Live To Tell Part 4

D.D. smiled. "Have you looked him up?"

"I'll make some calls in the morning."

"Okay."

They lapsed into silence, Phil blowing experimentally on his coffee, D.D. already sipping hers.

"And your plans tonight?" Phil finally asked.

"Don't ask."

He grinned. "Hey, wasn't tonight the big date with Charlie's wife's friend?"

"I'm telling you, don't go there."

"You went to dinner first, didn't you? Come on, D.D., you should know better by now. You get a night off, you can't be wasting time on fine dining. Cut straight to the chase before the pager finds you."

"What? Drag a stranger through my door and bang his brains out? Hi, h.e.l.lo, the bedroom is down the hall."

"Trust me, guys won't complain."

"Men are pigs."

"Exactly."

D.D. rolled her eyes. "You and Betsy have been married, what, ninety years now? What would you know of twenty-first-century dating?"

"Oh, but I hear things."

D.D. was spared further heckling as a harried-looking doctor blasted through the double doors. His hair stood up in brown tufts, and he had both hands shoved deep in the pockets of his white lab coat.

"Detectives," he called out.

"Dr. Poor." D.D. and Phil stood up.

He waved at them to follow, so they fell in step as he dashed across the waiting room, through another set of double doors, then made his way through the maze of sterile hallways. "Gotta get some coffee. You need any more? It's pretty good here. For a hospital and all."

"We're all set, thanks," D.D. replied. She and Phil had to work to keep up with the doctor's rapid strides. "So, Doctor, we have some questions regarding a patient who was admitted to the ER early this evening, a Patrick Harrington-"

"Injury?"

"What?"

"Injury. What was he admitted for? I don't have time for names, just wounds."

"Uh, small-caliber gunshot wound to the head."

"Ah." The doctor nodded vigorously, taking a left, then a right, then bursting down a flight of steps to the lower-level cafeteria. "GSW to the left temple, yes? No exit wound, so I'm guessing a twenty-two. Bullet mushroomed upon impact, lost too much velocity to blow out the back of the skull. You know, I saw two separate gunshot wounds last week caused by forty-fours. Blows the skull to smithereens. I think the drug dealers are watching too much Dirty Harry."

They'd arrived at the bas.e.m.e.nt cafeteria. Dr. Poor beelined for the java station. D.D. thought he might have had quite a bit of coffee already.

"We're interested in Harrington," she prodded.

The doctor nodded, poured heavy cream and four packets of sugar into his cup, stirred, then found a lid.

"Okay. Single GSW to the head. Upon admittance, we debrided the wound, examined the damage to the scalp, and evaluated the head injury. Patient had only limited responsiveness and scored poorly on the Glasgow coma test. I sent the patient for an urgent CT scan, then referred him to surgery for removal of the projectile lodged in the left posterior frontal area of the brain. I believe the neurosurgeon on call this evening was Dr. Badger. He does good work, if that helps you."

"Prognosis?" Phil spoke up.

Dr. Poor made a waffling gesture with his hand. "Three issues with head injuries. First, the bleeding. Second, the direct trauma. Third, the resulting swelling. So far, the patient has survived the bleeding and direct trauma. Swelling, however, remains a concern, as is risk of infection. And, for that matter, further bleeding. Even the best neurosurgeon can do only so much to repair the damage inflicted by a bullet to the brain. It's like throwing a b.u.t.ter knife into a bowl of pudding. The pudding doesn't stand a chance."

"When will he regain consciousness?" D.D. asked.

"Haven't a clue. I'd have to look at his chart. I'm guessing he's heavily sedated, which is probably for the best."

"But we need to ask him some questions," she persisted impatiently.

Dr. Poor arched a brow. "Half the man's brain has been turned into the Panama Ca.n.a.l. What do you think he could tell you at the moment?"

D.D. and Phil exchanged glances. It was hardly surprising news, but disappointing.

"Can you describe the entry wound?" Phil asked.

D.D. chewed her bottom lip. She knew what Phil was going for. From a detective's perspective, it would've been better if their suspected shooter had died at the scene. In which case, the ME's office would've bagged the man's hands and preserved the contact wound on the left temple. Back in the morgue, the ME would then test the shooter's hands for gunpowder residue while conducting a forensic examination of the entry wound. In twenty-four hours or less, they'd have scientific evidence that Patrick Harrington had died from a self-inflicted gunshot wound to the head.

