The Stories of Vladimir Nabokov Part 3
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"Biblical G.o.d.... Gaseous vertebrate.... I am not a believer."
"That's from Huxley," insinuatingly observed Monfiori. "There was a biblical G.o.d, though.... The point is that He is not alone; there are numerous biblical G.o.ds.... A host. My favorite one is ... 'He sneezes and there is light. He has eyes like the eyelashes of dawn.' Do you understand what this means? Do you? And there is more: '... the fleshy parts of his body are solidly interconnected, and they won't budge.' Well? Well? Do you understand?"
"Wait a minute," shouted Kern.
"No, no-you must think about it. 'He transforms the sea into a seething ointment; he leaves behind a trail of radiance; the abyss is akin to a patch of gray hair!' "
"Wait, will you," interrupted Kern. "I want to tell you that I have decided to kill myself...."
Monfiori gave him an opaque, attentive look, covering his gla.s.s with his palm. He was silent for a time.
"Just as I thought," he began with unexpected gentleness. "Tonight, as you were watching the people dancing, and before that, when you got up from the table ... There was something about your face ... The crease between the brows ... That special one ... I understood right away ..." He fell silent, caressing the table's edge.
"Listen to what I'm going to tell you," he continued, lowering his heavy, purplish eyelids with their wartlike lashes. "I search everywhere for the likes of you-in expensive hotels, on trains, in seaside resorts, at night on the quays of big cities." A dreamy little sneer fleeted across his lips.
"I recall, in Florence once ..." He raised his doelike eyes. "Listen, Kern-I'd like to be present when you do it.... May I?"
Kern, in a numb slouch, sensed a chill in his chest under his starched s.h.i.+rt. We're both drunk, the words rushed through his brain, and he's spooky.
"May I?" repeated Monfiori with a pout, "Pretty please?" (touch of clammy, hairy little hand).
With a jerk and a groggy sway Kern rose from his chair.
"Go to h.e.l.l! Let me out.... I was joking...."
The attentive gaze of Monfiori's leechy eyes did not waver.
"I've had enough of you! I've had enough of everything." Kern dashed off with a splashlike gesture of his hands. Monfiori's gaze came unstuck with what seemed like a smack.
"Murk! Puppet!... Wordplay!... Basta!..."
He banged his hip painfully on the edge of the table. The raspberry fatty behind his vacillating bar puffed out his white s.h.i.+rtfront and began to float, as though in a curved mirror, amid his bottles. Kern traversed the gliding ripples of the carpet and, with his shoulder, shoved a falling gla.s.s door.
The hotel was fast asleep. Mounting the cus.h.i.+ony stairs with difficulty, he located his room. A key protruded from the adjoining door. Someone had forgotten to lock himself in. Flowers meandered in the dim light of the corridor. Once he was in his room he spent a long time groping along the wall in search of the light switch. Then he collapsed into an armchair by the window.
It struck him that he must write certain letters, farewell letters. But the syrupy drinks had weakened him. His ears filled with a dense, hollow din, and gelid waves breathed on his brow. He had to write a letter, and there was something else troubling him. As if he had left home and forgotten his wallet. The mirrory blackness of the window reflected his stripelike collar and his pale forehead. He had splashed some intoxicating drops on his s.h.i.+rtfront. He must write that letter ... no, that wasn't it. Suddenly something flashed in his mind's eye. The key! The key protruding from the neighboring door....
Kern rose ponderously and went out into the dimly lit corridor. From the enormous key dangled a s.h.i.+ny wafer with the number 35. He stopped in front of this white door. There was an avid tremor in his legs.
A frosty wind lashed his brow. The window of the s.p.a.cious, illuminated bedroom was wide open. On the wide bed, in open-collared yellow pajamas, Isabel lay supine. A pale hand drooped, with a smouldering cigarette between its fingers. Sleep must have overcome her without warning.
Kern approached the bed. He banged his knee against a chair, on which a guitar uttered a faint tw.a.n.g. Isabel's blue hair lay in tight circles on the pillow. He took a look at her dark eyelids, at the delicate shadow between her b.r.e.a.s.t.s. He touched the blanket. Her eyes opened immediately. Then, in a hunchbacked kind of stance, Kern said: "I need your love. Tomorrow I shall shoot myself."
He had never dreamt that a woman, even if taken by surprise, could be so startled. First Isabel remained motionless, then she lunged, looking back at the open window, slipping instantly from the bed, and rushed past Kern with bowed head, as if expecting a blow from above.
The door slammed. Some sheets of letter paper fluttered from the table.
