Pushing The Limits: Take Me On Part 43

A thump on Lila's end accompanied by tapping draws my attention back to her. She continues to cry. A rush of panic washes over me. Lila's alone. Her letter last week told me about her parents leaving and how she was terrified of an empty house.

And I abandoned her.

Then there's no noise. No tapping. No cries. Silence. A glance at my cell and my gut rips open. Call disconnected. The car shakes as it veers off the winding forest road. I jerk the steering wheel to the right. My eyes dart between the gravel and my desperate attempt to reconnect. Her phone continuously rings. Lila's cheerful voice fills the line. But it's a recording. A d.a.m.n recording.

"s.h.i.+t!" I slam my hand against the steering wheel. What the h.e.l.l is wrong with me? I left her there-defenseless.

Near the exit to the campgrounds, a park ranger waves at me to stop. As he opens his mouth to explain campsite hours, I spit out, "Call the police! Call them now!"

Red and blue lights become a homing beacon. My fingers drum the steering wheel as I coast into her driveway. The fear recedes as I see no ambulance, but then my frayed nerves explode in terror. What if the ambulance already took her? What if she's dead?

Nausea spreads through me, making me dizzy. I can't lose someone else I love. I can't. Please, G.o.d, please let Lila be okay.

I dash out of the car, the memories of my parents breaking the news of Josh's death replaying in my mind like a sick movie. I never got past the front door. I just saw them there, my parents crumpled together in a heap on the living room floor. My father holding my mother. My mother holding my father. Both of their faces consumed by tears.

I knew in that moment my brother had died.

My chest tightens and a crazy panic causes my hands to shake and my feet to quicken their pace. Not Lila. Not Lila, too. A police officer spots me and turns his head as if he's going to say something, but I move faster-my feet pounding up the wooden stairs, my hand twisting the sun-baked k.n.o.b, my shoulder forcing the door open.

My legs wobble when I see her standing in the middle of her living room, and if it weren't for the two police officers in the room, I'd fall to my knees.

She runs a trembling hand through her rumpled golden hair as she wraps her other arm around her stomach. Even with the warm summer air creeping into the air-conditioned living room, goose b.u.mps form on her arms. She wears only a tank top and shorts.

"Lila," I say to expel the idea that I could be dreaming.

Both she and the police officer who speaks to her in a low, soothing tone glance at me. Relief smooths the lines on her forehead, and her arms drop to her sides. "Lincoln."

My name leaves her mouth in a relieved, airy rush, as if she's glad to see me. As if she wants to see me. And those gorgeous blue eyes stare at me like I'm her man. My heart squeezes.

"Are you okay?" I ask.

She bites her bottom lip while nodding.

Having no clue what to say, I scratch the back of my head. "I-"

And I don't finish. Lila half stumbles, half runs into my body. The fact that she's touching me, holding me, causes me to lose my balance. I quickly recover as her arms become steel bands around my waist.

I inhale, trying to figure out what to do. Ah, h.e.l.l, she smells like her letters; like lavender. I press my cheek against her silky hair and ease one hand onto the small of her back while the other hugs her shoulders.

Lila falling into me is peaceful, like landing on a feather bed. She's warm and soft, all curves and gentleness-alive, fitting perfectly into my body. Just as I imagined.

"It would be best if Miss McCormick isn't alone tonight. Will you be staying with her, sir?" asks the police officer, but the way she tilts her head and smirks at her partner informs me she can guess my response.

"Yes," Lila answers for me as she burrows her forehead into my chest. Her grip on me tightens. "I know him. He'll stay."

Everything stills. I have never heard sweeter words. She knows me and she wants me to stay. I'm not a stranger to her. Not some guy she barely identifies with. She knows me.

"Sir?" the officer prompts.

"Yeah," I say. "I will." I slide my hand along the curve of Lila's spine. "Are you sure you're okay?"

Her nose moves against my chest as she nods. "Yes. Just freaked." She pauses. "I'm sorry for sending you away."

Lila peeks up at me and I give her a half smile. "I deserved it."

For a split second, light s.h.i.+nes in her eyes. "You sort of did."

The police officer clears her throat and Lila steps away from me. My arms feel empty without her. It's crazy. I've dated more than a few girls and have never had this reaction.

"Are you okay now, Miss McCormick?" the officer asks.

"Yeah," she answers. "Thanks for coming."

The police officers inch toward the door and I block their path. "Whoa. Wait. You're leaving?"

"Lincoln..." Lila rubs her biceps. Her mouth scrunches to the right, calling my attention to her lips. "I...uh...was calling you...and I thought I saw someone...and I guess you answered right as I screamed...and I, ah...dropped my phone...then it turned off...and then the police came and said you called them and...yeah."

