Shadowheart Part 5

You told me I could not leave you-not yet. The king's voice was as clear as if he stood beside Barrick. The king's voice was as clear as if he stood beside Barrick. But now you must rest again. It takes no deathly wisdom to know you will need all your strength for whatever comes next, and you still are not strong enough to withstand the full bloom of the Fireflower. I need your attention. Send Harsar-so away. But now you must rest again. It takes no deathly wisdom to know you will need all your strength for whatever comes next, and you still are not strong enough to withstand the full bloom of the Fireflower. I need your attention. Send Harsar-so away.

Barrick began to mumble excuses, but whatever else he might have been, the exotic Harsar was by training a royal servant: he glimpsed what was wanted and promptly made himself scarce, taking the empty tray with him.

"You said he was angry at you . . . ? Harsar?"

You need not speak aloud, the king's voice said. the king's voice said. And you have no need to stand or sit, either. Lie down, for you are still weary. Rest. What Harsar thinks of me does not matter anymore. He is faithful to the Fireflower. And you have no need to stand or sit, either. Lie down, for you are still weary. Rest. What Harsar thinks of me does not matter anymore. He is faithful to the Fireflower.

Barrick stretched out on the bed, found a delicate but surprisingly heavy blanket to pull over himself. Even with the king's comforting presence so close, he began to feel the Fireflower voices stirring in him, threatening to pull him down, to drown him in an ocean of alien memories. How would he ever find the strength to reach the sh.o.r.e . . . !

Do not think of a sh.o.r.e, said the king, startling him with how much of Barrick's mind he had understood. said the king, startling him with how much of Barrick's mind he had understood. You are not drowning, but neither can you climb safely up from the Fireflower and leave it behind. It is part of you, now and forever. You are not drowning, but neither can you climb safely up from the Fireflower and leave it behind. It is part of you, now and forever.

Instead, think of the light of a single star low on the horizon. Swim toward that light. You will not reach it, but in time you will learn to be content to swim eternally in that endless ocean. In truth, you will never reach that glowing mote, but neither will it ever disappear from your sight. . . .

The king continued to speak these riddling words to him, over and over, his voice as soothing to Barrick's thoughts as the song of summer crickets. He tried to swim toward the light, but instead found himself sinking deeper and deeper into weariness and, at last, back into the oblivion of sleep.

When the servant wakened him again, it was not with a meal but a summons.

"The queen bids you join her in the Singing Garden."

Barrick got up and followed Harsar, feeling protected still by Ynnir's help and the king's unfelt but still recognized presence. The Fireflower voices were not gone but at the moment they seemed m.u.f.fled, as though some layer of protection had been woven between them and Barrick. He followed the small servant out a side door and beneath the gray sky, down a path of black gravel running through a bed of stones. They pa.s.sed through one garden after another, concentric walled rings that used colors of flowers and stones, as well as their shapes, in ways he could not entirely grasp, but their effect was so strong and so varied that it tired him just to pa.s.s through them.

At the center was a gateway, an arch of stone wound with clinging white flowers.

"Go quietly," Harsar said. "For your own sake." The servant bowed then and left him.

Barrick stepped through the gate, wondering what exactly he was being warned against. Were there animals here that would harm him if they caught him-or even plants? He walked as silently as he could, grateful that the gravel path had been replaced here with a track of pure, deep gra.s.s that cus.h.i.+oned every step.

Water dripped quietly beside him, falling from a crack in the outer wall onto a stone, plik, plik, plik plik, plik, plik. A little farther along a series of slightly larger waterfalls trickled into shallow ponds beside the path with a sound like someone gently tapping a crystal goblet. Behind both these noises he could hear a delicate hooting which might have been the call of some contented bird sitting on its nest, but turned out instead to come from a slender tower of stone scarcely twice his own height, with a hole in its top like a needle's eye that took in the pa.s.sing wind and made it into sweet music.

The Singing Garden, Harsar had called it. The Singing Garden. Even the voices in his head fell utterly silent; as if they listened to something they had loved once but had long forgotten. Harsar had called it. The Singing Garden. Even the voices in his head fell utterly silent; as if they listened to something they had loved once but had long forgotten.

He found the queen sitting in an open pavilion surrounded by flowering trees, her eyes closed as though she slept. As he approached, Saqri stirred in the depths of her white robes, like petals brushed by the wind, and opened her eyes.

"My husband . . . my brother . . . always preferred the Tower of Thinking Clouds," she told him. "But that place is too stark for me. I like it here. I would have missed this place if I could not have returned."

"Returned from where?"

