Molly Bawn Part 87
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She tries to work to while away the time, but her usually clever fingers refuse their task, and the canvas falls unheeded to the floor.
She tries to read; but, alas! all the words grow together and form themselves into one short sentence: "He is coming--coming--coming."
Insensibly Tennyson's words come to her, and, closing her eyes, she repeats them softly to herself:
"O days and hours, your work is this, To hold me from my proper place A little while from his embrace, For fuller gain of after-bliss.
"That out of distance might ensue Desire of nearness doubly sweet, And unto meeting, when we meet, Delight a hundredfold accrue!"
At length the well-known step is heard upon the stairs, the well-known voice, that sends a very pang of joy through every pulse in her body, sounds eagerly through the house. His hand is on the door.
With a sudden trembling she says to herself:
"I will be calm. He must not know how dearly he is loved."
And then the door opens. He is before her. A host of recollections, sweet and bitter, rise with his presence; and, forgetful of her determination to be calm and dignified as well for his sake as her own, she lets the woman triumph, and, with a little cry, sad from the longing and despair of it, she runs forward and throws herself, with a sob, into his expectant arms.
At first they do not speak. He does not even kiss her, only holds her closely in his embrace, as one holds some precious thing, some priceless possession that, once lost, has been regained.
Then they do kiss each other, gravely, tenderly, with a gentle lingering.
"It is indeed you," she says, at last, regarding him wistfully with a certain pride of possession, he looks so tall, and strong, and handsome in her eyes. She examines him critically, and yet finds nothing wanting. He is to her perfection, as, indeed (unhappily), a man always is to the woman who loves him. Could she at this moment concentrate her thoughts, I think she would apply to him all the charms contained in the following lines:
"A mouth for mastery and manful work; A certain brooding sweetness in the eyes; A brow the harbor of fair thought, and hair Saxon in hue."
"You are just the same as ever," she says, presently, "only taller, I really think, and broader and bigger altogether." Then, in a little soft whisper, "My dear,--my darling."
"And you," he says, taking the sweet face he has so hungered for between his hands, the better to mark each change time may have wrought, "you have grown thinner. You are paler. Darling,"--a heavy shadow falling across his face,--"you are well,--quite well?"
"Perfectly," she answers, lightly, pleased at his uneasiness. "Town life--the city air--has whitened me; that is all."
"But these hollows?" Touching gently her soft cheeks with a dissatisfied air. They are a little sunk. She is altogether thinner, frailer than of yore. Her very fingers as they lie in his look slenderer, more fragile.
"Perhaps a little fretting has done it," she answers, with a smile and a half-suppressed sigh.
He echoes the sigh; and it may be a few tears for all the long hours spent apart gather in their eyes, "in thinking of the days that are no more."
Presently, when they are calmer, more forgetful of their separation, they seat themselves upon a sofa and fall into a happy silence. His arm is round her; her hand rests in his.
"Of what are you thinking, sweetheart?" he asks, after a while, stooping to meet her gaze.
"A happy thought," she answers. "I am realizing how good a thing it is 'to feel the arms of my true love round me once again.'"
"And yet it was of your own free will they were ever loosened."
"Of my free will?" Reproachfully. "No; no." Then, turning away from him, she says, in a low tone, "What did you think when you saw me singing last night?"
"That I had never seen you look so lovely in my life."
"I don't mean that, Teddy. What did you think when you saw me singing--so?"
"I wished I was a millionaire, that I might on the instant rescue you from such a life," replies he, with much emotion.
"Ah! you felt like that? I, too, was unhappy. For the first time since I began my new life it occurred to me to be ashamed. To know that you saw me reminded me that others saw me too, and the knowledge brought a flush to my cheek. I am singing again on Tuesday; but you must not come to hear me. I could not sing before you again."
"Of course I will not, if it distresses you. May I meet you outside and accompany you home?"
"Better not. People talk so much; and--there is always such a crowd outside that door."
"The nights _you_ sing. Have you had any lovers, Molly?" asks he, abruptly, with a visible effort.
"Several,"--smiling at his perturbation,--"and two _bona fide_ proposals. I might have been the blus.h.i.+ng bride of a baronet now had I so chosen."
"Was he--rich?"
"Fabulously so, I was told. And I am sure he was comfortably provided for, though I never heard the exact amount of his rent-roll."
"Why did you refuse him?" asks Luttrell, moodily, his eyes fixed upon the ground.
"I shall leave you to answer that question," replies she, with all her old archness. "I cannot. Perhaps because I didn't care for him. Not but what he was a nice old gentleman, and wonderfully preserved. I met him at one of Cecil's 'at homes,' and he professed himself deeply enamored of me. I might also have been the wife of a very young gentleman in the Foreign Office, with a most promising moustache; but I thought of you,"--laughing, and giving his hand a little squeeze,--"and I bestowed upon him such an emphatic 'No' as turned his love to loathing."
"To-morrow or next day you may have a marquis at your feet, or some other tremendous swell--and----"
"Or one of our own princes. I see nothing to prevent it," says Molly, still laughing. "Nonsense, Teddy; don't be an old goose. You should know by this time how it is with me."
"I am a selfish fellow, am I not?" says Luttrell, wistfully. "The very thought that any one wants to take you from me renders me perfectly miserable. And yet I know I ought to give you up,--to--to encourage you to accept an offer that would place you in a position I shall never be able to give you. But I cannot. Molly, I have come all this way to ask you again to marry me, and----"
"Hush, Teddy. You know it is impossible."
"Why is it impossible? Other people have lived and been happy on five hundred pounds a year. And after a while something might turn up to enable us to help Let.i.tia and the children."
"You are a little selfish now," she says, with gentle reproach. "I could not let Let.i.tia be without my help for even a short time. And would you like your wife to sing in public, for money? Look at it in that light, and answer me truly."
"No," without hesitation. "Not that your singing in public lowers you in the faintest degree in any one's estimation; but I would not let my wife support herself. I could not endure the thought. But might not I----"
"You might not,"--raising her eyes,--"nor would I let you. I work for those I love, and in that no one can help me."
"Are both our lives, then, to be sacrificed?"
"I will not call it a sacrifice on my part," says the girl, bravely, although tears are heavy in her voice and eyes. "I am only doing some little thing for him who did all for me. There is a joy that is almost sacred in the thought. It has taken from me the terrible sting of his death. To know I can still please him, can work for him, brings him back to me from the other world. At times I lose the sense of farness, and can feel him almost near."
"You are too good for me," says the young man, humbly, taking her hands and kissing them twice.
"I am not. You must not say so," says Molly, hastily, the touch of his lips weakening her.
Two large tears that have been slowly gathering roll down her cheeks.
Molly Bawn Part 87
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