Kern remained standing in the middle of the s.p.a.cious bright room. Some grapes glowed purple and gold on the night table.
"Madwoman," he said aloud.
He laboriously s.h.i.+fted his shoulders. Like a steed he trembled with a prolonged s.h.i.+ver from the cold. Then, suddenly, he froze motionless.
Outside the window, swelling, flying, a joyous barking sound approached by agitated jolts. In a wink the square of black night in the window opening filled and came aboil with solid, boisterous fur. In one broad and noisy sweep this roughish fur obscured the night sky from one window frame to the other. Another instant and it swelled tensely, obliquely burst in, and unfolded. Amid the whistling spread of agitated fur flashed a white face. Kern grabbed the guitar by its finger-board and, with all his strength, struck the white face flying at him. Like some fluffy tempest, the giant wing's rib knocked him off his feet. He was overwhelmed by an animal smell. Kern rose with a lurch.
In the center of the room lay an enormous angel.
He occupied the entire room, the entire hotel, the entire world. His right wing had bent, leaning its angle against the mirrored dresser. The left one swung ponderously, catching on the legs of an overturned chair. The chair banged back and forth on the floor. The brown fur of the wings steamed, iridescent with frost. Deafened by the blow, the angel propped itself on its palms like a sphinx. Blue veins swelled on its white hands, and hollows of shadow showed on its shoulders next to the clavicles. Its elongated, myopic-looking eyes, pale-green like predawn air, gazed at Kern without blinking from beneath straight, joined brows.
Suffocating from the pungent odor of wet fur, Kern stood motionless in the apathy of ultimate fear, examining the giant, steamy wings and the white face.
A hollow din began beyond the door in the corridor, and Kern was overcome by a different emotion: heart-rending shame. He was ashamed to the point of pain, of horror, that in a moment someone might come in and find him and this incredible creature.
The angel heaved a noisy breath, moved. But his arms had grown weak, and he collapsed on his chest. A wing jerked. Grinding his teeth, trying not to look, Kern stooped over him, took hold of the mound of damp, odorous fur and the cold, sticky shoulders. He noticed with sickening horror that the angel's feet were pale and boneless, and that he would be unable to stand on them. The angel did not resist. Kern hurriedly pulled him toward the wardrobe, flung open the mirrored door, began pus.h.i.+ng and squeezing the wings into the creaking depths. He seized them by their ribs, trying to bend them and pack them in. Unfurling flaps of fur kept slapping him in the chest. At last he closed the door with a solid shove. At that instant there came a lacerating, unbearable shriek, the shriek of an animal crushed by a wheel. He had slammed the door on one of the wings, that was it. A small corner of the wing protruded from the crack. Opening the door slightly, Kern shoved the curly wedge in with his hand. He turned the key.
It grew very quiet. Kern felt hot tears running down his face. He took a breath and rushed for the corridor. Isabel lay next to the wall, a cowering heap of black silk. He gathered her in his arms, carried her into his room, and lowered her onto the bed. Then he s.n.a.t.c.hed from his suitcase the heavy Parabellum, slammed the clip home, ran out holding his breath, and burst into Room 35.
The two halves of a broken plate lay, all white, on the carpet. The grapes were scattered.
Kern saw himself in the mirrored door of the wardrobe: a lock of hair fallen over an eyebrow, a starched dress s.h.i.+rtfront spattered with red, the lengthwise glint of the pistol's barrel.
"Must finish it off," he exclaimed tonelessly, and opened the wardrobe.
There was nothing but a gust of odorous fluff. Oily brown tufts eddying about the room. The wardrobe was empty. On its floor lay a white squashed hatbox.
Kern approached the window and looked out. Furry little clouds were gliding across the moon and breathing dim rainbows around it. He shut the cas.e.m.e.nts, put the chair back in its place, and kicked some brown tufts under the bed. Then he cautiously went out into the corridor. It was quiet as before. People sleep soundly in mountain hotels.
And when he returned to his room what he saw was Isabel with her bare feet hanging from the bed, trembling, with her head between her hands. He felt ashamed, as he had, not long ago, when the angel was looking at him with its odd greenish eyes.
"Tell me, where is he?" asked Isabel breathlessly.
Kern turned away, went to the desk, sat down, opened the blotter, and replied, "I don't know."
Isabel retracted her bare feet onto the bed.
"May I stay here with you for now? I'm so frightened...."
Kern gave a silent nod. Dominating the tremor of his hand, he started writing. Isabel began speaking again, in an agitated, toneless voice, but for some reason it appeared to Kern that her fright was of the female, earthly variety.
