... warmth. That he was safe in his room. That things worked. Maybe there was also a longing. For those men, for the truck. To be allowed to sit in that dimly-lit coach, drive away. ..

Let go. I have to let go.

The hand was convulsively clenched around the bag. His arm was aching from having been held outstretched so long. The back of his hand was numb from the cold air. He let go.

There was a hissing sound as the bag slipped along the walls, a half second of silence as it fell freely, and then a thud when it landed in the sack below.

I'll help you.

He looked at his hand again. The hand that helped. The hand that... I'll kill someone. I'll go in and get the knife and then I'll go out and kill I'll kill someone. I'll go in and get the knife and then I'll go out and kill someone. Jonny. I'll slit his throat and gather up his blood and then I'll someone. Jonny. I'll slit his throat and gather up his blood and then I'll bring it home for Eli because what does it matter now that I'm infected bring it home for Eli because what does it matter now that I'm infected and soon I will. .. and soon I will. ..

His legs wanted to crumple up under him and he had to lean on the edge of the garbage chute not to fall over. He had thought it. For real. This wasn't like the game with the tree. He had ... for a moment... really thought about doing it.

Warm. He was warm, like he had a fever. His body ached and he wanted to go lie down. Now.

I'm infected. I'm going to become a . . . vampire.

He forced his legs to move back down the stairs while he steadied himself with one hand- the uninfected one -on the railing. He managed to let himself back into the apartment, went into his room, lay down on his bed, and stared at the wallpaper. The forest. Quickly one of his figures appeared, looked him in the eyes. The little gnome. He stroked his finger over it while a completely ridiculous little thought appeared: Tomorrow I have to go to school.

And there was a worksheet he hadn't filled out yet. Africa. He should get up now, sit down at his desk, light the lamp, and start to look up places in the geography book. Find meaningless names and write them down on the blank lines.

That was what he ought to do. He softly stroked the gnome's little cap. Then he tapped on the wall.

E.L.I.

No answer. Was probably out- doing what we do.

He pulled the covers over his head. A fever-like chill coursed through his body. He tried to imagine it. How it would be. To live forever. Feared, hated. No. Eli Eli wouldn't hate him. If they were . . . together... . He tried to imagine it; he spun out a fantasy about it. After a while the front door was unlocked. His mom was home. wouldn't hate him. If they were . . . together... . He tried to imagine it; he spun out a fantasy about it. After a while the front door was unlocked. His mom was home.

Pillows of fat.

Tommy stared blankly at the picture in front of him. The girl was pressing her b.r.e.a.s.t.s together with her hands so they stood out like two balloons, had pursed her mouth into a pout. It looked sick. He had thought he was going to jack off, but there must be something wrong with his brain, because he thought the girl looked like a freak. He folded the magazine up with unnatural slowness, tucked it back in under the sofa cus.h.i.+ons. Every little movement directed by conscious thought. Wasted. He was utterly wasted with glue fumes. And that was good. No world. Only the room he was in, and outside that... a billowing desert.

Staffan.

He tried to think about Staffan. Couldn't. Didn't get ahold of him. Only saw that cardboard cutout of the policeman up at the post office. Lifesize. To scare off any would-be robbers.

Should we rob the post office?

Man, you must be crazy! Can't you see the cardboard policeman is there? there?

Tommy giggled when the cardboard policeman's face took on Staffan's features. a.s.signed as punishment. To guard the post office. There was something written on the cutout as well, what was it?

Crime doesn't pay. No. No. The police are watching you. The police are watching you. No. What the h.e.l.l was it? No. What the h.e.l.l was it? Watch out! I'm a champion pistol-shooter! Watch out! I'm a champion pistol-shooter!

Tommy laughed. Laughed more. Laughed until he shook and thought the naked bulb in the ceiling was swinging to and fro in time with his laughter. Giggled at it. Watch out! The cardboard policeman! With his Watch out! The cardboard policeman! With his cardboard gun! And his cardboard head! cardboard gun! And his cardboard head!

There was a knock inside his head. Someone wanted to come into the post office.

The cardboard policeman p.r.i.c.ks up his ears. There are two hundred cardboards at the post office. Undo the safety. Bang-bang.

Knock. Knock. Knock.

Bang.

.. . Staffan .. . Mom, s.h.i.+t. ..

Tommy stiffened. Tried to think. Couldn't. Just a ragged cloud in his head. Then he calmed down. Maybe it was Robban or La.s.se. It could be Staffan. And he was made of cardboard.

p.e.n.i.s-dummy, cardboard-mummy.

Tommy cleared his throat, said thickly: "Who is it?" It s me. He recognized the voice, couldn't place it. Not Staffan, at any rate. Not paper-Papa.

Barba-papa. Stop it.

"Who are you, then?"

"Can you open?"

"The post office is closed for the day. Come back in five years."

"I have money."

"Paper money?"

"Yes."

"That's good."

He got up out of the couch. Slowly, slowly. The contours of things didn't want to stay put. His head was full of lead.

Concrete cap.