The Promise Sealed With Our Lips Chapter 79

WARNING: NSFW

As he lied down on his bed at night, He Nuo felt a bit insomniac. When s.h.i.+ Yan sent him back, he had said that he would come look for him tomorrow, so after he ate dinner at home he quickly finished the revision papers that he was supposed to work the next day. After he finished most of them, it was already 1am. He thought that he would dream of Zhou gong¹, yet he felt unexpectedly energetic and didn’t feel the least bit sleepy. Within the lonesome silence, He Nuo’s mind was as clear as a mirror. With the recurrence of today’s (actually yesterday’s) office event, he could no longer escape the problem that he had always been reluctant to delve into.

No matter how simple-minded he may be, he had still taken physiological cla.s.ses before and understood ethics and morality, so he knew that what he did with s.h.i.+ Yan was shameful and wrong. When s.h.i.+ Yan had done something like that to him (he can’t think or even say the word ‘rape’, not even in his heart), it made him feel deeply humiliated and had even pushed his sense of inferiority up to the surface. But what s.h.i.+ Yan was doing to him now no longer brought him shame or pain, and instead gave him pleasure. Being near s.h.i.+ Yan felt like bathing in the warm suns.h.i.+ne during winter, and feeling the warm breeze that blew on the gra.s.s in autumn. His resistance to s.h.i.+ Yan’s embrace seemed so vague now.

It was the first time for the ignorant He Nuo to step into the palace of desire. Even though he knew that they did was considered ‘self-consoling’, it was better known as ‘masturbation’. Their school had issued a popular science booklet in his first year which described the growth and development of adolescents. The book had emphasised over and over again that self-consolation was a normal thing to do for adolescent boys, so they need not feel pressure nor shame for doing it. But He Nuo was deeply influenced by his inheritance of the thousand-year education that dictated “l.u.s.t as the mastermind behind ten thousand evils”, so how could he comfortably m.a.s.t.u.r.b.a.t.e? And the more serious problem is: right now he and s.h.i.+ Yan were comforting each other. He felt like he was doing something wrong, something obscene.

But who was obscene? He wasn’t, and neither was s.h.i.+ Yan. His thoughts were all muddled and chaotic, where did the fault lie? It wasn’t appropriate to say that s.h.i.+ Yan was acting like a hoodlum, because he didn’t feel like he was being bullied by s.h.i.+ Yan. It actually felt more pleasurable when s.h.i.+ Yan does it for him than when he does it himself. He recalled how s.h.i.+ Yan brought some warm water afterwards that night and that huge handkerchief again, and how he didn’t want s.h.i.+ Yan to wipe him down. But he couldn’t even raise his hand to start cleaning himself up in front of s.h.i.+ Yan. After s.h.i.+ Yan generously helped him wash away the foul liquid, he wiped off the liquid on his own body too. By the time He Nuo fell asleep, he was still unable to dispel the clouds above him that were concealing the answers to his doubts.

After he had lunch on a Sunday, s.h.i.+ Yan came to He Nuo’s house and lied down on his bed the moment he entered the room. He Nuo specially sat on the stool in front of his table, but it didn’t take long before s.h.i.+ Yan patted the s.p.a.ce next to him and asked him to go over. He Nuo didn’t want to stick so close to s.h.i.+ Yan, so he didn’t go over. s.h.i.+ Yan went over and forcibly dragged him to the bed, so He Nuo leaned close to the bed’s headboard. s.h.i.+ Yan asked, puzzled, “What’s wrong with you? Why are you being so awkward?”

He Nuo hesitated, “I don’t want to.”

“What don’t you want?” s.h.i.+ Yan didn’t understand him.

“I don’t want………..” He Nuo searched for the words to say.

When s.h.i.+ Yan saw the blush of shame on his face, he knew what he was talking about so he deliberately questioned, “What? What don’t you want?”

“Let’s not do that anymore, it’s so obscene.”

s.h.i.+ Yan was stunned, then he laughed aloud. He Nuo was dumbfounded by his laugh, he didn’t understand why s.h.i.+ Yan reacted that way. s.h.i.+ Yan yanked He Nuo over and pressed him down beneath him. He couldn’t help smiling as he said, “Who did you call obscene? You? Me?”

He Nuo shook his head. s.h.i.+ Yan’s eyes had a mischievously evil glint, “It’s not you, it’s me!” As he spoke, he grabbed He Nuo’s legs, “If you hadn’t mentioned it I would’ve forgotten it, didn’t our grand master scold Laozi for being a local hoodlum in front of Laos.h.i.+ the other day? Looks like you’re getting really bold.”

He Nuo managed to dodge the attack of his demonic claws, but he couldn’t escape being pressured down by his huge figure that was as heavy as Mount Tai, so he was thoroughly subdued by s.h.i.+ Yan and couldn’t budge an inch. This was when s.h.i.+ Yan rubbed his hand in a clockwise direction across his pants, and after he had provoked the bulge between his legs erect, he gently whispered into He Nuo’s ear, “Does it feel good?”

“Un.”

“You don’t like this?”

He Nuo didn’t answer him. s.h.i.+ Yan blew into his ear and He Nuo shuddered, “I like it.”

“Do you hate this?” s.h.i.+ Yan gently bit his ear, then began to lick and suck on it.