"I met him yesterday as I was flying on my skis in the dark. Last night he came to me."
Trying not to listen, Kern wrote in a bold hand: "My dear friend, this is my last letter. I could never forget how you helped me when disaster crashed down on me. He probably lives on a peak where he hunts alpine eagles and feeds on their meat...."
Catching himself, he slashed that out and took another sheet. Isabel was sobbing with her face buried in the pillow.
"What shall I do now? He'll come after me for revenge.... Oh, my G.o.d...."
"My dear friend," Kern wrote quickly, "she sought unforgettable caresses and now she will give birth to a winged little beast...." Oh, d.a.m.n! He crumpled the sheet.
"Try to get some sleep," he addressed Isabel over his shoulder, "and leave tomorrow. For a monastery."
Her shoulders shook rapidly. Then she grew still.
Kern wrote. Before him smiled the eyes of the one person in the world with whom he could freely speak or remain silent. He wrote to that person that life was finished, that he had begun feeling of late that, in place of the future, a black wall was looming ever closer, and that now something had happened after which a man cannot and must not continue living. "At noon tomorrow I shall die," wrote Kern, "tomorrow, because I want to die in full command of my faculties, in the sober light of day. And right now I am in too deep a state of shock."
When he had finished he sat down in the armchair by the window. Isabel was sleeping, her breathing barely audible. An oppressive fatigue girdled his shoulders. Sleep descended like a soft fog.
3.
He was awakened by a knock on the door. Frosty azure was pouring through the window.
"Come in," he said, stretching.
The waiter noiselessly set a tray with a cup of tea on the table and exited with a bow.
Laughing to himself, Kern thought, "And here I am in a rumpled dinner jacket."
Then, instantly, he remembered what had happened during the night. He shuddered and glanced at the bed. Isabel was gone. Must have returned to her room with the approach of morning. And by now she has undoubtedly left.... He had a momentary vision of brown, crumbly wings. Getting up quickly, he opened the door to the corridor.
"Listen," he called to the waiter's departing back. "Take a letter with you."
He went to the desk and rummaged about. The fellow was waiting at the door. Kern slapped all his pockets and took a look under the armchair.
"You may go. I'll give it to the porter later."
The parted hair bent forward, and the door closed softly.
Kern was distressed at having lost the letter. That letter in particular. He had said in it so well, so smoothly and simply, all that needed to be said. Now he could not recall the words. Only senseless sentences surfaced. Yes, the letter had been a masterpiece.
He began writing anew, but it came out cold and rhetorical. He sealed the letter and neatly wrote the address.
He felt a strange lightness in his heart. He would shoot himself at noon, and after all, a man who has resolved to kill himself is a G.o.d.
The sugary snow glistened outside the window. He felt drawn out there, for the last time.
The shadows of frosted trees lay on the snow like blue plumes. Sleigh bells jingled somewhere, densely and merrily There were lots of people out, girls in fur caps moving timorously and awkwardly on their skis, young men exhaling clouds of laughter as they called loudly to each other, elderly people ruddy from the effort, and some sinewy blue-eyed oldster dragging a velvet-covered sled. Kern thought in pa.s.sing, why not give the old chap a whack in the face, a backhanded one, just for the fun of it, for now everything was permissible. He broke out laughing. He had not felt so good in a long time.
Everyone was drifting to the area where the ski-jumping compet.i.tion had begun. The site consisted of a steep descent merging halfway down into a snowy platform, which ended abruptly, forming a right-angled projection. A skier glided down the steep section and flew off the projecting ramp into the azure air. He flew with outstretched arms, landed upright on the continuation of the slope, and glided on. The Swede had just broken his own recent record and, far below, in a whirlwind of silvery dust, turned sharply with one bent leg extended.
Two others, in black sweaters, sped past, jumped, and resiliently hit the snow.
"Isabel is jumping next," said a soft voice at Kern's shoulder. Kern thought rapidly, Don't tell me she is still here.... How can she ... and looked at the speaker. It was Monfiori. In a top hat, pushed over his protruding ears, and a little black coat with strips of faded velvet on the collar, he stood out drolly amid the woolly crowd. Should I tell him? thought Kern.
He rejected with revulsion the smelly brown wings-must not think about that.
Isabel mounted the hill. She turned to say something to her companion, gaily, gaily as always. This gaiety gave Kern a scary feeling. He caught what seemed a fleeting glimpse of something above the snows, above the gla.s.sy hotel, above the toylike people-a shudder, a s.h.i.+mmer ...
