The Adults Part 7

"Yeah but, I mean, so do we," I said, standing next to him.

"No we don't," Richard said. "We p.o.o.p out long logs."

"Yes, I understand that," I said, rolling my eyes. "But I'm sure to the rabbits, their little pellets look like long logs."

"I wish we could open a window," Brittany said.

"I wish I could take off my pants," Annie the Bird or Bear said.

"Should we be scared or something?"

"According to Satan."

Someone turned off the lights.

"Not funny."

"Anyone wanna bone?"

When the lights came back on, Leroy Hannah was in the front of the cla.s.s, pretending to sip coffee out of a beaker. Richard was next to him, announcing to everybody that he was going to give his fetal pig a rhinoplasty. "A nose job," he clarified.

"Oh, good!" Leroy shouted. "Cla.s.s, listen up! We are going to make the pig's nose proportional to the pig's face!"

Richard picked up a ruler. "Annie!" he shouted. "Come here!'

The cla.s.s laughed. Annie the Bird or Bear glared at him. "Real f.u.c.king funny, d.i.c.khead," she said.

"Annie," Leroy said, still mimicking Ms. Nailer, "your nose is nearly four inches long. Have you ever considered reconstructive surgery?"

We waited for Annie the Bird or Bear to stand up and slug Leroy across the face. But she didn't.

"Yes," she said.

She lay down on one of the empty lab tables.

"So give me a f.u.c.king nose job already!" she shouted.

"Uhhh," Richard said, "technically, it's a rhinoplasty."

"Don't be a b.i.t.c.h, Richard," Annie the Bird or Bear said. "Just do it."

"You can't give ABOB a nose job!" Martha screamed.

"I hate my nose," Annie the Bird or Bear said. "But my parents are poor so I can't do anything about it. I can't live the rest of my life like this. So just do it, you pansy a.s.s."

Richard didn't move. He looked at me for some reason. He stared. I shook my head. Annie the Bird or Bear sat up and took him by the throat. "Do it, f.u.c.k face. Is your father a world-cla.s.s surgeon or is he not?"

He cleared his throat, straightened out his back, like he was remembering who he was. "Jesus, woman," he said. "All right, all right."

The cla.s.s buzzed.

"Scalpel."

The fetal pigs lay still all around us.

"First," Richard said, "since you are alive, we'll need to sterilize the blade. Anyone remember how to use the Bunsen burners?"

Human Fart did. Human Fart had been Ernest Bingley's new nickname since he farted the previous week doing sit-ups in gym. When I heard it, I was saddened and relieved all at the same time. It had to happen to someone eventually, and I was glad it wasn't me, but poor Ernest, even though Ernest would eventually get laid on prom night, go to Columbia, and have a son who invented an electric bike that powered itself off its own energy, but still.

"You can't bring me into this when you get in trouble," Human Fart said. "I'm going to be a doctor. I don't need this s.h.i.+t on my resume."

Richard told him to put this s.h.i.+t on his resume. "This is the s.h.i.+t of resumes," Richard said.

But Human Fart made them sign a contract. Leroy drafted it, wrote down Earnest did not light the flame on the contract.

"It's E-R-N-E-S-T," Human Fart said, annoyed.

He lit the flame.

"Smells like gas."

"Like a.s.s."

"What if Ms. Nailer comes back?"

"What if Annie dies?"

"n.o.body is going to die," Richard said, holding the blade over the flame. "I've done this a million times."

"Now," Annie the Bird or Bear said. "I want you to shave off the b.u.mp. I want a Grecian nose. I want a one-hundred-degree angle."

Annie lay back again, her feet hanging off the end of the table. Richard put on the white lab coat Ms. Nailer never wore. Girls tee-heed from behind. Richard grabbed two rulers and took measurements of her face. We couldn't even speak. Someone yelled at Martha for breathing too loud. I stood in disbelief. This whole time, I had truly believed Annie the Bird or Bear was okay with who she was, as though she had somehow accepted her position in life and was, in that way, above everyone else. But here she was, lying on a table ready to be split. Of course she wanted a Grecian nose. We all did.

Richard began. He hummed while marking her with a purple marker, circling the b.u.mp on her nose. He pulled out a flask from his pocket, and everybody gasped, as though he had pulled out a rabbit holding a loaded gun.

"Drink this," he said to her.

"You've had that this whole time?" one of the Other Girls asked.

Annie the Bird or Bear opened the cap and sniffed like it was poison.

"The Bird's scared of a little whiskey?" Richard taunted.

"h.e.l.l no, I'm not scared," Annie the Bird or Bear said. "Just making sure it's real liquor."

She threw her head back and gulped. She smacked her lips. "Good stuff."

People pa.s.sed the flask around. At some point, I took a sip.

"Okay," Richard said. "Leroy. I need you to hold ABOB's head against the table. She's going to move when we break her nose."

Leroy stood behind her.

"Break my nose?" she cried. Her long red hair was hanging off the sides like a tablecloth.

"Reset it," Richard clarified.

"No," she said. "Just shave the top off. That's all."

"That's not how it works," Richard said. "Trust me, I know what I'm doing. Maybe a book?"

One of his friends got his Spanish book with Bienvenidos! on the cover and Annie the Bird or Bear looked scared for the first time since I had met her. "Uhhhhh," she said, "n.o.body is breaking my nose."

"What'd you think was going to happen?" Richard asked. "That it wasn't going to hurt? I'm changing your entire face."

"You can't just throw a book in my face! This is supposed to be precise, do it surgically!"

