Mana: Before The Rise 234 It Was Always Meant To Be Like This

"Why?"

"I figured it was about time" Miyu said lightly.

"Its to early you have-"

"I have and its enough, Emotions I hate, I dislike the feeling of being filled with hate, with loneliness, jealousy and sorrow. Those things I can't do, I'm tired of feeling, this is different from constantly fighting the Neuroi. Emotions are hard."

"So you would rather run away."

"No, because its someone else that can feel them for me. The other Me's that exist they can deal with that."

"I feel like you need a better goodbye then this."

"Why?"

"I don't know, you have been with me for so long."

"But, you know this was bound to happen, correct."

"I did"

"I had a dream."

"You did?"

"Yes, A women was in it, It was like I know her and yet don't. But, she was looking at me with her a blank expression but her eyes showed intense pain and sadness. Somehow I didn't like, it made feel like I was keeping her waiting and I had to get to her no matter what. I had to make her stop waiting. So.."

"That Dream made you do this"

Miyu nodded

"That women I think I know who you are talking about. I dream of her to sometimes. I dream of me chasing after her so that I can have a hug or to feel her warmth. But she wouldn't let me get close. IN those dreams I'm always doing this. I can't seem to stop because I…"

"To give her warmth"

"Yes"

"So that she can stop being sad."

"So that she doesn't have to wait anymore"

Rachel could feel it her back becoming lighter, Miyu makes a light sigh, it sounded peaceful and settle. She sounded as if she could not wait, that peace was finally coming at the end.

"Goodbye Miyu"

The White s.p.a.ce Disappeared, and Rachel was left sitting on the couch-bed alone. She never felt it more so then now, laying down she trembled her wobbly voice started to say in a slow whisper

"Death is the Only Peace there is, shouldn't it be."

Rachel sat outside in one of the gardens, her expression looked melancholy. As she was lost in her thoughts, Atlas was by her side pouring her some coffee for her and adding pacing a plate of square chocolates to her.

There where other G.o.ds and G.o.ddess hanging around having fun, relaxing. Their faces filled with brightness as if nothing could go wrong.

"Hey, Sis"

Rachel turned around to see Nancey, her eyes looked tired and her body no longer showed a pregnant state. She is still trying to get over the events the happened to her baby, from what she heard Nancey has gotten into a cold war with Azdis.

"I heard about Miyu, are you okay" Nancey asked worriedly.

"I just miss her, that's all" Rachel said her expression slightly sad. She waved her hand dismissing Atlas who stepped back only to disappear.

"hmmm" Nancey nodded her head.

"Why are you insisting on meeting Azdis's brother?" Rachel asked light while spinning the spoon in her Coffee.

"I just want to know why"

"He is a selfish person, Nancey, he can't stand the idea of his own brother having something."

"But, I still…."

"Nancey, both me, Migneas and Azdis. Do not want you two to meet. That man may take your life simply because you married his brother. So please, get it out of your head on meeting him. If Azdis brother does do something to you he won't be able to protect you because his t.i.tle conflict with his brother's light and he made a Soul vow to his brother saying he'll never hurt him."

"Odore Garden, would allow that." Nancey shock her head.

"Killing another G.o.d is not illegal, Nancey." Rachel got serious

"…." Nancey looked up shocked.

Rachel waved her hand and a screen popped up in front on Nancey.

Lower Level G.o.d

Ser > Eight to First

Sar > Eight to First

Sir > Fifth to First

Middle Level G.o.ds

Ver > Eight to First

Var > Eight to First

Vir > Eight to First

Vert > Eight to First

Vest > Eight to First

Vage > Eight to First

Higher Level G.o.ds

Ler > Eight to First

Lar > Eight to First

Lir > Eight to First

"Nancey you are a Seconded ranked 'Sir', while Azdis and his brother are a both a First Ranked Vague. "Odore Garden while only have him file a report but no disciplinary action with be taken. Your Rank is to absurdly low an they will take it as if you brought trouble upon yourself. Plus, you are in the middle layer of the Garden where the majority of the population here are middle leveled G.o.ds

And if you where to die, Azdis wouldn't take it so well." Rachel then stopped talking when she saw Nancey crying. She snapped her fingers to make the screen disappear.

"I just don't get it, why, he had to be so cruel. I wanted to.."

"A very human emotion, Nancey, but we are not human, not anymore." Rachel slowly said. "You've as G.o.ds must detach are self's in some way in order to be fair. For the position we are in we shouldn't be over emotional or sentimental.

"detachment to mortal life"

"Yes, as G.o.ds some form of detachment is necessary in order to judge properly."

"Then, What about you. You miss Miyu do you not." Nancey clenched her hands. Dark energy started to rise from her.

Slam!

Rachel slammed her hand into the table, "Stop, Nancey! She yelled startling her, that dark energy disappeared as if it was never there. "Do you wish to fall from grace?" she said after calming her tone done and standing up.

Nancey's dull eye met hers making Rachel sigh and turned her gaze away. "Nancey please understand, It was always meant to be like This."