"And how are you today?" asked Monfiori, rubbing his lifeless hands.
Simultaneously voices rang out around them: "Isabel! Airborne Isabel!"
Kern threw back his head. She was hurtling down the steep slope. For an instant he saw her bright face, her glistening lashes. With a soft whistling sound she skimmed off the trampoline, flew up, hung motionless, crucified in midair. And then ...
No one, of course, could have expected it. In full flight Isabel crumpled spasmodically, fell like a stone, and started rolling amid the s...o...b..rsts of her cartwheeling skis.
Right away she was hidden from view by the backs of people rus.h.i.+ng toward her. Kern slowly approached with hunched shoulders. He saw it vividly in his mind's eye, as if it were written in a large hand: revenge, wingstroke. The Swede and the lanky type in horn-rimmed gla.s.ses bent over Isabel. With professional gestures the bespectacled man was palpating her motionless body. He muttered, "I can't understand it-her rib cage is crushed...."
He raised up her head. There was a glimpse of her dead, seemingly denuded face.
Kern turned with a crunch of his heel and strode off resolutely toward the hotel. Beside him trotted Monfiori, running ahead, peeking into his eyes.
"I am going upstairs to my room now," said Kern, trying to swallow his sobbing laughter, to restrain it. "Upstairs ... If you wish to accompany me ..."
The laughter neared his throat and bubbled over. Kern was climbing the stairs like a blind man. Monfiori was supporting him, meekly and hastily.
G.o.dS.
HERE is what I see in your eyes right now: rainy night, narrow street, streetlamps gliding away into the distance. The water runs down the drainpipes from steeply sloping roofs. Under the snake's-mouth of each pipe stands a green-hooped bucket. Rows of buckets line the black walls on either side of the street. I watch as they fill with cold mercury. The pluvial mercury swells and overflows. The bareheaded lamps float in the distance, their rays standing on end in the rainy murk. The water in the buckets is overflowing.
Thus I gain entry to your overcast eyes, to a narrow alley of black glimmer where the nocturnal rain gurgles and rustles. Give me a smile. Why do you look at me so balefully and darkly? It's morning. All night the stars shrieked with infant voices and, on the roof, someone lacerated and caressed a violin with a sharp bow. Look, the sun slowly crossed the wall like a blazing sail. You emanate an enveloping smoky haze. Dust starts swirling in your eyes, millions of golden worlds. You smiled!
We go out on the balcony. It's spring. Below, in the middle of the street, a yellow-curled boy works lickety-split, sketching a G.o.d. The G.o.d stretches from one sidewalk to the other. The boy is clutching a piece of chalk in his hand, a little piece of white charcoal and he's squatting, circling, drawing with broad strokes. This white G.o.d has large white b.u.t.tons and turned-out feet. Crucified on the asphalt, he looks skyward with round eyes. He has a white arc for a mouth. A log-sized cigar has appeared in his mouth. With helical jabs the boy makes spirals representing smoke. Arms akimbo, he contemplates his work. He adds another b.u.t.ton.... A window frame clanked across the way; a female voice, enormous and happy, rang out summoning him. The boy gave the chalk a punt and dashed inside. On the purplish asphalt remained the white geometric G.o.d, gazing skyward.
Your eyes again grew murky. I realized, of course, what you were remembering. In a corner of our bedroom, under the icon, there is a colored rubber ball. Sometimes it hops softly and sadly from the table and rolls gently on the floor.
Put it back in its place under the icon, and then why don't we go take a walk?
Spring air. A little downy. See those lindens lining the street? Black boughs covered with wet green spangles. All the trees in the world are journeying somewhere. Perpetual pilgrimage. Remember, when we were on our way here, to this city, the trees traveling past the windows of our railroad car? Remember the twelve poplars conferring about how to cross the river? Earlier, still, in the Crimea, I once saw a cypress bending over an almond tree in bloom. Once upon a time the cypress had been a big, tall chimney sweep with a brush on a wire and a ladder under his arm. Head over heels in love, poor fellow, with a little laundry maid, pink as almond petals. Now they have met at last, and are on their way somewhere together. Her pink ap.r.o.n balloons in the breeze; he bends toward her timidly, as if still worried he might get some soot on her. First-rate fable.
All trees are pilgrims. They have their Messiah, whom they seek. Their Messiah is a regal Lebanese cedar, or perhaps he is quite small, some totally inconspicuous little shrub in the tundra....
Today some lindens are pa.s.sing through town. There was an attempt to restrain them. Circular fencing was erected around their trunks. But they move all the same....
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