And...yeah. Not buying it. "Blood. Curdling. Scream."

Her eyes dart to the police, then away. "Well, I thought I saw something, but I was probably wrong." Then she looks at me, her eyes pleading, begging for me to drop it.

The muscles in my neck tighten.

"We searched the property," says the officer with a pitying smile at Lila. "And we didn't find anyone. Miss McCormick knows she can call us if there's an issue."

They think it's her imagination, yet I heard her terror. That type of scream can't be created by a fear in your head. That's death hovering in front of you wielding a b.l.o.o.d.y ax.

Lila thanks the officers and shows them out. With a click, she shuts the front door, and for the first time in my life I'm completely alone in a room with the girl I've fallen in love with. What the h.e.l.l do I do now?

I should immediately tell her what happened with school. I should tell her my plan to fix things, how when I return home I'll sign up for summer school. I should tell her that the thought of losing her paralyzes me. Instead, I follow my gut. "You saw somebody, didn't you?"

Lila collapses against the door and her face drains of all color. "Yes. No. I don't know."

Her head dips forward. "I can't prove it. The police think I'm crazy. And ninety percent of me thinks everything's okay because if there was somebody outside they would have hurt me. But ten percent of me is pretty positive that someone is messing with me."

I fold my arms over my chest, not liking the thought of anyone s.c.r.e.w.i.n.g with Lila. "What are you saying?"

She shrugs and smiles at the same time, making it clear she doesn't believe the words. "Maybe I have a stalker."

Maybe? Knowing what to do to help calm her nerves, I hold out my hand. "Start talking, because I'm not leaving until I know you're safe."

Lila When Josh first died, my parents got close, but as time has worn on, they've grown apart. The worst moments are when my entire family is in the same room. With the people I should love the most surrounding me, I feel the most alone.

~ Lincoln Lincoln a.s.sesses the orange Post-it note on the oven meant to remind me to turn it off as he stirs milk over the stove top. From the second he knotted my fingers with his in the living room and led me into the kitchen, I've found it impossible to tear my eyes away from him.

He grew-stunningly so. Taller. Thicker. His blue eyes are aged beyond his years, but when he smiles at me he becomes carefree and eighteen.

"That's it?" he asks.

"Yeah," I respond. I downloaded everything, except he's not humiliating me with condescending looks or a lecture about overactive imaginations. I spilled about the scratching on the windows last night, the sound of shoes against the pavement tonight, and the shadow walking toward me and the sound of his breath.

The police didn't take me seriously, but the way Lincoln's shoulder blades tense, I can tell he believes me. "Why?" I ask.

"Why what?" He empties the steaming liquid into a mug.

"Why do you believe me?"

Lincoln slides the mug into my hands. His finger accidentally skims mine. Electricity! A fantastic chill runs through me that reaches the tips of my toes.

"You don't like liars and you're not big into hypocrites," he answers.

Those were my words to him a few months ago, when my sort-of friend Grace tormented Echo. Lincoln and I share a knowing smile and stare into each other's eyes. The world fades away and it's just me and him and a fragrant cup of hot chocolate in the palm of my hand. Lincoln breaks the link and withdraws his fingers. I'd give anything for him to touch me again. But first...

"You have some explaining to do," I say. "As to why you didn't graduate."

He turns away and washes the pot in the sink. "Let's figure out your problem first. Then we'll handle mine." The water beats against the pot. "Are you still mad at me?"

My finger circles the rim of the mug. Hurt-yes. Angry-"No." How can I be mad at a guy who drove ten hours to see me and returned after I rejected him? "So you believe me? That someone was outside?"

"I heard you scream. No one's imagination works that well."

He grabs a dish towel and dries off the pot before placing it back on the hook on the wall. Lincoln's so efficient, especially for a guy who "bends rules." With a sc.r.a.pe against the tile floor, he pulls out the chair next to mine and angles it so he's facing me. "Just so we're clear, a stalker suggests multiple run-ins over a period of time. I think this is more of a prank."

The skin between my eyes squishes together. "A prank? Really?"

Lincoln relaxes into the chair, his long legs kicked out, an arm resting on the table. I feel like a dwarf next to him. He drums his fingers once against the table, causing me to focus on his hands. The skin is tough, rougher than the hands of most of the guys I've dated. It's not an imperfection, but a reminder of how he dangles from rock walls.

I wonder if he'd ever let me watch him climb or if he'd teach me. My stomach tickles as if fuzzy bunnies are jumping around. Would he catch me with those strong hands if I fell?

"You're the CSI dictionary," he answers. "Didn't an episode talk about how stalkers have patterns or some c.r.a.p like that?"

