My First Diary 14 Chapter 14 - My Loneliness...

15/02/2018. Sunday

Dear Diary,

I'm sorry that I didn't check up on you as much as I said I will, these past few days have been crazy, I would have updated you on how things are, if only my diary was here with me, but I'm gonna tell you now! So... I kissed Tom Lynn, but I'm not sure if we are going to be in a actually relations.h.i.+p, I mean, I would want to, but I... It sounds too good to be true, besides, I'm not good for Tom, he deserves better, someone better than me, and I cannot believe that I just said that! Anyways, then I had a bizarre dream of my dad, and Samantha, in case if you don't know, Samantha was my best friend... until she didn't pa.s.s away in that tragic accident, I wish that she didn't go past that construction site... it was way too dangerous, but her being Samantha.. she took her chances.... and lost them all when a ton of heavy material fell from that 12 story building, right onto her, there was a loud bang, and she was gone... forever... but yeah, that was Samantha, she was one of the nicest people I have ever met, and still is, but you know, life must go on... Anyways, I think you know the story about my dead father, if not, he died in a plane crash... even though it was last year, I will cannot get over the loss of him, why does life have to take away everyone I love, and care about, that's what I wanna know, so that was basically it, I don't want to get sad today, I don't feel like being sad today, I just wanna enjoy myself! Anyways, bye for now,

Emma XOXO

"I must focus on more optimistic things, so wonder why I feel so depressed lately, I just hope that Isabella is gonna come back, Om beginning to feel lonely" Emma thought to herself as the turned her head to her left and looked outside the window, "looks pretty chilly out there, but I would love to be put there in the snow, playing around with my friends, making snow angels.... just like those two kids outside, running around thinking that time stopped for their games... but unfortunately, or fortunately, time never stops... with every second pa.s.sing by, I'm getting older and older, but there is nothing that we can do about it...." Emma thinks to her self more, "Emma... optimism.... be optimistic...." she tells herself as she is sitting in her bed, alone. "But I can't... I feel like I have been through some things... even through I danced with Jenifer, and we both laughed, it does not feel right for me to be optimistic... my mind always drifts to my dad... and Samantha, I hope that heaven treats them better than I ever did" Emma thinks to herself even more as her eyes begin to water. Suddenly a loud knock broke the silence.

*Knock knock knock*

"C-come in!" Emma tells the person who was knocking in the door, the door opened and Emma began to grin, as she expected her friend, Isabella, to enter the room, but she gets a bit confused when she sees... "Tom?" Emma said confused, "you surprised to see me Emma?" Tom asked, "well, I bit" Emma answered, "O mean, I did miss you, and I was kinda alone here for a while so yeah, thanks for coming by Tom" Emma adds as she looks into Tom's eyes, and Tom looks into Emma's eyes. "Look, I'm sorry for what happened earlier... but I think that it was a right thing to say, you know..." Tom told Emma, "I understand Tom, It's just that I'm scared that I'm not right for you, and that you are meeting someone else, someone better than me..." Emma explained to Tom, as her grin faded away, and got replaced by a frown, "don't be so ridiculous Emma, of course I would never cheat on you, or go out behind your back, I don't think that it's right, and so do you, which makes me less concerned that you will not be going out with another guy behind my back" Tom said to Emma as he sighed from relief. "I would never cheat on you, you are my precious Tom, you are what I want in a guy, you are perfect for me..." Emma said to Tom as Emma reached out her hand and began to hold Tom's hands in her hands. The both exchanged gazes but we're interrupted by knocking on the door.

"Emma, I'm back, hope you didn't miss me too much!" Isabella said as she walking into the room, "welcome back Isabella... long time no see" Emma said smiling as Isabella. "Ooo, who is this handsome? huh?" Isabella asked as she smiled at Tom, "get of my man Isabella, he mine!" Emma jokes around with Isabella, "but now for real, who is he?.... Wait... is this... Tom?" Isabella asked, "yes, my man Tom" said Emma, "hey, well them, you have a majestic eye!" Isabella told Emma with a surprised look in her eyes. "T-thanks I guess..." Tom said to Isabella, "no bother cutie, just don't you dare mess with my sista Emma, you hear?" Isabella said to Tom, furiously, "don't worry Isabella, he is great!" Emma rea.s.sured Isabella, "just great?" Tom asked Emma joking around, "well if you don't want me naming 300 other thing, then I guess i will stick with great" Emma said smiling at Tom, "fair enough I guess" Tom said chuckling a bit. "I have to be honest guys, you look cute together!" Isabella complimented Emma and Tom, "well thank you Isabella" Tom said, "wait... you know my name?" Isabella said, feeling a bit weirded out, "it's from around the school, I'm also really good with names so yea, I know your name" Tom told Isabella as he began smiling. "Well I'm glad that a hot stranger knows my name, not complaining yet" said Isabella as they all began to laugh, suddenly Emma stops and begins to blink faster, and suddenly, she closed her eyes completely, she began to clench her teeth as she grabbed her head, Isabella and Tom stopped laughing and began to really get concerned for Emma. "E-Emma?.. can you hear me?" Isabella asked worried, "m... my head...my head..." Emma said over and over again, Tom quickly ran out the door to call a doctor, while Isabella is with Emma, trying to help her, Emma's pain keeps on intensifying, and intensifying, until suddenly... "Emma!?" Isabella shouts as Emma pa.s.ses out

*to be continued*