The Atlantean Compensator 32 Still Hurts?

"...Reikan!!

What is she doing here? I did not expect her at all...

Do not tell me..."

'Reikan is looking at Herald with a beautiful look, and eyes full of love and want'

She says. "What is it Herald?

Aren't you happy to finally see me?"

'Herald looks at her and after many years recalls how she looks.'

'Reikan is a fairly tall and l.u.s.tfully attractive woman, with a very long brown straight hair.

She's actually taller than Herald himself.

Reikan has round big cheeks, an obvious beauty mark on her left one. Brown eyes, small lips and a kind of a jewish nose...'

'Although her face isn't of great beauty, It can be admired when loving her.

Which Herald did a lot of back in the day...

It's kinda weird how love can turn anything into beauty to the eyes of the lover.'

'It is also worthy to mention that Herald and Reikan..

Have never met!!'

*Herald, still talking in his mind*.

"..G.o.d d.a.m.n it! Knowing this isn't real is making me even more confused about this.

I never knew what our meeting would be like to begin with."

Reikan. "...This is real Herald.

Here, touch me!"

*Reikan approached the confused Herald slowly and reaches out for his cheek with her soft thick hand.*

'Herald feels it as real as he thought it would be back in the day. It put a weird sensation inside him but he'd go on to not show it.'

'Nevertheless, he decided to act as if this is all real, it's the only way to get more understanding of the situation.'

"..Well, It is ironic that our first meeting would be in these conditions!"

Reikan. "Since when anything about me and you wasn't ironic?"

*Herald laughs*. "Yes, you're right on that one.."

Reikan. "But i think this is a nice set-up.

Atleast now i know, that i live inside you still!"

Herald wipes off his smile and says. "We'll always carry parts of people we once loved.

But i would be lying if i said that i was aware of it these last years.."

Reikan. "Would you?

How do you explain me being here and now?

could it be that you...still want me, Herald?"

Herald laughs in an ironic manner. "Hahahahaahha, You may be the funniest female i've known.

But i don't really have time for jokes now Reikan."

*Reikan looks quite sad when hearing this.*

"...I still want you too Herald!

I know I've messed up everything back then, I was a spoiled brat that didn't know how to handle any of her life's situations in the right way.

But we grew up Herald, more importantly I did.."

Herald. "Well, isn't that great? Always wanted you to change and you did that.

Am glad for you..

But i already have a woman that made sure not to do what you did."

Herald stops for a moment and notices that he's again talking like he was talking long ago about this subject.

Why would this even matter now? After all these years? He shouldn't even be replying to her claims...

His heart is beating weirdly, this gloomy heavy feeling on the chest...

"No.... Impossible! I've long ago put that behind me..."

Reikan. "You see...

I knew it Herald, you're only human..Not only that but also too human...

You sure put it so deep inside but meeting me got all of what remained of me back into the surface."

*Herald is getting sweaty again and his breath is getting heavier*

"..Wh..What are you talking about?

This is just the effect of this test...YOU AREN'T EVEN REAL!!!!"

Reikan. "Explain why It's me who appeared and not your lovely woman Muruem?

Muruem may have never done the things i did to you, but that goes also to how bad i made you want to just get that soft touch on the cheeks i gave u a minute ago..

Those feelings of longing and wanting may never ever disappear Herald.

You may not wanna complete your life with me but you sure wish to do a lot of things with me..."

*Herald stays silent after hearing these words..*

'It appears to be that they rang a bell in his mind, it appears that these words have truth in them!!!'

'Herald just keeps on staring at Reikan, he decided not to continue on this conversation.

More like he had no other choice..'

Reikan. "Unlike the past, we'll be meeting quite often...

If you're willing to forgive the past which i know you already did. Nothing should really stop us from living what we always wanted to live."

*She then, gives him a sweet little kiss on the forehead.

As if she's crowning him her king all over again,

Both eyes meet,

so closely...

Herald's heart is beating like a hammer...

Then, as if she was never there.

She disappears.*

*Herald sits on the ground, while putting his palm on his forehead and eyes looking down to the ground*

'His bad condition looked clear on his face.'

"...If my thoughts are correct, This room is showing me my future fears.

My mother's sadness, My friends' departure and now...Reikan's distortion!!!

I can easily accept the first two, but how does she still have this big impact? HOW??

I CAN SWEAR THAT I DID NOT THINK OF HER TWICE IN ONE YEAR FOR THE LAST 5 YEARS...

Back then, i always reffered to her in my mind as my Kryptonite. Her ghost chased me more than any other.. But i defeated it!!

And I learnt how to turn it into my GREATEST STRENGTH!!!!

Great..est...stren..gth??

W..Wait!!

Does it mean...

*Suddenly*

'Before Herald could complete his explanation trial,

A voice very familiar to Herald's ears was heard.'

"Weak and pathetic..." it said.

'Herald did not take a look right away, by now he is already expecting other images to come up until they're done..

But this voice isn't like any other person's voice...'

Herald, still not taking a look. "Oh man....Don't tell me It's..."

The reply was.

"Yes, It's me.... I mean YOU."