"You started watching CSI?" I'm grinning from ear to ear, and his cheeks redden in response. The big, strong rock-climbing guy folds his hands across his chest and switches his gaze to the floor. It's my favorite show ever, and I've written a few letters to him detailing certain episodes.

He sloppily shrugs one shoulder. "I caught a few shows here and there."

I don't know why, but the fact that he showed interest in something I like creates giddiness. I swirl the hot chocolate in my mug and blow on it in order to hide the glee. "What makes you think it's a prank?"

"You said it yourself. If someone wanted to hurt you, you'd be hurt. Your parents are gone, and I'd bet someone thinks it would be funny to scare you."

My forehead furrows with the idea that anyone would want to freak me out. "Why?" I ask again.

"Because people can be stupid."

True. Tired of thinking about it, I change the subject. "Hot chocolate?"

"I made it for Meg every night after she found out she was pregnant. It seemed to help calm her down when she'd get all worked up."

Translation? He believes I'm about to crack. My heart beats a little faster when I replay the image of the shadow walking toward me. Maybe he's not wrong. "Has she held the baby yet?"

Lincoln subtly shakes his head. "I keep wondering how jacked up the kid will become because his mother can't get her s.h.i.+t together."

The way his blue eyes darken into hurt causes a sharp pain in my chest. I reach out and claim one of the hands resting against his crossed arms. Lincoln weaves his with mine and we hold hands on the table, both of us staring at our combined fingers. G.o.d, his hands are warm-strong-and I swallow as I imagine him caressing my face.

"How's Echo?" he asks.

"Good. She's in Kansas or Iowa or someplace." Not here with me, and that sucks. She no longer needs me now that she has... "She's with Noah."

"So she's moved on," he says almost as a whisper.

From me? Yes. But she hasn't moved on the way Lincoln suggests. Sadness envelops me like a cloud. I've witnessed Echo grieve for her brother. h.e.l.l, I'm still grieving for Aires. He was like my older brother, too. "She's living. Not forgetting."

Lincoln removes his hand to rub his face. I leave my hand on the table for a second, hoping he'll wrap his back around mine. When he lowers it into his lap instead, I curl my arm into my own body-hating the rejection, missing his warmth. But I'm not mad at him. I can see I've lost him to memory. Echo has done this mental retreat several times herself.

We lapse into silence, I guess both of us processing the past couple of hours. The silence feels comfortable, like an old quilt, and I revel in it. But then my eyes dart to him. What if he's not comfortable? What if the written connection in our letters is all we possess? What if we don't ignite a real life spark?

What does it matter since he lied to me? We need to talk about it, but not now. Not when I've barely slept in almost two days and my mind's a disoriented mess. He could explain basic addition and I'd drool like an idiot.

Sleep-I crave it, but can I have it? My thoughts s.h.i.+ft back to the idea of someone pranking me. "Who would want to scare me?"

"You tell me." He kneads his eyes, and for the first time I notice the dark circles beneath them. He's tired, and as I sip the warm drink, I realize my exhaustion is contagious.

"I have no idea." And the unknown terrifies me.

Lincoln It's crazy how you brought up feeling alone. I feel alone a lot. Oddly enough, I feel the most alone when I'm in a room full of people. Everyone I know is changing. Echo's distant. Grace wants new friends. Even Natalie is spreading her wings.

To be fair, I'm changing, too. At times I feel like my skin is too tight on me. All the time, I fight the urge to cut my hair and buy new clothes. I mean, who exactly am I going to change into? I'm still me, but not.

~ Lila Lila's fingernail taps repeatedly against the table, like a machine gun firing off multiple rounds. "I'm too tired to deal with this now." She slams her hand on the table, silencing any more discussion on her possible prankster.

She stands and I follow, wondering if the park ranger will allow me back into the camp. Otherwise, I'm screwed. "Can I come back in the morning?" Then I remember what time it is. "Late morning? Afternoon?"

Lila freezes the same way Meg does anytime she's near the baby. h.e.l.l, Lila hates me.

"Will you stay? I told the police you would. You told the police you would. If you leave that would be like breaking the law or something, so you have to stay."

I raise an eyebrow at her logic-or lack of logic-but there's no way I'm blowing this opportunity. "I'll stay."

"Good. Because you have to."

Lila leads me back into the living room and mumbles for me to stay put. Her footsteps are light down the hallway. The one-story house is the size of a mansion and decorated like one of Mom's Better Homes and Gardens magazines. Nice and breakable s.h.i.+t-everywhere. After several abrupt sounds that indicate Lila must have accepted a wrestling match with an alligator, she reappears with blankets and a pillow.

"Do you mind sleeping on the couch?" she asks.

I'd sleep on nails in order to be near her. "No."

She hands me the ingredients for a temporary bed.