Furthermore, Harrington's clothes would have been carefully preserved, then a.n.a.lyzed for blood spatter and other evidence related to the homicidal rampage. Bada bing, bada boom, the blood spots on Subject's A's clothing tied to the wounds inflicted on Victims B, C, D, and E, meaning Patrick Harrington stabbed his entire family before shooting himself in the head.

Case closed, detectives move on.

Instead, their suspected family annihilator had been rushed to the hospital by the EMTs. Where his b.l.o.o.d.y clothing had been cut off and tossed aside. Where his hands and wounds had been washed and scrubbed. Where countless opportunities to collect evidence had been sacrificed in an attempt to save the sorry b.a.s.t.a.r.d's life.

Now they were left with an ER doc's first impressions of the subject and his injuries. D.D. would've preferred dealing with the ME.

Dr. Poor pried the lid off his coffee, blew on the sugared brew, seemed to be searching his memory. "I'd have to check the notes, but the entry wound was several centimeters in diameter, burn marks around the edges-"

"Close contact," Phil interrupted.

The doctor nodded. "I'd say a close contact-entry wound."

Phil made a note.

But then the doctor shook his head. "You want to know if this guy shot himself? That's what you're thinking, right? A self-inflicted gunshot wound?"

"That's what we're trying to determine," Phil stated carefully.

"To judge from the CT scan, I'd say that's unlikely."

"What do you mean?" D.D. said.

"It's a matter of trajectory. Think about it. The entry wound was to the left temple, and the bullet came to rest in the left posterior region. That's a pretty straight line. If you think about trying to replicate that shot ..." The doctor set down his coffee, c.o.c.king his right fingers into a makes.h.i.+ft gun and trying to bend his right wrist enough to form a straight shot into his left temple. "It's not that it can't be done, but it's awkward. Especially given that the person is probably on an adrenaline rush, has endorphins dumping everywhere from trauma, stress, antic.i.p.ation ... Most self-inflicted gunshot wounds we see are angled. Maybe the person flinches at the last second in antic.i.p.ation, jerks the barrel slightly down or sideways. But a clean, direct hit ..."

He appeared skeptical, picking back up his coffee cup, taking another sip. "Then again, it's not the easiest thing to determine the pathway of a bullet through the brain."

"What do you mean?" D.D. asked.

"I mean, after the initial trauma, the increased intracranial pressure collapses the path the bullet took through the brain. So we can see where the bullet started, the entry wound, and where it ended, the resting place, but it's possible it bounced around in between. Maybe not probable," he hedged. "But possible."

"You see a fair amount of self-inflicted gunshot wounds?" D.D. asked him.

"Enough, I think."

"How does this compare? Gut reaction, doesn't have to be scientific. It's just us three standing here."

The doctor waffled again. "Can't really say there's a quintessential self-inflicted wound. Other than it's almost always a male. But gun type, location of wound ... Too many variables to make that call."

D.D. scowled, wanting a more definitive answer, but again, not terribly surprised. Doctors hated to be nailed down. "Did you notice his hands?"

"Nope, too busy looking at his head."

"Did he say anything, have any moments of consciousness?"

"Not when I was around." The doctor had his coffee between both his hands and seemed ready to motor again. He headed toward the cafeteria exit. They followed, more slowly this time.

At the last moment, he turned. "Might want to check with the charge nurse, though," he called back. "Find out who admitted him. That person might know more."

The doctor disappeared up the stairs.

They went in search of Nurse Terri.

Turned out, Rebecca Moore, currently working a double, had been the ER nurse who'd admitted Patrick Harrington. She pulled herself away from a vomiting three-year-old to answer their questions.

D.D. recoiled at the smell. Phil remained steadfast. He had four kids at home, and liked to joke that he worked homicide to escape the gore.

"You admitted a gunshot victim earlier this evening: Patrick Harrington," D.D. prodded. "We were wondering if you could tell us anything about him."

"GSW to the head?" Rebecca wanted to know.

"That's our man."

"EMTs brought him in. I noted his vitals, then paged Dr. Poor, given the head injury. He referred the patient to Dr. Badger for surgery."