“I don’t hate it.” He Nuo’s voice was trembling. The heat between his legs rose.

After He Nuo shot into s.h.i.+ Yan’s hand again, he covered his face in shame. s.h.i.+ Yan took his hand away, “What’s obscene about masturbating? Which guy hasn’t done it before? Even girls do it.”

These words made He Nuo turn his head away. s.h.i.+ Yan pulled his face back, “Don’t tell me you’ve never m.a.s.t.u.r.b.a.t.ed before? I won’t believe it.”

He Nuo went all out, “Self-consolation is normal, but to play with someone else’s is…very obscene.”

“You’re calling me obscene because I played with your d.i.c.k?” s.h.i.+ Yan was upset, so he deliberately picked crude words to say.

When he heard that kind of crude language, He Nuo’s face flushed red.

s.h.i.+ Yan b.u.mped against He Nuo with his crotch, “I like it when you touch my d.i.c.k, it feels better with your hand than jerking off by myself. But I don’t think you’re obscene.” He took He Nuo’s hand and placed it on his, but He Nuo retracted his hand.

“Would it feel this good if it was obscene?” s.h.i.+ Yan grabbed his hand again and placed it on his, “Then when you go to college and listen to all the bulls.h.i.+t they say at night in the dorms, won’t you think that they’re all hoodlums?” The way s.h.i.+ Yan dealt with He Nuo just now — finding his sensitive spot on his ear — was something he learnt from the midnight chats he had at college.

There were two students in their dorm who were from the city, so they could walk to school and didn’t need to stay in the dormitory. But they wanted to break away from the shackles of their family and enjoy a dormitory’s social life. The two of them were also children of officials. They grew up in the big city, so they were more mature and sophisticated than s.h.i.+ Yan and gang; and they were wilder too. This bunch of guys who were of the same feather hit it off immediately. s.h.i.+ Yan and his buddies wanted to change dormitories because their dormitory only has 8 beds, but their gang has 11 people. There were 6 people in this college at first, so when s.h.i.+ Yan and Zhou Xiaodong joined in, they stayed in the opposite dormitory and always thought about how to change their accommodation such that all 8 of them can live together.

After they got close to those other two students, they decided to just move the wardrobes in their dormitory to the opposite dorm and placed two more beds inside, then 10 people could live in one dorm. Actually, if it were possible, the dormitory opposite them really wanted to move in as well because their dormitory was so lively and enticing. So usually, as long as there was one person in either dorm, the dorms would not be locked and the people from both dorms would go on rampages.

They were most lively when the bunch of them gathered to play poker, and it was even more exhilarating when they combined their cards with their new buddies. But what they liked the most were the colourful topics they talked about excitedly before they slept. The two brothers from the city broadened the horizons of the other guys with their thorough understanding of the matters between men and women. They didn’t hide the fact that they were veterans, and had quite a bit of experience under their belt. In actuality, s.h.i.+ Yan and his buddies have tasted the forbidden fruit before, but they have never so publicly “reported” their experiences like they were giving a presentation. After a few months of nightly training, everyone’s theoretical knowledge had risen up a notch, and the initial situation no longer occurred: when all of them listened until their blood would rise and their bullets would get loaded.

He Nuo asked about the communal life in his college’s dormitory, because to him, the word ‘communal’ was actually very foreign. s.h.i.+ Yan told him the essence of their meaty conversations at night, while He Nuo listened to his stories with his mouth agape — this was how a college’s communal life was like?!

“You talked to them about those kinds of obscene things?”

“Hehe, there’s nothing much for me to say, I just listen to them for fun. Isn’t it quite interesting? Isn’t it good if I can tell you about it when I come back?”

“That’s so low-cla.s.s.”

“Other people won’t say that. Men all like these things, except for you who doesn’t know anything about it.”

“Then since you know so much, you must be very knowledgeable about it now.” He Nuo was a bit disappointed with s.h.i.+ Yan’s college.

He Nuo’s sarcastic remarks sounded very unpleasant to s.h.i.+ Yan. Whenever he heard anything interesting or funny at his college, he always thought about telling He Nuo about it because he thought that it would certainly make him laugh. But now, his excitement had been extinguished, “Aren’t I just telling you about it? Besides, I don’t do these things with anyone else.” s.h.i.+ Yan felt like He Nuo despised him, so he got off the bed, “Since you think I’m obscene, I’ll leave.”

“Hey,” He Nuo had just said this one word when s.h.i.+ Yan opened the door and walked out. By the time He Nuo went out, s.h.i.+ Yan had already left on his bike. He Nuo felt lonely as he went back in, and he felt quite bad. During dinnertime, his parents asked him why s.h.i.+ Yan left. Apparently, when s.h.i.+ Yan came, his parents had asked him to stay for dinner. He Nuo could only say that he left because he had something else to do.

^{1. Duke of Zhou is also known as the “G.o.d of Dreams”. The a.n.a.lects record Confucius saying, “How I have gone downhill! It has been such a long time since I dreamt of the Duke of Zhou.”[13] This was meant as a lamentation of how the governmental ideals of the Duke of Zhou had faded, but was later taken literally. In Chinese legends, if an important thing is going to happen to someone, the Duke of Zhou will let the person know through dreams: hence the Chinese expression “Dreaming of Zhou Gong”.↩}