Brain Child Part 32

The memories had been carefully constructed in Alex-the memories of things he couldn't possibly remember-so that when he finally got caught, as Torres knew he eventually would, all he would be able to do was talk of ancient wrongs and the spirit of a long-dead man who had taken possession of him.

The truth would be carefully s.h.i.+elded, for Torres had programmed no memories in Alex of the hatred he felt toward the four women who had looked down on him so many years ago, ignored him as if he didn't exist.

Even now, he could hear his mother's voice talking about them: "You think they even look at you, Ramon? They are gringos gringos who would spit on you. They are no different than the ones who killed our family, and they will kill you too. You wait, Ramon. Pretend all you want, but in the end you will know the truth. They hate you, Ramon, as you will hate them." who would spit on you. They are no different than the ones who killed our family, and they will kill you too. You wait, Ramon. Pretend all you want, but in the end you will know the truth. They hate you, Ramon, as you will hate them."

And in the end, she had been right, and he had hated them as much as she did.

And now it was over. Because Raymond Torres had created Alex, he knew what Alex was going to do. Oddly, he could even accept it. "How did you figure it out?"

"With the tools you gave me," Alex replied. "I processed data. The facts were simple. From the damage done to my brain, I should have died.

"But I wasn't dead.

"The two facts didn't match, until I realized that there was one way I could make them match. I could still be alive, if something had been done to keep my body functioning in spite of the damage to my brain. And the only thing capable of doing that was a system of microprocessors performing the functions of my brain.

"But then I had to fit the memories in.

"Alex Lonsdale has no memories. None at all, because he's dead. But I was remembering things, and the answer had to be the same. What I was remembering had to have been programmed into me too, along with all the rest of the data. From there, it wasn't hard to figure out who I really am."

"My son," Torres said softly. "The son I never had."

"No," Alex replied. "I am not your son, Dr. Torres. I am you. Inside my head are all the memories you grew up with. They're not my memories, Dr. Torres. They're yours. Don't you understand?"

"It's the same thing," Torres said, but Alex shook his head.

"No. It's not the same thing, because if it were, I would be about to kill my father. But I'm you, Dr. Torres, so I guess you are about to kill yourself."

His hands steady, Alex raised the shotgun, leveled it at Raymond Torres, and squeezed the trigger. Alex watched as Raymond Torres's head was nearly torn from his body by the force of the buckshot that exploded from the gun's barrel.

As he left Torres's house, the phone began ringing, but Alex ignored it.

Getting into Torres's car-his own car, now-he started back toward La Paloma.

All of them were dead-Valerie Benson, Marty Lewis, and Cynthia Evans. All of them dead, except one.

Ellen Lonsdale was still alive.

Roscoe Finnerty carefully replaced the phone on its hook, and turned to face the Lonsdales once more.

Ellen, as she had been since they got home, was sitting on the sofa, her face pale, her hands trembling. Her eyes, reddened from weeping, blinked nervously, and she seemed to have become incapable of speech.

Marsh, on the other hand, wore a demeanor of calm that belied the inner turmoil he was feeling. Before beginning to answer Finnerty's questions, he had tried to think carefully about what he should say, but in the end he'd decided to tell the officers the truth.

First, they had asked about the gun, and Marsh had led them to the garage, and the box where he was sure his shotgun was still stored.

It was gone.

Once more, he remembered Torres's words: "Alex is totally incapable of killing anyone."

But up the street, Cynthia and Carolyn Evans had both been cut down by a shotgun, and someone matching Alex's description had been seen carrying a shotgun into this house.

Torres had been wrong.

Slowly Marsh began telling the two officers, Finnerty and Jackson, what Torres had told him only an hour or so earlier. They'd listened politely, then insisted on checking Marsh's story with Raymond Torres. When they'd called his office, they'd been told the director of the Inst.i.tute had left for the day. Only after identifying themselves had they been able to obtain Torres's home phone number.

"Well, he's not there either," Finnerty said. Then: "Dr. Lonsdale, I don't want to seem to be pus.h.i.+ng you, but I think the most important thing right now is to find Alex. Do you have any idea where he might have gone?"

Marsh shook his head. "If he didn't go to Torres, I haven't any idea at all."

"What about friends?" Jackson asked, and again Marsh shook his head.

"He...well, since the accident, he doesn't really have any friends anymore." His eyes filled with tears. "I'm afraid-I'm afraid that the longer time went on, the more the kids decided that there was something wrong with Alex. Besides the obvious problems, I mean," he added.

"Okay. We're going to put a stakeout on the house," Finnerty told him. "I've already got an APB out on your wife's car, but frankly, that doesn't mean much. The odds of someone spotting it are next to none. And it seems to me that eventually, your son will come home. So we'll be out there in an unmarked car. Or, at least, someone will. Anyway, we'll be keeping an eye on this place."