"The fields we will all go to someday-the fields from which you nearly did not return only a short while ago." She nodded. "But even here, in the middle of all this peace, I could not pierce the veil around your home, which we call the Last Hour of the Ancestor." Saqri's face took on a troubled shadow. "Something grave and strange is happening there-something I have never known before, that keeps the words of my great-aunt Yasammez from me and mine from her."

"But if you can't talk to her, what can we do? We have to stop her-tell her the Fireflower is still alive. She will destroy Southmarch, otherwise."

"The fact that she has not yet conquered it-that, I can sense-means that things must be more . . . complicated than we can guess." Saqri shook her head. "But it is pointless to speak of it any more. Unless things change, I cannot speak to her. She will make up her mind and do what she feels she must, as she always has."

"Then we should go there. We have to tell Yasammez that the Pact succeeded. The trust of the People demands it!" Fireflower voices and ideas rose in his head like splas.h.i.+ng water, but it seemed clear to him he had the gist of it correctly. "Why are you looking at me like that?"

"You sound more like one of ours than one of yours." Her lips curled in a faint smile. "Still, go to her, you say? Manchild, hundreds of leagues lie between us and them."

"But you have these . . . doors. Gateways. I came here through one!"

Saqri made a strange little hissing sound-she was laughing. "Grandmother Void did not invite everyone in the world to use her roads, child! Just her own great-grandson, Crooked. You came here on one of his, made long ago when the G.o.ds still walked the world, and my folk and the Dreamless were still allies. It only survives because the lore of making and unmaking such things is lost to us-and it would only lead you back to the city of Sleep."

"But if we can't use that one, there must be others!"

"A few. Some had already been discovered by accident before Crooked learned the great secrets from the old woman. In fact the G.o.ds built many of their houses so that they could use those which had already been found."

"Then we can use them, too, can't we? You said that Southmarch is on top of-in front of, whatever you said-the palace of Kernios. That's what you meant, isn't it? One of those doors?"

"Any of the roads that served Kernios would be banned to us," she said. "Even with the dark one deep in his long slumber. It is a good idea, Barrick Manchild, but it will not serve."

"What am I supposed to do, then, just . . . pray pray? My people will be killed! And so will the rest of yours!" He threw himself down on the steps of the pavilion at her feet and slapped the stone in frustration. "I used to think the G.o.ds didn't even exist-now you're telling me they're blocking my way every direction I turn. And they're not even awake!"

Saqri raised one eyebrow at this display but did not speak. After a moment she rose and drifted down the steps past him. She raised her hand as she pa.s.sed, clearly bidding him to follow her.

"Where are we going now?" Barrick asked.

"There is another source of help that remains to us," she said without slowing.

Barrick scrambled after her as she made her way back across the chiming, singing garden into the timeless halls of Qul-na-Qar.

There was a point at which the stairs they had been descending for so long became a level floor, but he could not quite remember when that happened; there was another point at which the inconstant, watery light of the palace dwindled and at last died, but he could not exactly remember when that had happened, either. Lastly, even the stone floor beneath his feet had ended; now he felt the give of loam beneath his feet, as though they had gone so deep beneath the castle they had left even the foundations behind. In fact, they had been walking in darkness so long now that it seemed no matter what Saqri might claim of the distance, they must have walked most of the way from Qul-na-Qar to Southmarch.

The silence of this endless dark place was of course not truly silent, at least not in Barrick's teeming skull, but with the help of what Ynnir had told him and the feeling that the blind king himself was not too far away, Barrick was able to rise above the chaotic knowledge of the Fireflower and concentrate on staying close to Saqri, who led him not like a mother leading a child through an unfamiliar place, but like someone leading another family member through a place in which they had both lived their entire lives.

Is it confidence in me she's showing, or contempt? It did no good to wonder, of course, because they probably meant the same thing to a Qar, somehow. Still, the voices in his head did not feel nearly as alien as they had before. He almost thought he could live with them. It did no good to wonder, of course, because they probably meant the same thing to a Qar, somehow. Still, the voices in his head did not feel nearly as alien as they had before. He almost thought he could live with them.

At last, and only because of the deep, awesome darkness through which they had been traveling, he finally saw the light: it was such a faint change that he would never have recognized it otherwise-more the memory of light than light itself. Although it grew steadily stronger as he walked, it was still a hundred paces or more before it even brightened his surroundings enough that he could finally make out the silvery outline of Saqri before him, then another hundred more before he could see the sides of the narrow, dirt-and-stone pa.s.sage through which they walked, something that looked as if it had been crudely cut from the living earth in a single day's work.

