My Secret Lovelife 14 Do I Really Love You?

The last day of our college before the weekends finally arrived. Haruto didn't come to college..

I and Sky had to attend practical cla.s.ses alone.. Together..

He was really disappointed as he thinks me to be incompetent with those cla.s.ses. Well I'm a bit of a dimwit when it comes to practical cla.s.ses...

Sherry asked Sky: Do you like to do practical cla.s.ses with her?

Sky: She is an idiot and it's disgusting to attend practical cla.s.ses with her.

I heard that... I was a bit far. But he intended to let me hear that.

Had he known how hardly I desired him... would he still say like that to me .

His look really showed that disgust with a wicked smile aiming at me...

I was really heartbroken...

Anyways I guessed that. Moreover, I don't deserve him. But I really had a heavy heart , so bad that it made me ache...

But when the cla.s.ses arrived I spoke at first with coldness. Then all of a sudden I started talking with him about trivial matters like how I met Lacy. He asked whether I and Lacy were from same high school. I frankly told him about the past...

I didn't know why I feel at ease talking with him about trivial matters... No matter how deeply he hurts me. I still couldn't avoid him.

He is like autumn leaves in my life. Bringing despair of fallen lovers...

My confession to him in my mind might have seeped into the abyss right after his complement of disgust. Well everyone cherishes beauty...

I am a chubby, short heighted girl and my name too has syllables which can be made fun of easily..

To be frank, girls like me do not deserve love or care from others....

Specially from whom I hold dearest in my heart.

I wonder, do I truly love him? Or is it my fancy seeing my friends around me having boyfriends at this age that made me make up one in my mind?

A person who is least bothered about me.

A person who doesn't need my help anymore.

A person... a person who thinks me incompetent in the works I do..

I really don't know what to do.

Why is it always like this with me? I wanna know ...