Marsh nodded, but Finnerty wasn't sure he'd been listening. "Dr. Lonsdale?" he asked, and Marsh met his eyes. "I can't tell you how sorry I am about this," Finnerty went on. "I keep hoping that there's been a mistake, and that maybe your boy didn't have anything to do with this."

Marsh's head came up, and he used his handkerchief to blot away the last of the tears on his cheeks.

"It's all right, Sergeant," he said. "You're just doing your job, and I understand it." He hesitated, then went on. "And there's something else I should tell you. I...well, I don't think there's been a mistake. I think you should be aware that Alex may be very dangerous. Ever since the operation, he hasn't felt anything-no love, no hate, no anger, nothing. If he's started killing, for whatever reason, he probably won't stop. Nor will he care what he does."

There was a short silence while Finnerty tried to a.s.sess Marsh Lonsdale's words. "Dr. Lonsdale," he finally asked, "would you mind telling me exactly what you're trying to say?"

"I'm trying to say that if you find Alex, I think you'd better kill him. If you don't, I suspect he won't hesitate to kill you."

Jackson and Finnerty glanced at each other. Finally, it was Jackson who spoke for both of them. "We can't do that, Dr. Lonsdale," he said quietly. "So far, it hasn't been proven that your son has done anything. For all we know, he might have been up in the hills shooting rabbits, and hurt himself some way."

"No," Marsh said, his voice almost a whisper. "No, that's not it. He did it."

"If he did, that will be for a court to decide," Jackson went on. "We'll find your son, Dr. Lonsdale. But we won't kill him."

Marsh shook his head wearily. "You don't understand, do you? That boy out there-he's not Alex. I don't know who he is, but he's not Alex...."

"Okay," Finnerty said, in the gently soothing voice he'd long ago developed for situations in which he found himself dealing with someone who was less than rational. "You just take it easy for a while, Dr. Lonsdale, and we'll take care of it." He waited until Marsh had settled himself onto the sofa next to Ellen, then led Jackson out of the house. "Well? What do you think?"

"I don't know what to think."

"Neither do I," Finnerty sighed. "Neither do I."

"I don't believe any of this," Jim Cochran declared. His glance alternated between his wife and his elder daughter, neither of whom seemed willing to meet his gaze. Only Kim seemed to agree with him, and Carol had insisted she be sent up to her room five minutes ago, when it became obvious a fight was brewing. "Ellen and Marsh and Alex have been friends of ours for most of our lives. And now you don't even want me to call them?"

"I didn't say that," Carol protested, though she knew that even if she hadn't said the words, certainly that was what she had meant. "I just think we should leave them alone until we know what's happened."

"That's not you talking," Jim replied. "It's someone else."

"No!" Carol exclaimed. "After today, I just can't stand any more."

"And what about Marsh and Ellen? How do you think they feel? They're the ones whose lives are falling apart, Carol, not us."

Carol tried to close her ears to the words that were so much an echo of what she herself had said to Lisa only weeks ago. But weeks ago, no one had died.

"And what if Alex comes home?" Carol demanded. "No one knows where he is, or what he's doing, but according to Sheila Rosenberg, he murdered Cynthia and Carolyn Evans this morning, and probably murdered Marty and Valerie as well."

"We don't know that," Jim insisted. "And you both know that Sheila is the worst gossip in this town."

"Daddy!" Lisa said. "Alex didn't care about what happened to Mrs. Lewis, and he didn't think Mr. Lewis killed her. He told me so. He even said he thought someone else might get killed."

"That doesn't mean-"

"And he's been acting weirder and weirder ever since he came home. Are you going to tell me that's not true, too?"

"It's not the point," Jim insisted. "The point is that people stick by their friends, no matter what happens. And I don't accept that Alex has killed anyone."

"Then I'm afraid you're burying your head in the sand," Carol replied. "If he hasn't done anything, then where is he?"

"Anywhere," Jim said. "Who knows? He could have gone up into the hills, and had another accident."

"Daddy-"

"No," Jim said. "I've heard enough. I'm calling Marsh, and finding out what's going on. And if they need me, I'm going up there." He left the kitchen, and a few seconds later, Carol and Lisa heard him talking on the phone.

"I don't want to go up there, Mom," Lisa said quietly, her eyes beseeching. "I'm scared of Alex."

Carol patted Lisa's hand rea.s.suringly. "It's all right, honey. We're not going anywhere. I'm...well, I'm just as frightened as you are." Suddenly Jim appeared in the doorway, and Carol's attention was diverted from her daughter to her husband.

"I just talked to Marsh," Jim told them, "and he wasn't making much sense. And Ellen's not talking at all. He says she's just sitting on the sofa, and he's not sure she's even hearing what anyone says."

