Drown 19 #18

"Does your family know about this?''

I shook my head, his jaw tightened but later on sighed.

"Inform them then"

"No, i need you to arrange things for me before i tell them. I can't let anyone stop me from doing my plans"

Im very determined to run away or you can say 'escape'.

"Why the h.e.l.l are you doing this?"

I made sure I'm looking at him in the eye before answering, I want him to feel that im determined and dead serious.

"You are all killing me" I saw how fl.u.s.tered he was again. I gaze at Oxygen, he kept his head down, i bit my lip.

Even if they are trying to shadow their emotions i could still feel it.

Yes, that's true, it is not the place that is killing me because its not a matter of where  but who.

All the men in our family are Dominant, Arrogant, Brooding, and Obnoxious. Now  that I'm done being dominated, i will stood on my ground. I am a woman and i run my life. No men can ever dictate me, no one can enslave me with their demands.

I know that asking Nickle is not a good idea but he's a better choice than King. At least there's a thin chance that he will hear me unlike that other cousin of mine.

"It's suffocating, Nick" My voiced cracked.

He sighed. "Listed everything you need and give it to my secretary. He will arrange it for you" his voice is void but  my mouth still parted. He agreed?! that fast? I mean heck, yes i expect him to do me a favor but not this easy, because what im asking is not that easy.  Oh, at least i have nothing to worry about my parting.

"Lastly, i want my contract get terminated'' his face crampled.

"What? do you expect me to work here if i want to get out of the country?" i rolled my eyes.

He tsked. "Fine, two months. That's all i can give you. You work and stay here for two months and you're free"

Two months is not bad, i know the process of terminating a new contract is not easy, especially i work for a big hospital.

"Is that all?" T'was Oxygen. I caught him staring at me. He didn't say nor mutter anything through out our conversation.

I stood up and walk towards them and I sat in between. I lean my head on Nickle shoulder.

"You know that i love the two of you right?"

"And yet you're leaving.."

I smiled with that, his tone is like a whining kid.

"Because im done being manipulated. I love all of you and i know you love me, us. but you gotta know that it's suffocating"

I grab both of their side shoulders and hugged it.

"I don't mind, really. Maybe because im used to it, i grew up like that, it's our environment. But after that incident i realize i never had the life. I was living with so much privilege that it tires me. Men in our family are all dictators, i guess it runs in the blood.  But i want to do things i like too, Nick, Oxygen. Like you, i have things i wish to have too by my own ability. All my life i've been pleasing you all. Everything i do is for the family,  but never for me. I never ever disobeyed anyone, have i? I didn't complain, it's in us anyway. But im getting older, and i still don't have the guts to be independent, but im now taking the risk. I want to do things by my self. So let me, please?"

Tears started to fall and i couldn't stop them and I didn't bother stopping them. I know for the past months all i did was to cry, shed tears for a man who never saw me as his woman.

But right now  i feel good, i finally let it out. I have kept this frustrations for so long.  I don't know if they understand me, what's important is i said it.

"I'm sorry" they both said. Suddenly i chuckled.  Maybe I'm getting crazy.

"I'm sorry if we're too protective and I'm sorry we made you feel that way" Oxygen said.

I pull my right hand from Nickle to hug him.

"I' miss  this" truth be told, i dont know what to say anymore. I felt like i already said everything i realized.

"By the way, where the b.l.o.o.d.y h.e.l.l is Tungsten Hoover?" Trying to change the topic.

"Dancing" Nickle said.

"Drinking" Oxygen seconded.

"Already miss me?" Speaking of the devil a.r.s.e.

I look up and saw his irritating face. His diamond piercing is s.h.i.+nning against the disco lights and his arrogant smirk is visible to my eyes.

If Nickle have black and brooding eyes, this one in front of me has dark and dangerous eyes.  He's scarier than the two when he gets serious, but this a.s.shole is nothing but a man wh.o.r.e. So no reason to be intimidated, you just need to avoid him when you see him.

Well, if you're on your right mind.

If you think he's a broken man who turn into a womanizer after a heartbreak, you're definitely wrong, he just like to play women and eat p.u.s.s.ies.

"Where were you Fafs?" Oxygen asked

"There"  He answered, i look at him sn.o.bbingly.

He sighed and pointed the place where he came from. This guy, he was just near our table.

"I don't intend to mix up with your issues." I nod my head. I know he hates drama and above all my cousin he's the only one who gives me freedom. He's not as protective as them but he's the most protective one when it comes to flame.  Yes, the mothaf.u.c.ker has favoritism.

"So, what country were you considering?" He sat in front of us. He then raise his leg on the center table and drank his whiskey.

"Greece" i said but I'm actually thinking of South korea. The further the better, we don't have a lot of business in Asia so it's the safest place.

If im going to escape, i need to make sure no on knows where. I never thought of informing them about my whereabouts after i leave. And that's better, i can live the life i want. .

"I have an estate there, you can stay in for the mean time" Nickle interrupt.

"I'll think about it" With that i called the waiter and asked for a bottle of Jack Daniels.

I wanna savour the moment, let tomorrow take its course.