"Was the patient conscious when he first came in?"

"No, ma'am."

"Did he ever regain consciousness while in the ER?"

"No, ma'am-Oh wait, when they were wheeling him out for the CT scan. He opened his eyes then."

"What did he do?"

"He was moving his lips, looked like he was trying to speak."

"Did you hear what he said?" Phil asked sharply.

The nurse shrugged. "I can't be certain. Sounded like 'hussy.'"

CHAPTER SIX.

VICTORIA.

A knife is missing. It's four a.m., and I've crept out of bed to take inventory. Evan woke up at eleven, midnight, two a.m., and three. Now he will probably make it until five. At least I hope so.

I haven't slept, but that's nothing unusual. The first few weeks of sleep deprivation are the hardest. Now it's been so long since I've had more than three consecutive hours of rest that it's the nights I do sleep that mess me up. I find myself foggy, barely able to pull it together. It's as if, having finally gotten sleep, my body realizes what it's been missing and rebels.

I don't have time for rebellions, so I've given myself middle-of-the-night ch.o.r.es. Several times a week, this includes inventory of the kitchen utensils.

He must have gotten the knife from the drying rack. I try to be diligent, but I'm rarely functioning at one hundred percent. My fine motor skills have eroded to the point that I drop small objects half a dozen times a day. When people speak to me, I have moments when I see their mouths moving, but I can't process English.

Evan once watched a show describing how Navy SEALs must survive more than ninety-six hours without sleep as part of h.e.l.l Week. I wanted to scream at the TV, Ninety-six hours, my a.s.s. Try eight years!

I might have started laughing hysterically. These things happen.

Now I try to marshal my limited coping skills. a.s.suming Evan got the knife from the drying rack, he had roughly three to five minutes alone with it before I discovered him in the kitchen. He would've hidden it; he's clever that way. But somewhere close; he wouldn't have time to make it downstairs and back, nor could he go down the hallway because I would hear him. So the knife is close, stashed somewhere in the kitchen, dining room, entryway, or family room. I should be able to find it-I just have to think.

I drag myself off the kitchen floor. The kitchen is cast in shadow, illuminated solely by the undercabinet lights. I've come to yearn for the dark solitude of these early-morning hours, when my son finally sleeps and I have thirty, forty, fifty precious minutes to myself.

I find a flashlight, then creep into the foyer, where I pause to listen for sounds from upstairs. I can see the glow in the upstairs hall, from Evan's room. He demands an overhead light for nighttime, as well as a radio playing at daytime volume. He can't stand the dark; he's terrified of the phantom he believes lives in the gloom.

Sometimes the phantom tells him things. For example, sometimes the phantom tells him to kill me.

I love my son. I still remember the first moment I was finally allowed to hold him. I remember the endless days and nights of rocking him, feeling his greedy little lips suckle at my breast, the weight of his impossibly tiny body as he finally grew sated and drifted off. I remember the scent of talc.u.m powder. The silky feel of his fine hair. The way he'd sigh as he nestled against me.

Evan was born ten weeks premature. I'd like to say it was just one of those things, but according to the doctor, it was all my fault.

Back in those days, Michael and I lived a marvelously shallow life. We owned a giant old Colonial in Cambridge, which we'd painstakingly remodeled to fit in with the other historic homes in the neighborhood. Michael worked long hours as a vice president with a major finance company in Boston, while I networked with our upscale neighbors as a much-sought-after interior decorator. I designed kitchens for doctors, window treatments for lawyers, and custom-made sofas for various professional athletes.

Michael and I had both grown up poor. Now we merrily evaluated our days by what designer clothes we'd purchased, or what up-and-coming Boston power player we'd met. I interspersed two-hundred-dollar facials with rare-antiques shopping, just as Michael filled his calendar with strategic lunches and box seats at various sporting events. Weekends meant the Cape in the summer, or our "lodge" in the White Mountains during the winter.

When I became pregnant, it was one more exercise in conspicuous consumption. I ordered cashmere sweaters from Pea in the Pod, layette sets from Burberry, and, of course, an English pram. I overhauled the nursery while taking up yoga and switching from my morning coffee to decaffeinated green tea. Nothing would be too good for our child. Nothing.