Lucky Unluckiest 28 Chapter Twenty Eigh

I was getting ready for the cla.s.s but decided to have breakfast first so I made my way to the kitchen. As I was walking down the stairs I noticed an envelope under the main door. Curiously, I picked it up and read my name on it. Confused, I opened it up and read the material that was written in it. It was the acceptance letter of the university I have been trying to get in for the past two years. They wanted me to continue my studies with them from Jan 1st.

I, who was left with no hope now was left dumbfounded. This was the opportunity of life. The opportunity I've been yearning for the past two years. An opportunity to finally start a new life.

This is probably the first and last opportunity of my life and I have no intentions to leave it behind at any cost. Happiness wasn't the word to describe what I felt at the moment. I was much more happier than the word happiness here.

I ran upstairs and grabbed my phone, called Liam.

"Where are you?" I asked, not able to hold my happiness.

"Why are you panting?" He asked, concerned.

"Let's meet right now, at the café we went to yesterday."

I quickly got changed and made my way to the café where we decided to meet. As soon as I got there, my eyes searched for Liam but I couldn't find him anywhere.

I sat down and waited for Liam to come. Giving myself a minute to think, I thought of Sophia. I have less than a month to spend with her and I like her too. But I can't destroy my lifetime opportunity for her, I don't even know if she likes me back or not. I don't want to dream so high that in the end I hurt my own self. Sophia became someone that is hard to get off my mind. Someone who takes my sleep away and someone I want to spend more and more time with. And on the other hand, All the sufferings I went through. I worked so, so hard for this opportunity. My life has been a series of hards.h.i.+ps, I could not end my miseries, afraid that my miseries might end me, I decided to escape. Leaving everything behind; the memories of my family, my mom, my dad and then my grandma and all the bad things happened related to them. Leaving my past behind. Past is a heavy thing to carry on my back. and I cannot let it go no matter how much I try to get it off my back. Its always with me, like a ghost dancing around me covered with nothing but unpleasing and awful memories that I try so hard to forget.

Liam snapping his fingers in front of me brought me back to reality and saved me from drowning in my own sentimentality like he always did.

"This better be good because I couldn't shower cause of you." He laughed as he sat in front of me. I ruined my own mood by letting my thoughts run my mind.

"Why did you choose me?" I asked. 

His confusion was reasonable. 

"Why did you choose me as your friend?" I asked again.

"Is everything alright Logan?" concern took over his face. 

"yeah I am fine. Our college is full of students who are indeed so much better than me. people who are more outgoing. People who would share the same interests as you. People who are" I paused for a second then continued, "happy."

I sighed.

I know that Liam knows that this isn't the reason why I called him here. He knows that I am hiding something. He knows that something happened that ruined my mood. And he's patient.

"But they are not you." He replied, not taking his eyes off me.

I sighed again. 

"Lets go, we might be late for the cla.s.s." I said as I picked up my bag and saw him doing the same.

Liam

It's been a while since he sounded so excited on the phone. The last time he got this excited was when our last year's first semester's result came out. Later, he apologized for being too happy as if it was a crime.

I was in the shower when I picked up his phone. His excitement made me excited and left me curious that what kind of happiness made him that way I couldn't shower properly because of his call and just left in between. But I think he's not ready to tell me yet. I'll wait for it though cause I know at a point or a two he'll open up. That's how he's always been.

He's mostly like that. I think he let's his thoughts take over his mind and most of this thoughts are bad. Things I am not aware of. Things that are hidden so well by him but little does he know that his eyes do tell us that he's been through things. That's what attracted me when we first met. But I just wish it's not unbearable. I hate seeing him suffer on his own. I've tried making him laugh most of the times but he's so much drowned into sadness that he thinks happiness isn't something for him. 

Now, I'm a little relieved that I've noticed him being a little more lively with Sophia around. Maybe she's his key to a better life but I'm not sure if he even wants to open new doors. That's unlikely of him. 

So many times I've cancelled my lunch plans with him so he could spend his time with Sophia because I know she makes him happy. I've seen that. I back off. He's happiness is more precious and rare. I believe we all have past experiences which are heavy for us to carry around alone, sometimes we need someone to share it with which lessens the burden and I believe for Logan, it's Sophia.

Although I tried my best to get him open up to me but he only opens a page at a time. So little about him that I know. And I'm in no rush since he ain't going nowhere.

Logan is a kind of guy I've never met before. That's what made me wanna be around him more. First it was all because of curiosity but now he's one of the most important people in my life. I've never told him that but he's really important to me. Precious to me. I just hope he opens up a bit by bit to me so I'd be easy for me to understand him. He's a closed book with so many locks I don't own a single key for. I wonder how to enter his heart.