The Last Days Of Ptolemy Grey Part 12

"With your help, baby. With your help."

"What can I do?"

"You got to, got to . . . help me remembah what it is I'm thinkin'."

For a while after that they lay in silence.

"Is that true, Uncle?"

"What?"

"Do you love me?"

"When I think about you my heart hurts and laughs."

"That's why you din't wanna see my legs?"

"That's why I don't even wanna think about your legs."

The next day they had breakfast at a diner and went to the La Brea Tar Pits park, where Reggie used to take Ptolemy sometimes.

"When Reggie was a boy he loved the dinosaur bones," Ptolemy told Robyn. "The museum was on'y one buildin' then and they had dinosaur bones in a buildin' like a hole. When Reggie grew up he didn't like this place no mo' but I wanted to come so's I could remembah ..." Ptolemy drifted off, staring at the large clouds pa.s.sing overhead.

"What you remembah, Uncle?"

"What it used to be like in my head before things got confused."

"What's that like?"

"It's like they's a jailhouse in my mind," he said, "an' I'm in the prison an' they's all these people I know outside yellin' to me but I cain't make out what they sayin'."

"Hey, girl," a male voice sang.

Ptolemy swiveled his head to see a young black man in a red jumpsuit.

"What you doin'?" he asked. He had a sneer on his lips that had more anger than friendliness to it.

"n.i.g.g.ah, get away from me," the other, angry, Robyn said. "Cain't you see I'm takin' care'a my grandfather?"

"Let me help you guys," the young man offered, smiling and touching her shoulder.

Robyn jerked away from him and clutched her purse close to her breast.

"You gonna treat me like that?" he said as if he were truly insulted.

"f.u.c.k you, n.i.g.g.ah."

Ptolemy could see that Robyn was ready to grab her long knife. He had known women like this before: wild and violent, sweet and loving. He'd never had a girlfriend like Robyn, but Coy had had more than one.

"A woman like that could turn on a dime," Coydog McCann used to say.

The young man in the red exercise uniform sneered and took a step forward. Robyn shoved her hand into her purse and he stopped.

"b.i.t.c.h," he said, and then he spat on the ground.

Robyn stared death at him and he walked away across the lawn of the park.

"Come on, Uncle," she said. "We should get back."

They ate at the small diner again.

Ptolemy was exhausted from his day in the city. He lay down on top of the covers, falling asleep without even undressing. He felt Robyn take off his shoes and socks and fold the blankets over him.

There was no TV announcer, no cla.s.sical music. He was in a coffin again and the earth was cold. He was dead and couldn't move. He couldn't even s.h.i.+ver against the chill.

"What you gonna do wit' my treasure?" Coydog asked him suddenly, shockingly-out of nowhere.

"I'm cold."

"I give up my life and my dignity for you," Coy said.

"I'm dead."

"You don't even know what dead is. Dead is havin' a noose around your neck an' yo' feet afire. You just restin' while my treasure go to waste."

"I cain't, Coydog! I cain't even see. If they catch me they gonna lynch me too. They gonna kill me too."

The cold settled into Ptolemy's bones like it must have in the old pharaoh after whom he'd been named. The chill hurt his joints and his marrow. He wasn't breathing and instead of a heart there was a drum being played by a dimwitted monkey who couldn't keep the beat any better than a drunkard.

Suddenly warmth enveloped him. It was as if he were lowered into a hot tub of salted, scented water. The heat went through him and Coydog walked away in disgust. Now only his hands and feet and nose were cold. He was floating in the Tickle River in late August.

"When the water runs as hot as the blood of a woman in love," Coydog said as he walked from the tomb.

Ptolemy woke up held from behind by Robyn. He realized that he must have been s.h.i.+vering in the night and she held him to warm him as his mother had done in the winter months when he was a boy.

Ptolemy sat up and Robyn rolled on her back.

"Mornin', Uncle."

"What you doin' in my bed, girl?"

"You were so cold that you was cryin' in your sleep," she said. "I hope it was all right."

"What we doin' today?" he asked, unable to condemn or condone her gift of warmth.

"Gettin' some breakfast and suckin' the poison out yo' house."

"Ain't Niecie wonder where you are?" Ptolemy asked, realizing as he did that he could connect Robyn and Niecie and Reggie in his mind. He knew that Reggie was dead and not coming back and that he had something that he had to do.

"I told her that I was gonna stay at your place till it was cleaned up. She trust me. Do you trust me, Uncle?"

Trustin' a woman is like walkin' in California," Coydog would say. "You know there's bound to be a quake sometimes but you just keep on walkin' anyways. What else could you do?"

I'm a man dyin'a thirst an' you the on'y water in a thousand miles," Ptolemy said, repeating a phrase that had been in his mind for at least seventy-five years.

Robyn crinkled her broad nose and sat up to kiss her faux uncle.

"I trust you," she said.

While Ptolemy sat on the pine chair outside his door, Robyn made it to the back porch, set up the fan, and opened the back door through the protective gate.

Three hours later she was filling up bags with old newspaper, clothes, bills, and general trash. She swept up thousands of dead insects, some suffocated rodents, and few creatures that neither she nor Ptolemy could identify.

Ptolemy followed her around, looking through every paper and blouse that she threw out. He was very excited by a large iron key that she found between the mattress and box spring.

For four days they filled trash bags, swept, and discarded.

The strong girl also lugged chairs and tables and even the broken bureau out to the street.

At night Robyn slept on the mattress roll under the south table and Ptolemy slept on Sensia's bed, which Robyn had covered with plastic casing and unused sheets she had found in a closet. Sometimes the girl would come to him and hold him for a while until his teeth stopped chattering and he no longer cried in his sleep.

On the fifth day the apartment was mostly clean. The junk that Ptolemy wanted to h.o.a.rd was stacked neatly in the deep closet. There were chairs in the living room and laundered blankets on the bed. The kitchen had been swept and scrubbed and disinfected until it almost seemed as if someone might cook in there.

"Uncle?" Robyn asked one day. She had just returned with a basket full of clothes from the laundromat across the street.

"Yeah?"

"What's this card? It's got a name and number printed on one side and on the other somebody wrote, 'For the doctor you requested' by hand."

"I don't . . . I don't remembah no card. And I ain't sick, either."

"It says that this man, this Antoine Church, is a social worker," Robyn said. "Maybe he gotta doctor help you remembah things like this."

Grey," a woman called. "Pee Toll My Grey."

"That's us, Uncle," Robyn said.

"That ain't my name," he said, stubbornly anch.o.r.ed to the blue armchair in the hall at social services. "I mean, that's my last name but she must be callin' somebody else."

"Please," his young guardian whined.

"That's not my name," Ptolemy said again.

"Please."

He allowed the girl he thought of as his child to lift him by the forearms and lead him through the scuffed and stained brown door.

It was a small office with no bookcases or books. The desk was made from pressboard and covered in plastic walnut veneer that had started peeling at the corners.

Mr. Antoine Church was a prissy young black man with straightened hair and a picture of Jesus on the wall. He wore a tan suit and brown calfskin gloves.

"What you got gloves on for on a hot day like this?" Ptolemy asked.

"Germs," he replied.

"Why'ont you sit down, Uncle?" Robyn said.

He didn't want to, but the busses and the walks to get to the government office had tired him out. Robyn stood behind the chair.

"How are you two related?" Church asked Robyn.

"My friend Niecie is his grandniece, and she asked me to take care of him."

"But why call him 'uncle' if he's just a friend?"

"I call my boyfriend 'honey,'" she said, visibly holding back her anger, "but that don't mean I'ma put him in my tea."