"Anyone?" Carol asked. "Is someone else there?"

"The police were there. They just left."

There was a silence. Carol sighed as she came to a decision. "All right," she said quietly. "If you think you have to go, we'll all go. I guess you're right-we can't just sit here and do nothing." She stood up, but Lisa remained seated where she was.

"No," she said, her eyes flooding. "I can't go."

And finally, seeing the extent of his daughter's fear, Jim relented. "It's okay, princess," he said softly. "I guess I can understand how you're feeling." His eyes moved to his wife, and he offered her a tight smile. "I guess that lets you off the hook, too."

Carol hesitated, then nodded. "I'll stay here." Guiltily, she hoped the relief she was feeling didn't show, but she was sure it did.

"I won't stay long," Jim promised. "I'll just see if there's anything I can do, and let them know they're not alone. Then I'll be back. Okay?"

Again Carol nodded, and walked with her husband to the front door, where she kissed him good-bye. "I'm sorry," she whispered. "I'm sorry I've lost my nerve, but I just have. Forgive me?"

"Always," Jim told her. Then, before he closed the door, he spoke again. "Until I get back, don't open the door for anyone."

Then he was gone, and Carol went back to the kitchen, to wait.

CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE.

Darkness was falling as Alex made the turn off Middlefield Road, and as he started up into the hills on La Paloma Drive, he reached down and turned on the headlights of Raymond Torres's car. He wondered if he would dream about Dr. Torres tonight-if he chose to live that long-and wondered if, in whatever dreams he might have, he would feel the same emotional pain again, as he had when he dreamed about Mrs. Lewis and Mrs. Benson. With Dr. Torres, he decided, he wouldn't. Torres's death was very clear in his memory, and he felt no pain when he thought about it.

But he would dream about Mrs. Evans, and Carolyn, too, and then the pain would come.

There was, he had finally come to believe, still some little fragment of Alex Lonsdale still alive, deep within the recesses of his central brain core. It was that fragment of Alex who was having the dreams, and feeling the pain of what he had done. But when he was awake, there was none of Alex left. Only...who?

Did he even have a name?

Alejandro.

That was the name Dr. Torres had chosen for him, and then carefully built the memories of Alejandro into him. But the emotions that went with Alejandro's memories were Raymond Torres's, and those he had carefully left out.

It had, Alex realized, avoided confusion. When he saw the women-the women Torres hated-in the environment of Alejandro's memory, they had become other people from other times, and Alejandro had killed them.

And why not? To Alejandro, they were the wives of thieves and murderers, and as guilty of those crimes as their husbands.

But in the darkness of night, in the visions generated by the remnants of Alex Lonsdale's subconscious, they were old friends, people he had known all his life, and he mourned them.

And that had been Torres's mistake.

For his creation to have been perfect, there should have been none of Alex Lonsdale left.

Ahead of him, the headlights picked up the sign for the park that lay on the outskirts of the village. Alex pulled into the parking lot and shut off the engine.

His father had told him that when he was a boy, he'd played here often, yet he still had no memory of it. His His only memory was Raymond Torres's memory of standing on the street, pleading with his mother to take him to the swings and push him as the other mothers were pus.h.i.+ng their children. only memory was Raymond Torres's memory of standing on the street, pleading with his mother to take him to the swings and push him as the other mothers were pus.h.i.+ng their children.

"No," Maria Torres would mutter. "The park is not for us. It is for los gringos los gringos. Mira!" And she would point to the sign dedicating the park to the first American settlers who had come to La Paloma after the Treaty of Guadalupe Hidalgo had been signed. Then she would take Ramon by the hand and drag him away.

Alex got out of the car and began making his way across the empty lawn toward the swings. Tentatively he settled himself into one of them, and gave an experimental kick with his foot.

The movement had the vaguest feeling of familiarity to it, and Alex began pumping himself higher and higher. As the air rushed over his face and he felt the slight lurch in his stomach at the apex of each arc, Alex realized that this must have been what he'd done as a boy, this must be what he'd loved so much.

He stopped pumping, and let the swing slowly die until he was sitting still once again.

Then, knowing he had much to do before he went to the house on Hacienda Drive where the people who thought they were his parents lived, he left the swing and returned to his car.

He drove on into La Paloma, and turned left before he got to the Square. Two blocks further on, he came to the plaza. In the flickering lights of the gas lamps, the memories of Alejandro began creeping back to him, but Alex forced them out of his consciousness, keeping himself in the present. Only when he drove around the village hall to the mission graveyard did he let the memories come back.

Was this where they would bury him, or would they take him up into the hills above the hacienda and bury him with his mother and his sisters?

No.

They would bury him here, for they would be burying Alex, not Alejandro. Again he got out of the car, and slipped into the little graveyard. Tucked away in a dusty corner, he found the grave he was looking for.