The Sum Of All Kisses Part 37

"I'm going to kill you," Hugh growled, and Sarah had to step in front of him and forcibly hold him back.

"Go back to London," Sarah ordered the marquess. "I will see you at the christening of our first child, and not a moment before."

Lord Ramsgate just chuckled.

"Are we clear?" she demanded.

"As water, my dear lady." Lord Ramsgate walked to the door, then turned around. "If you had been born sooner," he said with an intense stare, "I would have married you."

"You b.a.s.t.a.r.d!"

Sarah was pushed to the side as Hugh launched himself toward his father. Fist met flesh with a horrible crack. "You are not fit to speak her name," Hugh hissed, looming menacingly over his father, who had fallen to the floor, his nose bloodied and almost certainly broken.

"And you're the better of the two," Lord Ramsgate said with a little s.h.i.+ver of revulsion. "G.o.d above, I do not know what I did to deserve such sons."

"Nor do I," Hugh bit off.

"Hugh," Sarah said, laying her hand on his upper arm. "Get off. He's not worth it."

But Hugh was not himself. He did not pull his arm away, nor did he give any indication that he'd heard her. He leaned down and retrieved his cane, which had clattered to the floor in the fracas, never once taking his eyes from his father's face.

"If you touch her," Hugh said, his voice terrifyingly clipped and even, "I will kill you. If you speak one untoward word, I will kill you. If you so much as breathe in the wrong direction, I-"

"Will kill me," his father said scornfully. He jerked his head toward Hugh's bad leg. "You just go on thinking you're able, you stupid little cr-"

Hugh moved like lightning, his cane arcing before him like a sword. He was beautiful in motion, Sarah thought. Was this what he had been like . . . before?

"Would you care to repeat that?" Hugh said, pressing the tip of his cane against his father's throat.

Sarah stopped breathing.

"Please," Hugh said, in a tone that was all the more devastating for its calm. "Say more." He moved the cane along Lord Ramsgate's windpipe, easing the pressure without breaking contact. "Anything?" he murmured.

Sarah wet her lips, watching him warily. She could not tell if he was the epitome of control or whether he was one breath away from snapping. She watched his chest rise and fall with his heartbeat, and she was mesmerized. Hugh Prentice was more than a man in that moment; he was a force of nature.

"Let him go," Daniel said in a weary voice, finally rising to his feet. "He is not worth a trip to the gallows."

Sarah stared at the tip of the cane, still flush with Lord Ramsgate's throat. It seemed to press forward, and she thought, No, he wouldn't . . . and then, quick as mercury, the cane flew away, leaving Hugh's grip for a split second before he caught it again and stepped away. He was favoring his injured leg, but there was something das.h.i.+ng about his uneven gait, something almost graceful.

He was still beautiful in motion. One had only to look.

Sarah felt herself exhale. She wasn't certain when she had last drawn breath. She watched in silence as Lord Ramsgate pulled himself to his feet and left the room. And then she stared at the open doorway, half expecting him to return.

"Sarah?"

Dimly, she registered Hugh's voice. But she couldn't tear her eyes from the doorway, and she was shaking . . . her hands were shaking, and maybe her whole body was shaking.

"Sarah, are you all right?"

No. She wasn't.

"Let me help you."

She felt Hugh's arm on her shoulder, and suddenly the shaking intensified, and her legs . . . What was happening to her legs? There was an awful, wrenching noise, and when she gasped for breath, she realized that it had come from her, and then suddenly she was in his arms, and he was carrying her to the bed.

"It's all right," he said. "Everything will be all right."

But Sarah was no fool. And she didn't feel all right.

Chapter Twenty-one.

Whipple Hill Later that evening Hugh's hand hovered in the air for a long moment before connecting with the door in a crisp knock. He wasn't sure what sort of shuffle had taken place among the guests, but Sarah had been moved to a room of her own upon their return to Whipple Hill. Honoria, who had arrived at the White Hart with Marcus shortly after Lord Ramsgate had departed, had set it about that Sarah had reinjured her ankle and needed to rest. If anyone was curious as to why she could not do so in the room she'd been sharing with Harriet, they had not said anything. Probably no one had even noticed.

Hugh had no idea how Daniel was explaining the black eye.

"Enter!" It was Honoria's voice. This was not a surprise; she had not left Sarah's side since they'd returned.

"Am I interrupting?" Hugh asked, taking just two steps into the room.

"No," Honoria said, but he did not see her turn to face him. He could only stare at Sarah, who was sitting up in bed, a mountain of pillows propped behind her back. She was wearing the same white nightgown as-dear G.o.d, could that have been just the night before?

"You shouldn't be here," Honoria said.

"I know." But he made no move to leave.

Sarah's tongue darted out to moisten her lips. "We are betrothed now, Honoria."

Honoria's brows rose. "I know as well as anyone that that does not mean he should be in your bedroom."

Hugh held Sarah's gaze. This would have to be her decision. He would not force it.

"It has been a most uncommon day," Sarah said quietly. "This would hardly be the most scandalous moment of it."

She sounded exhausted. Hugh had held her the entire ride home, until her sobs had given way to a gut-wrenching stillness. When he'd looked into her eyes, they had been blank.

Shock. He knew it well.

But she looked more like herself now. If not better, then at least improved.