Annie the Bird or Bear went to sit up, but Leroy had his hands on her head and held her to the table. "Don't move," Richard said, holding the book above his head, and a sudden panic striped my heart. "Don't you move!"

Human Fart's hand was on the door. "Guys, I hear Ms. Nailer coming down the hall. I'm going to open the door."

"You open that door I'll kill you myself!" Richard shouted, his face red, the book high in the air.

"Get away from me!" Annie shouted.

"I'm opening the door."

"You can't open the door!" Martha shouted. "We're in a lockdown! That could be a school shooter on the loose. We'll all get shot. And die."

"I'm opening the door!"

Richard slammed the Bienvenidos! book into Annie the Bird or Bear's face and she cried out exactly as we imagined she would, she squawked and squealed and howled. The moan was loud and never-ending, like a wolf watching the moon explode in the middle of the night, the blood we never knew she had instantly dripping off the sides of her face. "See, I told you she has rabies," one of the Other Girls whispered behind me.

Annie wildly kicked at Richard and Leroy and we were all searching for something to do, some way to help her without moving. Leroy held her down, and Richard approached her with the scalpel. "Now," he said. "We can shave the b.u.mp off." And still, n.o.body was doing anything, not even me, who was standing there, me, who was always just standing there watching with my mouth open wide.

Richard pressed the knife against her skin.

Afterward, in Dr. Killigan's office, everybody agreed: Annie's blood was so red, it looked just like a girl's.

Annie's blood was so red, it was like she was alive.

She was just a girl with her wrists pinned; she was a girl with hair and eyes and a mouth and in the end, I couldn't bear it. I grabbed the Bunsen burner that was still lit on the table. I waved it in front of Richard and shouted, "Richard, stop it!" He ignored me. So I put the flame to his arm, and the flame caught on his s.h.i.+rt. He looked at me with wild surprise, and then, in the time it took for a single flame to turn into a fire on his chest, he shouted, "f.u.c.k, you stupid c.u.n.t!" He grabbed his s.h.i.+rt by the collar and tried to rip it off. He couldn't. He ran to the emergency shower and someone pulled the cord. The smoke rose off his body toward the ceiling, and everybody was so distracted, Annie sprang free, her blood preceding her out the door, where Ms. Nailer was standing, suddenly, tucking her s.h.i.+rt into her white pants.

"What the h.e.l.l has happened?" she asked.

n.o.body spoke. Then, from the back, there was a voice.

"Human Fart lit the flame."

The Other Girls couldn't figure out why I lit Richard on fire. They kept saying, "But he's an honors student."

When my mother got the call from Dr. Killigan, she kept asking, "What?" and then, "What?" My father asked me if this was about what happened in October. "Do we need to be worried about you, Emily?" and I yelled at him from behind my bedroom door: "I don't know! Probably!"

My mother told me I had to see Ron the psychiatrist. When I refused, she looked at my father, who said, "We'll all go, as a family." It almost sounded pleasant. I agreed.

Mrs. Trenton threatened to put me in jail for the rest of my life. She tried to hold a town meeting about it, until Dr. Killigan threatened to sue the Trentons since Annie's parents were suing the school. Dr. Trenton was so afraid of what this negative attention would do for his reputation in the medical community, he urged his wife to calm down. Let it be. Kids will be kids.

I took a sigh of relief, a verbal slap on the wrist. Dr. Killigan expressed extreme disappointment in me, and then I was sent to lunch. Punishment enough, I thought.

At lunch, everything that happened during the lockdown came out slowly, like bedbugs crawling to a warm body at night: Richard Trenton cut off ABOB's nose.

Emily Vidal lit Richard on fire.

A human fart lit the flame? Is that at all related to the group fingering in the girls' bathroom?

"I don't even know what that is supposed to mean," Janice said to me, biting down on her carrot.

She explained what really happened during the lockdown: Princ.i.p.al Killigan got a call saying someone had a gun. "But it turns out," she said, "just one of the special ed kids. He saw a security officer with a gun in his belt, called the main office, and said he saw someone in the building with a gun."

I stared at her blankly.

"I know," Janice said. "I didn't know r.e.t.a.r.ds took everything so literally either."

11.

All I remember about Ron the psychiatrist was that we went right before my father left us for good, and his house was decorated with silver New Year's streamers, and we sat down underneath them on the couch in his living room. A long peac.o.c.k feather bursting out of a vase tickled my ear, African masks lined the fireplace, and there were books on everything from Christ to Andy Warhol to why men hate wh.o.r.es to Italian cooking. There was an entire wall made of gla.s.s, purple velvet couches flat as pancakes, a television emitting a virtual fire, lights that weren't supposed to look like lights but rather boxes, and a painting of an Asian woman handing a white woman a d.i.l.d.o over the fireplace, and on the way home, my father drove faster than the speed limit and got angry at stop signs. "What kind of lunatic hangs pictures of Asian women holding d.i.l.d.os?" he asked.

My mother swatted my father and mouthed "d.i.l.d.os" accusingly.

"And that book on his bookshelf," I said. "Why Men Hate Wh.o.r.es. Did you guys get a load of that?"

"He must not have any children," my father said.

"Three," my mother said. "I saw a photo."

"Well I'm not going back there," my father said. "I don't trust a man who decorates his house with genitalia."

"I thought he was nice," my mother said.

On New Year's Eve, we took down our tree together for the last time like it was a celebration. We spent the night recognizing the origins of ornaments-Nana, Jane's Boutique, Russia-and the ends of ourselves.

"You know," my father said, sprinkling nutmeg on his brandy Alexander, "if you sniff too much nutmeg, you could die."