Drown 11 #10

****Flashback* (an entry from Wyett notebook)***

*March 17, 2018

The day we first met.

1:04 PM

The time we first talked via email.

May 23, 2018

The day we got to know each other.

"You're a good woman" T'was your words and i felt high. I liked you already when i first saw you, i knew i was attracted to you the very first time your eyes landed on mine. Those deep dark brown eyes that matches your slightly crooked nose, and those full lips that complimented your strong jaw and of course my favourite, your arrogant eyebrows.

You were the man i kept on imagining, you were the man i thought i'd never gonna have, the man i never thought i could reach and you were the man whom i thought wouldn't like me.

I knew you were broken, i could see it in your eyes. The moment you smiled at me, i felt the need to talk to you, to cares your heart and tell you it's gonna be okay, that everything is gonna be fine.

"You'll be fine" i said.

" I am fine" then again you smiled, i wanted to smash may hands on your face because your smile is creeping me, it's too fake. I wanted to ask you what are you doing, instead I roll my eyes and asked.."Why are you here?"

"I want to talk with someone"

"And that someone is?" i raise my brow waiting for your answer.

"You"

It was sudden for me and i knew, that moment i look so stupid because my mouth parted.

"Okay?" the only thing i could say.

Your sudden answer and your grin only made my heart ache. It is weird and i couldn't understand it. I know, i like you, I'm attracted to you but feelinng the emotion in my heart right now is really weird for me.

"You're a good woman" you said while looking at me. I choked.

"Stop it, I'm eating"

"Stop what?" asking me innocently.

"Staring and saying weird things"

"You're beautiful, can't help it and there's nothing weird with what i said, you really are a good woman, Wy"

I sighed, here we go again, my heart is being hammered by this guy and he doesn't seem to know about it.

I know, I'm in danger, i was sinking and i wasn't planning on surviving. It was my first time feeling that kind of thing.

But my stupid self didn't mind the situation because i thought i could fix you. I thought i can replace her, that was the idea i have created in my mind to keep my heart beating for you, to keep my mind that falling in love is a risk you gotta gamble with it.

Im in love with you Zach, this is not just a weird feeling anymore and i hope someday you can love me back. I don't mind waiting, i just want you in my life, not as a friend, or just a mere companion. I want you in my life more than what labels could offer.

Sincerely,

Wy.*