"Please," he said, directing the single word to her cousin.

Honoria hesitated for a moment, then stood. "Very well," she acquiesced, "but I will return in ten minutes."

"An hour," Sarah said.

"But-"

"What is the worst that could happen?" Sarah asked with an incredulous expression. "We could be forced to marry? That's already been taken care of."

"That's not the point."

"Then what is the point?"

Honoria's mouth opened and closed as she looked from Sarah to Hugh and back. "I'm supposed to be your chaperone."

"I don't believe that exact word crossed my mother's lips when she was here earlier."

"Where is your mother?" Hugh asked. Not that he was planning to make any untoward advances, but as long as he was going to be alone with Sarah for the next hour, it did seem a good fact to know.

"Supper," Sarah replied.

Hugh pinched the bridge of his nose. "Lud, is it that late?"

"Daniel told us that you took a nap, too," Honoria said with gentle smile.

Hugh gave a tiny nod. Or maybe it was a shake. Or an eye roll. He was turned so inside out he couldn't even be sure. He had wanted to stay with Sarah when they'd got back to Whipple Hill, but even he had known that such a liberty would not be tolerated by her cousins. And more to the point, he had been so exhausted himself that it had been all he could do to climb the stairs and crawl into his own bed.

"They're not expecting you," Honoria added. "Daniel said . . . er, I don't know what he said, but he's always been good at credible excuses for such things."

"And his eye?" Hugh asked.

"He said that he had a blackened eye when he met Anne, so it was only fitting that he'd have one when he married her."

Hugh blinked. "And Anne was all right with this?"

"I can honestly say that I have no idea," Honoria said in a prim voice.

Sarah snorted and rolled her eyes.

"But," Honoria continued, her smile sneaking back onto her face as she rose to her feet, "I can also honestly say that I am very glad I was not present when she saw him."

Hugh moved to the side as Honoria made her way to the door. "One hour," she said. She paused before stepping into the hall. "You should lock the door."

Hugh started in surprise. "I beg your pardon?"

Honoria swallowed uncomfortably, and her cheeks took on a telltale blush. "It will be a.s.sumed that Sarah is resting and does not wish to be disturbed."

Hugh could only stare at her in shock. Was she giving him permission to ravish her cousin?

It took but a moment for Honoria to realize where his thoughts had led him. "I did not mean- Oh, for heaven's sake. It's not as if either of you is in a state to do anything."

Hugh glanced over at Sarah. Her mouth was hanging open.

"You don't want anyone walking in while you're alone," Honoria said, her skin now on hue with a slightly unripe strawberry. She narrowed her eyes at Hugh. "You'll just be sitting in the chair, but still."

Hugh cleared his throat. "Still."

"It would be highly improper," she said, followed by: "I'm leaving now." She hurried from the room.

Hugh turned back to Sarah. "That was awkward."

"You'd best lock the door," Sarah said. "After all that."

He reached out and turned the key. "Indeed."

With Honoria gone, however, they had no buffer upon which to rely for a sense of normalcy, and Hugh found himself standing near the door like a badly posed statue, unable to decide where to take his feet.

"What did you mean," Sarah blurted out, "when you said 'there are men who hurt women'?"

He felt his brow furrow. "I'm sorry. I don't know-"

"Last night," she interrupted, "when you found me, you were so upset, and you said something about men who hurt people, men who hurt women."

His lips parted and his throat closed, choking any words that might have formed there. How could she not have understood his meaning? Surely she wasn't so innocent. She had led a sheltered life, but she had to know what went on between a man and a woman.

"Sometimes"-he began slowly, for this was not a conversation he'd ever antic.i.p.ated-"a man can-"

"Please," she cut in. "I know that men hurt women; they do it every day."

Hugh wanted to flinch. He wished that her statement had been shocking, but it wasn't. It was merely the truth.

"You were not speaking generally," she said. "You may have thought you were, but you weren't. Who were you talking about?"

Hugh went very still, and when he finally spoke, he did not look at Sarah. "It was my mother," he said, very quietly. "Surely you have realized that my father is not a kind man."

"I'm sorry," she said.

"He hurt her in bed," Hugh said, and suddenly he did not feel quite right. His neck cricked, and he jerked it to one side, trying to shake off the weight of his memories. "He never hurt her out of bed. Only in." He swallowed. Took a breath. "At night I could hear her cries."

Sarah didn't speak. He was very grateful for that.

"I never saw anything," Hugh said. "If he marked her, he was always careful to do it where it would not show. She never limped, she never bruised. But"-he looked up at Sarah; he finally looked up at Sarah-"I could see it in her eyes."

"I'm sorry," Sarah said again, but there was something wary in her expression, and after a moment she looked away.

Hugh watched as she tucked her chin against her shoulder, shadows flickering across her throat as she swallowed. He'd never seen her so uncomfortable, so ill-at-ease.

"Sarah," he began, and then he cursed himself for an idiot, because she looked up, expecting more, and he had no idea what he ought to say. His mouth hung wordlessly slack, and she let her eyes fall back down to her lap, where her hands were nervously picking at her bedsheets.

"Sarah, I would-" he blurted out. And what? What? Why couldn't he finish a b.l.o.o.d.y sentence?

She looked up, again waiting for him to continue.