Where . . . ? he wondered, but felt Saqri's thoughts settle gently over his, urging him to silence. he wondered, but felt Saqri's thoughts settle gently over his, urging him to silence.

Soon enough.

The dim radiance ahead began to grow until it became a pearly cylinder of light, its base round and s.h.i.+ny as a coin. As they grew closer, he saw that the cylinder was a single large beam from a hole in the top of the tunnel, and the circle on the floor was the surface of a circular pool not much larger than a writing table but just wide enough to catch all the beam of light from above. Saqri stopped and he stopped beside her.

The Deep Library, she said. she said.

Barrick had no idea what he was supposed to think. He had heard the name more than a few times from Ynnir. He had supposed it some deep vault in the lower part of the castle, or even a ma.s.sive hall, filled with old scrolls and decaying volumes, a little (at least in his mind's eye) like the library in Chaven's observatory or his father's rooms in the Tower of Summer.

The queen reached out without warning and took his hand in hers, then lifted her other hand into the light and gestured for him to do the same. Barrick had to take a step forward to reach, and as he did so he could see up the vertical tunnel toward the gleam's source, a hole in the darkness that seemed impossibly distant, at its center a single point of white light.

Yes, Saqri told him. Saqri told him. It is Yah'stah's Eye, the hopeful star. It always s.h.i.+nes above the Deep Library. It is Yah'stah's Eye, the hopeful star. It always s.h.i.+nes above the Deep Library.

Barrick was astonished. But . . . but I haven't seen a star in months . . . ! The Mantle But . . . but I haven't seen a star in months . . . ! The Mantle-the word came to him unbidden, handed up by the Fireflower as if it had been a small object he had dropped-the Mantle covers the whole land . . . !

But the Deep Library does not see the Mantle, Saqri told him. Saqri told him. It sees things as they are, or at least as they were. And the Eye is always above it. Now give me your thoughts and your silence. It sees things as they are, or at least as they were. And the Eye is always above it. Now give me your thoughts and your silence.

It takes both of the heirs to the Fireflower to open the Deep Library, the voices told him-or was it Ynnir's voice somehow braiding all the other voices together into one? the voices told him-or was it Ynnir's voice somehow braiding all the other voices together into one? That is another reason why losing you or Saqri now would cripple the People forever. That is another reason why losing you or Saqri now would cripple the People forever.

For a long time he only stood, listening to the murmur of the Fireflower, feeling the broad shapes of Saqri's thoughts as she wove the summons, a chain of questions almost like children's riddles: "Who is gone but remains?

Who is without but within?

Who will come back to the place they never left . . . ?"

He began to feel the presences gathering even before he saw the first of the silvery strands start to form in the radiance like bubbles clinging to the weeds in a pond. They came from nowhere-they came from nothing nothing-but by the time they floated in the beam of light, they were something. They lived, at least a little, they thought, they remembered.

"We honor the summoners. We honor Crooked's House. We honor the Fireflower." The voices washed through his head like the sound of water dripping in a dark place. As each voice spoke, though it could be heard only inside Barrick's thoughts, the pond or well at his feet sp.a.w.ned a little circular ripple. Soon the circles were crisscrossing. The voices washed through his head like the sound of water dripping in a dark place. As each voice spoke, though it could be heard only inside Barrick's thoughts, the pond or well at his feet sp.a.w.ned a little circular ripple. Soon the circles were crisscrossing. "Ask us and we shall give you what is in us to give." "Ask us and we shall give you what is in us to give."

"The House of the People and the Last Hour of the Ancestor no longer share any of Crooked's Roads," Saqri said, her silent words seeming to drift up into the beam of light like motes of dust. Saqri said, her silent words seeming to drift up into the beam of light like motes of dust. "How can the distance be crossed? How can the gap be bridged?" "How can the distance be crossed? How can the gap be bridged?"

"In the elder days, one of the brightest could ride to the Ancestor in three days-fewer if his mount was not earthbound."

"Yes," said Saqri with a touch of asperity in her voice, "and the G.o.ds could make scented oils appear from the air then, too, and cause stones to blossom. Those days are gone. The great steeds have broken their traces years ago and fled to far lands. Those who traveled Grandmother Void's roads can only go where the way is not barred-and the place we wish to go is barred to us."

It was unutterably strange to stand before the Deep Library, to hear the voices and watch the surface of the pool rippling as if beneath the strike of invisible raindrops. It was different than the way the Fireflower manifested itself in his head, more chaotic and less like the conversation of humans, but with Saqri directing it, it did not pa.s.s beyond what he could take in, although he could by no means understand all of it.

"Terrible things are on the wind," the Deep Library voices murmured. the Deep Library voices murmured. "The forbidding of the old roads, the dying G.o.d, the plans of the southern mortal that make even Heaven tremble ..." "The forbidding of the old roads, the dying G.o.d, the plans of the southern mortal that make even Heaven tremble ..."

"And Yasammez has a Fever Egg," another voice said in mournful sing-song. another voice said in mournful sing-song. "The end must truly be near. Perhaps even the Dark Lady has finally discovered despair." "The end must truly be near. Perhaps even the Dark Lady has finally discovered despair."

"The roads are still there, if only the G.o.ds would open a way for you," moaned another. moaned another.

"Stop!" Saqri said, and her voice was like a whipcrack. "The G.o.ds themselves are asleep! You know that, because it has been true for half of your existence! And besides, even were they not beyond our reach, with Crooked dying and the rest dreaming, the most powerful of the G.o.ds are our enemies! The Three Brothers and all their followers hate us. That is one reason for my great-aunt's desperation."

"Then all is lost," whispered one of the Deep Library; a chorus echoed it, agreeing. The faces formed and disappeared, roiling for their moment of existence like weeds in a swirling river. whispered one of the Deep Library; a chorus echoed it, agreeing. The faces formed and disappeared, roiling for their moment of existence like weeds in a swirling river.

"All is lost!" they muttered. they muttered.

"Almost all," said one. said one. "Do they hate the mortals, too?" "Do they hate the mortals, too?"

Saqri abruptly held up her hand.

"May I dismiss them?" she asked. It took Barrick a moment to realize she was asking him. Apparently it took both halves of the Fireflower to dismiss the Deep Library as well as summon it.

He raised his hand into the light and let her do what had to be done.

They walked back in what Barrick a.s.sumed was the silence of defeat.

"So what will we do?" he asked at last. "My people-the people of the castle-your people-they will all be killed!"

"If we cannot stop them, I fear you are right."

He could not believe her calm. "But we can't stop them. Everyone agrees! We are on the other side of the world and you heard what the Deep Library said-there are no roads left for us to use."

"Not exactly." Saqri's thoughts were quiet, almost hesitant, as though she was still working out the details of some complicated picture in her head. "They said the G.o.ds' roads are still available to us."

"But the most powerful G.o.ds hate the Qar-you said that yourself! So what good would that do?"

"Ah, yes, the G.o.ds may hate the Qar," Saqri said, an invisible shape in the darkness beside him, "but I cannot help wondering how they feel about your folk?"

5.

Haunters of the Deeps ". . . But in those days the Kracian hills were a fierce, lawless place. A clan of bandits came into the valley where Adis and his parents lived while he was out with the flock, and they killed his parents and took what little the family had."

-from "A Child's Book of the Orphan, and His Life and Death and Reward in Heaven"

"I AM WEARY AND HEARTSICK,"saidOlin Eddon. "Why must I remain here? I have seen the s.h.i.+ps roll in, seen the soldiers in their thousands disembark. Yes, the autarch has ample might to humble my poor country. What purpose does this serve?" AM WEARY AND HEARTSICK,"saidOlin Eddon. "Why must I remain here? I have seen the s.h.i.+ps roll in, seen the soldiers in their thousands disembark. Yes, the autarch has ample might to humble my poor country. What purpose does this serve?"

Pinimmon Vash looked up to the deck of this latest, largest supply s.h.i.+p. The chief of the cargo-men waved a signal, letting the paramount minister know that the show was about to start. Other s.h.i.+ps were unloading as well-the harbor that had once served mainland Southmarch was now the hub of the autarch's tent-city along the sh.o.r.e of the bay-but it was this one that was the object of the autarch's greatest interest.

"It was the Golden One himself who decreed that you must watch from here, King Olin," Vash said as politely as he could. "That is all you need to know."

"Why is no one in Southmarch firing on your s.h.i.+ps?" Olin's face was pale and damp with perspiration. "Surely not even Tolly would fail to defend his own castle. What trick has your master played to land here unopposed?"

"Ask the Golden One about such minor matters, King Olin, not me." Couldn't the northerner see that all this had nothing to do with Pinimmon Vash himself, that he was only doing what his master required of him? The foreign king was less of a savage than Vash had expected, but his manners were clearly not up to the rigorous standards of a real court. After all, wasn't having to stand here on the sunny waterfront without even a parasol-where were those cursed slave boys, anyway?-much harder on the older, more delicate Vash?

He became uncomfortably aware that King Olin was staring at him. "Yes?"